Vastness
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This is potentially a dangerous viewpoint to have. Sure, current DSM terms might be imperfect, but they are currently the best method we have to classify and understand the various forms of mental illness, and are the most widely accepted to be reasonably accurate by the scientific community.In the past I have been called bi polar type 1 but I personally like to stay away from DSM terms because labels can be very limiting and misleading.
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I'd like to mention again that I don't think I have bi polar, it is highly over diagnosed nowadays and I believe I was mislabeled that after the drug induced psychosis. So I'm not sure what I should think about future use.
By all means, if you disagree with your diagnosis, seek a second opinion. But otherwise please keep in mind that human beings are notoriously bad at accurate self-assessment and frequently overestimate or underestimate their own capabilities depending on their mood and a whole variety of other factors that they are not even aware of. In addition to this, you are (I'm guessing) not trained in a psychiatric medical discipline and thus probably not even qualified to make an assessment of anyone's mental health, let alone your own. If a medical professional has told you that you have Bipolar Type I, then in the absence of any medical training of your own, or the opinion of any other doctor, you may well "feel" that they are wrong but honestly, until you get a second opinion, your feelings need to take a back seat to the overwhelmingly more rational viewpoint that the assessment of one or more medical professionals is likely to be a far more accurate assessment of your condition than your own "feelings".
Regarding your main question, as has already been stated this is an absolutely terrible idea, and sounds to me highly irresponsible of any therapist to give you this idea. You have had not one but several drug induced psychoses, and by the sound of it some very serious delusions - this points overwhelmingly to some kind of latent psychiatric illness beyond that induced by the drug.
You should honestly abstain from all psychedelics, dissociatives and probably also hard stimulants for a very extended period (meaning, several years at least) until you have a far better understanding of your condition. It may not be advisable to ever attempt to take a psychedelic again but if you choose to do so it should be with very controlled doses and in the presence of, ideally, educated professionals but at the very least, educated and trusted friends with antipsychotics on hand. If you don't heed this advice you are very likely putting not only yourself at risk but also everyone around you.