DiaLæT
Bluelighter
that's all pot does for me now. i don't laugh, i don't talk, i don't have fun. i just become miserable.
i used to be a huge pot-head, always had a fucking blast when i was high, everything was hilarious, anything i did was fun if i was high.
then the day came when i fucked up and left my car unlocked with the doors open kicking it with my friends at a park's parking lot, my pot sitting in the glove compartment, and a cop rolled up and the first thing he fucking did was ask to search our cars. the stupid fuck who had his car, said "go for it", and then the cop sent us to the curb and tells us to shut up. he searches his car, and then immediately searches my car, without even asking me, without my consent at all, and i was too high to assess the situation, my eyes were probably blood red, and i thought that if i tried to resist this bullshit situation i would be handcuffed or something.
i learned my lesson, if there's drugs in my car, fucking lock the fucking car and tell the fucking cop that he's not allowed in my fucking car because i don't have to fucking let him.
but the possession ticket sat on my conscience, and i felt like shit. since im 18, i avoided telling my parents, and i became incredibly anxious and depressed. so i texted all of my friends for support. their solution? fucking pot. the drug i got a ticket for. yeah, i really want some more of that, that sounds GREAT!!!
and this is when i really began to understand my stoner friends. they're fucking useless. they're not having fun unless they're smoking. they don't care about me, they only care about my car and me driving them to clinics. they never have money, except to buy pot, and they blow it all on pot, and always ask to borrow money from me. and here's the worst fucking part. their concept of "nobody cares about pot" and then they start smoking in my fucking car!! if nobody cared about pot, why did i get a ticket for pot? they're not even careful, i had to hit a piece out of my friend's hand once because he pulled it out when a cop was right fucking next to us.
here's a little FYI: just because you have a clinic card, DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN SMOKE WHEREVER THE FUCK YOU WANT!! IT'S PRIVATE USE ONLY, FOR YOUR FUCKING HOUSE OR BACKYARD!!!
after getting a fucking ticket for pot, they for some reason think i don't care about shit like smoking in public. seriously, im fucking paranoid now, and pot only boosts my paranoia!
another thing. you stoners need to realize, pot DOES have negatives! im seriously sick of hearing about how "chill" it is to smoke, and that there's nothing wrong with it. if you're paranoid, pot doesn't always help. if you're anxious, pot doesn't always help. but, my friends don't listen. they either don't get it, or they're literally not listening to me at all. i mean, most of them change the subject whenever it's their turn to talk, just like, right on the spot, the subject is changed.
seriously, they try to make me think they want to hang out with ME when they call me, but they don't, they just want me to drive them places. they don't fucking care about me at all, they're just using me. one in particular would always call saying "hey let's kick it!" and then as soon as he got in my car he'd say "we should go to the clinic." and then when he got out of the clinic, he'd say "let's go to the other clinic!!" WHAT. THE. FUCK.
and their payment, is smoking me out. so that i can become awkward, self-conscious, and paranoid. yeah, thanks a lot, now refill my fucking tank. oh right, you blew all your money on pot, wow, FUCK you. that clinic fucker even started bitching about how many times he's smoked me out when i asked him to spot my tank for all of these rides. i should have just took his piece and smashed it, shown him what i think of his fucking smoke-outs, but i never did.
alright, so that's all the bitching i needed to do. i know im bitching, these were the times when i used to be a little bitch. i used to just give in and never stand up for myself. people would use me all the fucking time. the only reason why i kept going back to these pothead friends and smoking their fucking pot, was because i didn't know how to say "NO! i don't want to 'kick it', i don't want to 'smoke a fat bowl', and I don't want to fucking drive you around pointlessly!!" no, i'd just fucking do it, because i didn't want people to think i was a dick. well, i got fucking sick of it, and now i am a dick. less that i stand up for myself now, but i actually am a complete dick, full-blown. i made it pretty damn clear to those stoners that if they ever called me again, to "chill", i'd be out for their blood. and the people who ask me for rides, who i can tell plan to continuously ask me for rides whenever they see me, i flip them off and insult the shape of their faces. because fuck them. yeah im THAT kind of person now. their fault for finally tipping me off the edge, now they get this, and they're stuck with it.
the truth is, pot doesn't ALWAYS make me self-conscious and awkward. just around people i don't know, and people i don't like. i overdid it. pot lost its magic. so i quit. and when i say QUIT, i mean im not gonna smoke pot like it's the only thing left to do in this world to have any sort of fun. i have a fucking BLAST smoking with those friends of mine who aren't in any way associated with pot. that shit is WAY more fun than getting high with experienced stoners, these kids are actually fully and truly affected by it and it's funny as FUCK!!
but i have to really know them! i cant be high around new people, and i DEFINITELY cant get super-baked and then go to some fucking party or kick-back, no way, FUCK that! just because pot does this shit to me, doesn't mean i hate pot. marijuana is a fucking miracle plant, and i respect it in every way shape and form, every dimensional aspect, and I hope to fucking GOD they legalize this shit, because the only reason im paranoid in the first place is because of the LAW getting in the way!
i always wondered when i was going to finally work up the courage to stop smoking every day, so that i can finally have a high similar to my first few highs. i can finally say, it's fucking coming, and i can't fucking wait. i just hope it ain't with those lame-ass pathetic fucking stoner friends who are gonna end up asking for a ride somewhere really far away and not pay me back at all. shit, im bitching again. im supposed to be fucking over it!!!
hmmmm, this ain't much of a thread, is it? i didn't leave much lee-way to let people respond. i dunno, uhhhh....
