Mental Health Bad feelings after being on meds probably permanent

[anxiguy70]

Hi guys,

I am experiencing bad feelings in my body and not a single doctor have a clue of whats going on with me.
Those feelings are like waves / rushes going from my neck down my back.
I also have a feeling of not "feeling comfortable" in my body, and also feeling like a torture inside of me but without physical pain.

Now the reason im posting it here is because lot of people here knows a shitload about pharmacology and i have few medications that ease / fix all those feelings, so i wanna know what is fked up inside my brain so i could probably find the perfect pill that will fix it all.

Alittle bit of important background: I have NEVER experienced ANY of these feelings before i was treated for 1 year with (Olanzapine 5mg~10mg/day) + (Prozac 20mg/day on and off).
Also, i have tried to quit Olanzapine 6 months after i initially started it and 2 days later i started feeling those bad rushes feeling, i then immediately resumed taking it. After another 6 months, i completely stopped both treatments and i entered in an awesome hypomanic state which lasted around 2 months, and i still had those bad feelings but i dealt with it, now its just too much for me.
Today we are 14 months after i stopped all treatments.

1) Every few weeks those rushes gets really worse and an acute dose of Fluoxetine 20mg fix like 50% of these rushes.
2) For some reasons Seroquel XR 300mg~450mg completely kills the rush + feeling uncomfortable inside my body + the torture feeling.
3) Fanapt (Iloperidone) 6mg x2 / day fix like 70% of the rush + feeling uncomfortable inside my body + the torture feeling.

I wish someone could help me find out the exact mechanism that fix me.

Thanks alot guys.

 

[Shrooms00087]

It's interesting your name is anxi-guy.
However it seems like your rush of energy/frustration has its links, you tended you use the word "feelings" a lot. I was just trying to summarize the general picture of your post.

Though I cannot identify "Those feelings are like waves / rushes going from my neck down my back." Did you used (or still) do a fair amount of uppers? It could be damage brought on by substances. To that end, there is no "perfect pill". It sounds like you have bi-polar disorder and anxiety. BUT, I'm a nobody. Now if you're having psychical disturbances in your C.N.S. then perhaps you need some sort of trauma medicine like benzo's. Also everything I said before may be rendered void simply from the fact that you are STOPPING 3 medications with their own withdraws (I'm guessing, but pretty sure).


I don't know how to help other than to re-frame how you talk talk to your doctor. Perhaps going to a counselor or something first to sort out what feelings are feelings (frustrations/anxiety) and what are psychical disturbances. But if you are in search of a "perfect pill" then you should trust your doctor and continue with their recommended treatment.

Just as an aside, I believe you answered your own inquiry:
"For some reasons Seroquel XR 300mg~450mg completely kills the rush + feeling uncomfortable inside my body + the torture feeling."

Wish you the best.

 

[herbavore]

I think when you are looking for the "perfect pill" you are in a dangerous mindframe. There probably is no perfect pill. It's a matter of untangling what all this is. Our mental states come with physical symptoms and our physical states heavily influence our mental states so it can be tricky. It sounds like you have many things going on and the most important thing is to be as physically healthy as you can so that your mind is clear to understand where these symptoms may be coming from.

 

[Darksidesam]

olanzapine is a bastard to quit, i was staying up for days straight (no other drugs involved)

I still dont feel right i been off it for about 3 months now

 

[Vaya]

It sounds like you have many things going on and the most important thing is to be as physically healthy as you can so that your mind is clear to understand where these symptoms may be coming from.

Just... this. I was experience protracted withdrawal from similar medications, on top of benzodiazepines, for the better part of the past six months. The BZD taper was only just completed, but I was in sheer agony. I'm not so sure that I can fully liken my symptoms to yours as I cannot define for myself what, in your world, is experienced as "rushes," but mine were more like brain blips or electric shocks. It would be as though I were - at one instant - experiencing reality and then -jolt- - though I hadn't moved, it was as though my entire body had been thrown forward at maximum velocity. I recall how scared I was, no matter how often or with how much intensity it happened. And then something changed. But it wasn't the medication - I had been off of the antipsychotics for a good while.

I began taking care of myself.

This is only recently, mind you, that I've come to grips with any form of success in that arena. A friend came into my life who lead me, through actions and not words, to believe that I, too, could benefit from self-initiated forms of structure and health care. By modifying my sleep schedule, eating habits and outward-attitude in addition to stopping the medications, I've since lost all of those mortifyingly uncomfortable sensations and been able to continue to pursue a happy and healthful existence.

 

[anxiguy70]

I could define them more as electric waves going from my neck down my back.
About your "electrical shocks" which i could define as brain zaps too, i had them too awhile after quitting the meds and taking an SSRI for a week would completely take those brain zaps off.
Now im left with electric waves, anxiety and derealization
The reason i dont like Seroquel not going back to Olanzapine is they are so zombifying and since ive quit them, i have done so much in my life. Taking them back would basically ruin me and will be no point in living life anymore.

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

I think you should give the anti-psychotics a couple months before saying they're no good. At least two. If they fix your symptoms couldn't there be some way to live with them?