westbank23
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Apr 11, 2013
- Messages
- 128
Well I'm coming up on being 2 weeks clean after going Cold turkey..it sucks but things are looking bright and I'm trying to encourage other friends to get clean(which is inturn helping me stay clean)..
Only comfort medicine was immoudium AD and some leg cream for my Restless legs.that's prescribed to my diabetic mother.
I've done this before (3rd time) I would get clean for 6-8 months and then go right back at it for a 2-3 year Pharma binge..I think this is the last time but I've come to terms that I am infact and addict..
I just can't do it no more because 1. ITS to damn expensive and 2.which should really be number 1,everything has fetnayl in it and I'm scared..8 friends/fellow users has passed away these pass 2 years due ODing..1 of them just 2 days ago..
My tolerance was anywhere from 210mg roxy and 1-2mg xanax(footballs) a day..
Main symptoms I'm suffering from now is insomnia, being very weak, Diarrhea,and not being able to pleasure my wife for more than 2 minutes off and on.its like as soon as we cuddle,I've finished (if u know what I mean) kind of embarrassing..
Good thing is that I don't have anxiety or depression which I guess is making this WD easy..
I really want to quit for good this time,I remember how life was so good will being sober.
Only comfort medicine was immoudium AD and some leg cream for my Restless legs.that's prescribed to my diabetic mother.
I've done this before (3rd time) I would get clean for 6-8 months and then go right back at it for a 2-3 year Pharma binge..I think this is the last time but I've come to terms that I am infact and addict..
I just can't do it no more because 1. ITS to damn expensive and 2.which should really be number 1,everything has fetnayl in it and I'm scared..8 friends/fellow users has passed away these pass 2 years due ODing..1 of them just 2 days ago..
My tolerance was anywhere from 210mg roxy and 1-2mg xanax(footballs) a day..
Main symptoms I'm suffering from now is insomnia, being very weak, Diarrhea,and not being able to pleasure my wife for more than 2 minutes off and on.its like as soon as we cuddle,I've finished (if u know what I mean) kind of embarrassing..
Good thing is that I don't have anxiety or depression which I guess is making this WD easy..
I really want to quit for good this time,I remember how life was so good will being sober.