being brave

[wiSdoMiKaL]

i dont want to see you.
i dont want to look into your eyes
and see everything that i love about you.
i dont want to feel heavy in the heart,
knowing without doubt,
that its just not going to be.
i dont want to be in your presance
for i know i wont be able to be brave.
and being brave takes so much away from me
i dont want to look into your beautiful face,
and see that your eyes cant meet mine.
i dont want to cry in front of you
and see you falter, and become uncomfortable.
uncomfortable.
that is how i feel now,
un able to be comforted.
because i feel so much for you.
and i still dream about you.
and i know your going to walk away.
how can i know i am beautiful,
yet still have so much doubt rage in my mind?
i dont think i ever want to see you again.
i dont want you to see the pain,
the turmoil, the ever growing sadness.
the shattered hopes that once arose need swept up.
i am drawn to the conclusion of being apart.
life without you continues on
rolling onwards....
since time and space have no meaning in this aloneity,
i am left empty in my one-ness
my own incompleteness.
i am hollow, drawn out of reeded water...
because it is no valid garuntee
that you will feel what i feel towards me.
just fall asleep knowing i love you,
and as i kiss your fore-head goodnight
as i walk out the front door
as i pass under the street lights,
and out into the great un-known,
do not follow me with your eyes,
do not watch me walk away,
and please, dont see me cry.
just lay to rest and know
the love will never die.
so take your life beautifully,
and in everything you do, be happy...
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how can one find the power to be brave?
thanks 2 all the words freaks up in here...
much respect 2 y'all...
lookie lookie i gots da cookie!
biig ups 2 writnpage + whippie + everyone else supportin n giving sum of the best advice this side of everywhere...
mad luvs + wiKked respects
goodnite!

much luv, yo' lil miSs thang...
xox wiSdoMiKaL
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be, simply, YOU...
and love, eternally, yourself

 

[Crow]

Thank you so much for posting that. I've had to face a similar situation recently. I've spent the last three days searching for somthing that can give me the strength to make it on with the rest of my journey in life. Thank you so much.
Crow

 

[grapekoolaid]

I really enjoyed this piece of art...because it shows how sometimes you have to put yourself and your feelings first even though it may and usually is a hard thing to do, especially when you love someone. I admire how strong you are also to remind that person that you do live them...but sometimes love just isn't enough. Continue to articulate your thoughs...i would love to hear more

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~When darkness thinks that it's outdone me,
I must remember that the greatest love's
inside of me~

 

[lithiumbabe]

I also thank you that was art, I found myself in that place in the last few weeks, I glad that you were brave and wrote that. Thanx

 

[Crow]

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