TheBollocks
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jun 27, 2010
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- 142
Okay so for the past 3-5 months I have been wd/ing off benzos which was originally around 5-8mgs of clonopin a day with a bevvy of assorted drugs along the way and thats been my life for 6 years now Ive done it all name the drug ive done it in excess but now my doctor and family are really pushing me to become 100% clean my doctor doesnt know shit about benzos he originally ordered my taper schedule to be -.5mg every week needless to say the week of none is rapidly approaching and it has been a living hell since the first week of tapering. Now i am going to see a hopefully more qualified doc but what should I tell him? I mean its been shite for the past few months little to no social life no drive to get out of bed absolutely horrifying pain at all times to get to sleep I have to resort to bottles of nyquil or bags of d. So any advice on what meds/taper schedule I should go for? I really think I was better off on the clonopin Im not really the outgoing type (being an ex debt collector left my life kind of lacking in a lot of areas and a lot of remorse and regrets) I was brilliant I could tell you anything you wanted to know now I am a mess in every sense of the word I can only feel hate (except for today I watched The Cat Returns and for some reasons cried through most of it) my family is trying to help but all I can return is hate cynicism and pure nhilism. What should I do this is very out of character for me to ask anyone for any kind of help but it seems like you all know what youre talking about. Pretty please any advice is welcome and mods if this is in anyway wrong or against the rules fucking delete it without thinking. Thank you.