hey !
i know a lot of people use the term K-hole for what they are experiencing. well there is a big difference between a true hole and just being in cartoon land.
I know noodle knows where i comming from on this ! =)
i love getting to cartoon land . i see some funny ass stuff, people morphing, i usually laugh hestericaly like a crazy person, sometimes depending on how deep in it , i'll start talking salad, or just non sense shit. the feeling of walking on "air" or like marshmellows is a riot. I act just like a little kid playing ! (well we do revert back towards childhood as we get older. )
but , i had an experience this past weekend that i don't want to re-visit any time ever.
we started of the night trollin. things were going pretty good , then something happened at the party that sent me into a very upset and depressed mood, not good when trippin. so i get all pissy and leave my group and go back to my truck to be alone. My mind has lost all control, wigged out , so i think, hey , i'll break out the kitty and pull myself back up . well, dumb ass me doesn't do a couple of bumps, i kill off a little more than half a gram at one time.
OH FUCK! mind fuck isn't a good term for this. i got so weird, couldn't focus on anything, couldn't walk, seeing shit and hearing voices that i didn't want to, had no control over my emotional state, would go from crying to anger fits. couldn't breath and started hyperventling and felt like puking. i felt like i was in cave with no light and it was just to freaky..
my friends finally came to find out where i went to and i was very anti social and litterally was telling them to leave me the fuck alone , but at the same time i'm needing them cause i've lost all control of myself and don't want to be alone. I think i could of got the trip back under control if it wasn't for the kitty. but it made for the rest of our partying to be really stressed out.
hell i know i rambled here , sorry about that. but i've seen some people in a real k- hole , where they convulse and are so fucked that it scares you watching them. and there hole experience is not a good one from what they seen in there or felt.
ok , well i don't know if i've helped or not here, but at least you know your not the only one to have a bad experience . and of course , till next time when we try it again and hope its the best yet ! take care !
Raverdad