Speedaddict69
Bluelighter
Hey blue lighters, I havent been on in a long time maybe a year because ive been in and out of the juvenile court system, rehab, and on probation. I was arrested for the third time (March2013) after od'ing from taking too much of a hydrocodone, alprozolam combination, just after getting off probation from previous drug related issues. By overdose I mean I didnt flatline but had to be pumped with some iv that had a counteracting substance to keep me alive and slept for a day and a half after being dropped off at the juvenile detention center in shelby county alabama. I would stay there the next month before being sent off to my 3rd rehab. The first one was in-state, I was fifteen, drug of choice klonopin and not ready or mature. The second was very nice (Cumberland Heights), I was 16 and not ready, drug of choice, I dont remember maybe xanax, dexedrine, and oxycodone. Anyway I was also 16 this time and ready, the program was not lockdown and 3 months. I let them help me and worked with other youth while going to meetings everyday in groups. I get out, now on probation for the second time, same nice p.o., drug test random, maybe once a week. I drop all my friends, and out of school. I immediately get my ged and start working as a law clerk at family firm. I was sober maybe 6-7 months before having one beer at the beach. Then sober 4 months before screwing up here recently. Im in the process of getting off probation now and am off random testing, although I suspect I will get tested one more time probably in anywhere from a week to a month, then im free again. Anyway I love the stock market and want to become a (broker) financial advisor but this wont work if all I can think about or do is get high. The other morning I was borrowing a shirt of my grandpas (live with grandparents on weekdays) when I noticed a pill bottle in the shirt pocket. Dilauded (hydromorphone). I only took five out of the bottle (remember drug test, and "trying not to fuck up") and reported the bottle to my grandmother as my grandpa is out of town. I didnt take some until that afternoon but I couldnt work during the day bc all I could think about was holy shit what are the odds of grabbing that shirt out of a WALK-IN closet and me being the addict I am. I took three orally via parachute, felt really good and somewhat disappointing afterwards. Next week snort 2, much better that way, no I dont shoot anything, I know dillies are best iv'd. That was about 5 hours ago then popped a couple norco (hydrocodone 10s) and theyve worn off. All that said now I just want to feel that way constantly but cant in case drug test which I hope I can pass or I go to juvenile prison. What would you do? Thanks for making it this far