does marijuana ever affect YOU negatively?? hahaha
i used to be a huge pot-head, always had a fucking blast when i was high, everything was hilarious, anything i did was fun if i was high.
then the day came when i fucked up and left my car unlocked with the doors open kicking it with my friends at a park's parking lot, my pot sitting in the glove compartment, and a cop rolled up and the first thing he fucking did was ask to search our cars. the stupid fuck who had his car, said "go for it", and then the cop sent us to the curb and tells us to shut up. he searches his car, and then immediately searches my car, without even asking me, without my consent at all, and i was too high to assess the situation, my eyes were probably blood red, and i thought that if i tried to resist this bullshit situation i would be handcuffed or something.
i learned my lesson, if there's drugs in my car, fucking lock the fucking car and tell the fucking cop that he's not allowed in my fucking car because i don't have to fucking let him.
but the possession ticket sat on my conscience, and i felt like shit. since im 18, i avoided telling my parents, and i became incredibly anxious and depressed. so i texted all of my friends for support. their solution? fucking pot. the drug i got a ticket for. yeah, i really want some more of that, that sounds GREAT!!!
and this is when i really began to understand my stoner friends. they're fucking useless. they're not having fun unless they're smoking. they don't care about me, they only care about my car and me driving them to clinics. they never have money, except to buy pot, and they blow it all on pot, and always ask to borrow money from me. and here's the worst fucking part. their concept of "nobody cares about pot" and then they start smoking in my fucking car!! if nobody cared about pot, why did i get a ticket for pot? they're not even careful, i had to hit a piece out of my friend's hand once because he pulled it out when a cop was right fucking next to us.
here's a little FYI: just because you have a clinic card, DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN SMOKE WHEREVER THE FUCK YOU WANT!! IT'S PRIVATE USE ONLY, FOR YOUR FUCKING HOUSE OR BACKYARD!!!
after getting a fucking ticket for pot, they for some reason think i don't care about shit like smoking in public. seriously, im fucking paranoid now, and pot only boosts my paranoia!
another thing. you stoners need to realize, pot DOES have negatives! im seriously sick of hearing about how "chill" it is to smoke, and that there's nothing wrong with it. if you're paranoid, pot doesn't always help. if you're anxious, pot doesn't always help. but, my friends don't listen. they either don't get it, or they're literally not listening to me at all. i mean, most of them change the subject whenever it's their turn to talk, just like, right on the spot, the subject is changed.
seriously, they try to make me think they want to hang out with ME when they call me, but they don't, they just want me to drive them places. they don't fucking care about me at all, they're just using me. one in particular would always call saying "hey let's kick it!" and then as soon as he got in my car he'd say "we should go to the clinic." and then when he got out of the clinic, he'd say "let's go to the other clinic!!" WHAT. THE. FUCK.
and their payment, is smoking me out. so that i can become awkward, self-conscious, and paranoid. yeah, thanks a lot, now refill my fucking tank. oh right, you blew all your money on pot, wow, FUCK you. that clinic fucker even started bitching about how many times he's smoked me out when i asked him to spot my tank for all of these rides. i should have just took his piece and smashed it, shown him what i think of his fucking smoke-outs, but i never did.
alright, so that's all the bitching i needed to do. i know im bitching, these were the times when i used to be a little bitch. i used to just give in and never stand up for myself. people would use me all the fucking time. the only reason why i kept going back to these pothead friends and smoking their fucking pot, was because i didn't know how to say "NO! i don't want to 'kick it', i don't want to 'smoke a fat bowl', and I don't want to fucking drive you around pointlessly!!" no, i'd just fucking do it, because i didn't want people to think i was a dick. well, i got fucking sick of it, and now i am a dick. less that i stand up for myself now, but i actually am a complete dick, full-blown. i made it pretty damn clear to those stoners that if they ever called me again, to "chill", i'd be out for their blood. and the people who ask me for rides, who i can tell plan to continuously ask me for rides whenever they see me, i flip them off and insult the shape of their faces. because fuck them. yeah im THAT kind of person now. their fault for finally tipping me off the edge, now they get this, and they're stuck with it.
the truth is, pot doesn't ALWAYS make me self-conscious and awkward. just around people i don't know, and people i don't like. i overdid it. pot lost its magic. so i quit. and when i say QUIT, i mean im not gonna smoke pot like it's the only thing left to do in this world to have any sort of fun. i have a fucking BLAST smoking with those friends of mine who aren't in any way associated with pot. that shit is WAY more fun than getting high with experienced stoners, these kids are actually fully and truly affected by it and it's funny as FUCK!!
but i have to really know them! i cant be high around new people, and i DEFINITELY cant get super-baked and then go to some fucking party or kick-back, no way, FUCK that! just because pot does this shit to me, doesn't mean i hate pot. marijuana is a fucking miracle plant, and i respect it in every way shape and form, every dimensional aspect, and I hope to fucking GOD they legalize this shit, because the only reason im paranoid in the first place is because of the LAW getting in the way!
i always wondered when i was going to finally work up the courage to stop smoking every day, so that i can finally have a high similar to my first few highs. i can finally say, it's fucking coming, and i can't fucking wait. i just hope it ain't with those lame-ass pathetic fucking stoner friends who are gonna end up asking for a ride somewhere really far away and not pay me back at all. shit, im bitching again. im supposed to be fucking over it!!!
hmmmm, this ain't much of a thread, is it? i didn't leave much lee-way to let people respond. i dunno, uhhhh....
does marijuana ever affect YOU negatively?? hahaha
