^maybe...
longer acting benzos are better for me because they prevent the anxiety in the first place. IMO xanax is great for panic attacks, but not that good for GAD because of the ups and downs. it is also harder to taper from xanax because it only lasts 3-5hrs for me.
dont lose faith man, and definitely talk to someone if you are thinking about hurting yourself!! i know what it is like to be anxious all the time and it really does suck! i just feel so debilitated from the anxiety that i literally cant do anything or i will freak out even more! i have anxiety attacs when trying to cook beef because i have never really cooked beef before and i get so anxious about whether or not i cooked the beef to the right temp so that i dont get sick? crazy huh, stupid fucking beef makes me want to curl into a bawl and cry hahahaha. it sounds funny, but it is true!!
for me, valium or klonopin + wellbutrin or d-amp helps me overcome my anxiety the most. ADHD runs in my family though (my sister has been on amphetamines for 15 years for adhd) so i think that adhd meds make me feel alot more myself! dont give up man!! i suggest going to your doctor and telling him how you feel and try asking him for other options..
im not a doctor; it is almost impossible to diagnose someone over the internet. i hope sharing my stories and experiences and what worked for ME will help you find some strength and give you the desire to keep trying!! if xanax doesnt work you, keep pushing your doctor to try new meds, dontgive up, you will find relief soon!! i feel very similar at the moment because i am in opiate withdrawal and i feel soo fucking hopeless and depressed like nothing will ever cure me, but if you think like that, you will be doomed to a life of self-sabotage!! it sounds a little funny, but right now you are your own worse enemy! i think you do have anxieties and need medications, but medicine should be used as a tool to help you overcome your disadvantages in life!! you cant expect swallowing pills ttoo cure you, just like you cant expect to fix a car with just a wrench. you need to have a whole tool box of wrenches, screws, screw-drives, pliers, jumper cables, spare tires, engine oil, coolant, ect ect.. just like how you cant fix a car with one tool, you cant expect to fix yourself with only xanax. you need to be proactive at changing your life for the better. you have to push yourself every day by going to counseling, exercisig, finding hobbies, talking about your feelings and all that bullshit. yah it sounds stupid and cliche, but talking about my feelings and how i feel really allows me to internalize my issues; and to take the right steps at fixing them. dealing with anxiety is something you will have to deal with for the rest of your life. i am not saying this to scare you, but i want to be truthful with you. you really realy need to learn new skills for dealing with anxiety and stress other than swallowing more pills or you wont make any progress..
know that whatever progress you made, is from you alone!! the benzos and anxiety medication will help lay down a path for you to follow, but it is you that must do all the hard work and it is YOU who must walk the road.
good luck and best wishes, if you have any questions or just want to talk, feel free to pm me
-laC
