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namnoc16

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Today is my day to pick up my 100 oxys and even though my wife promptly puts them in a safe I get anxiety counting down the minutes until I can pick them up. Feel like I'm waiting on my dope dealer,anoyone else get like this waiting for their script? I can't sleep the night before,feel like a kid on Christmas eve!!
 
I've never been prescribed anything good, but when I'm waiting for my drug of choice and the dealer tells me how long till I can get it yes I get very anxious waiting for it
 
I'm not prescribed anything awesome, gabapentin might count for some.. Love that stuff. Once, the pharmacy was out of it (small town mom and pop place) and I got antsy. Had to wait a few days because everywhere else was too expensive.

Drug dealers, ugh. They are NEVER on time around here. It seems like they spend 2 hours jackin off before they're ready for the sole purpose of torturing you. And they have nothing better to do, these people don't work and only sell a bit here and there. It's very upsetting.. But when you finally get it you feel like you won the lottery.
 
Today is my day to pick up my 100 oxys and even though my wife promptly puts them in a safe I get anxiety counting down the minutes until I can pick them up. Feel like I'm waiting on my dope dealer,anoyone else get like this waiting for their script? I can't sleep the night before,feel like a kid on Christmas eve!!

i once stayed up the whole night antipating refill day i even counted down the hours in real time in TL on this site lol. I get 120 oxycontin 40s a month (old formula - not in us or aus).
 
I can relate to that but mainly due to the fact that pharmacies typically didn't have my meds in stock, in my area at least. There was one instance where I travelled down a major route in town and stopped at every pharmacy I saw for nearly 15 miles. It took about 12 pharmacies before I finally hit one that had the meds in stock and would fill my script. That always gets me worked up since my doc has a tendency to write my script to fill on day 31 (30 day script). So, I'd have to be out searching high and low for my meds when I was basically out! Recently, I have hooked up with one pharmacy about 20 minutes away that keeps my meds in stock every month. They order one of my scripts just for me. I am always certain to be super nice and grateful with them. So far, so good!
 
My goodness when opiates no longer work for you or if you reach opiate hell its gonna be worse than when a child figures out santa claus is no longer real lol
 
ugh waiting till tomorrow for my 86 weekly five mg IR opana and 28 oxycotin 30
 
i used to be like that the day before I scored my hundred n 40 dilaudids a month from the doctor, or my morphine and vicodin. now it's hard to get excited about 20 tams and 20 oxy a week. im more excited when my paycheck come in and i can head to tel aviv and score a few grams.
 
My goodness when opiates no longer work for you or if you reach opiate hell its gonna be worse than when a child figures out santa claus is no longer real lol
Well that's the funny thing is I don't take them recreationally (used to be heroin addict) and yet I still get the night before anxiety. If my wife didn't put them up for me I'd probably cave during the month to some kinda temptation so maybe that's why I get the anxiety because deep into my subconscious I might tell myself "I can get high if I want to". I know I'm fucked in the head!
 
I'm fortunate to have a local pharmacy that is good to me and will order just about anything I need in 24-48 hours turnover, but I'm in the city so it's an embarrassment of riches when it comes to finding a place to fill scripts. I can just go to the place around the block or make a few phone calls ... when I was on bupe, though, there were a few occasions where it took a little while to find a place to fill it, and that was a challenge for sure. Freaking out. The hardest script I ever had to fill was dexedrine, a few years back when it was on indefinite back order due to DEA limitations on synthesis, maybe it still is, IDK, I don't take it anymore, and now for some reason Sonata is hard to find, but I found another neighborhood pharmacy that sorts me out for that. Everyone stocks pain meds but I don't really get 'em anymore. Luckily I have insurance so I pay like $60 for refills on something like $2500+ worth of drugs, of course I pay a bit for the insurance but it sure as hell works out, and at the end of the day that's good money for the pharmacies I guess because they've always gone out of their way. One hand wash the others. I can't say enough for my local pharmacists who are good folks who know me by name and know what I'm prescribed and sometimes even have it out for me on refill day. It's a wonderful thing. Stay away from chains and support your local pharmacy FTW.
 
Never really experienced pharm anticipation. The only psychoactive drugs I've ever been prescribed have been benzodiazepines and zolpidem, neither of which I particularly salivate over & neither of which have the addictive pull that opiates do.

If someone said that they had some fire tar & was going to help me procure it, though...I can & have experienced some anticipation regarding that ;) Since this question is about opiates & waiting for them
 
I used to have a benzo problem, so I pick up my weekly allotment of pills directly from my pdoc's office every Tuesday morning. Problem is they don't open until 10 AM, so if I wake up early, like before 6 AM, and I know I have to wait another 4 hours for my morning Ritalin, I can get a bit cranky.

But then, finally... well, the words of Röyksopp always come to mind for me:
And then it arrives
the moment before
the anticipation
you know it's like Mmmh~mmh~mmh
wait for it...
wait for the buildup...
and then let's DO IT! AH!-GAIN!


 
When I was on subutex, sometimes I would go through my weekly allotment quickly. I had my pharmacist (a local guy, always support your mom and pop businesses!) dole me out just enough for a week so I wouldn't abuse them. I would be awake all night, even though I wasn't even in withdrawal waiting for him to open at nine. I would even go pick my friend up at eight am, even though it was only a five minute drive there.

I get prescribed benzos now. Xanax and temazepam, but I hardly get excited for those, unless its 8pm and I'm taking my nightly dose to go to sleep. Then I am mildly excited about the time I'm taking them so that I don't oversleep the next day.
 
I get prescribed benzos now. Xanax and temazepam, but I hardly get excited for those, unless its 8pm and I'm taking my nightly dose to go to sleep. Then I am mildly excited about the time I'm taking them so that I don't oversleep the next day.
Yeah man I don't blame you there benzos to me are more used as a tool then recreation. My wife gets a 30 day script of them and they last her all year(she only takes when she's super stressed). I go get my Somas Thursday and once in a blue moon I will take 4 or 5 of them and catch a very short buzz but I don't get excited for them either!
 
It's terrible trying to fill anything here in O-town. The pill mill problem was bad a few years ago, and they were busting tons of docs. Now, you have to drive from pharmacy to pharmacy cause they won't tell you anything over the phone. Sometimes it takes days/weeks to get something filled. I go CRAZY!!! Hard to get excited about a script when you aren't sure if you can get it filled or even find the equivalent on the street!!!
 
Yeah man I don't blame you there benzos to me are more used as a tool then recreation. My wife gets a 30 day script of them and they last her all year(she only takes when she's super stressed). I go get my Somas Thursday and once in a blue moon I will take 4 or 5 of them and catch a very short buzz but I don't get excited for them either!

Me too. I would not use benzo recreationally but in order to function well. Problem is that tolerance raises and you realize you can't do this for life.
 
I'm fortunate to have a local pharmacy that is good to me and will order just about anything I need in 24-48 hours turnover, but I'm in the city so it's an embarrassment of riches when it comes to finding a place to fill scripts. I can just go to the place around the block or make a few phone calls ... when I was on bupe, though, there were a few occasions where it took a little while to find a place to fill it, and that was a challenge for sure. Freaking out. The hardest script I ever had to fill was dexedrine, a few years back when it was on indefinite back order due to DEA limitations on synthesis, maybe it still is, IDK, I don't take it anymore, and now for some reason Sonata is hard to find, but I found another neighborhood pharmacy that sorts me out for that. Everyone stocks pain meds but I don't really get 'em anymore. Luckily I have insurance so I pay like $60 for refills on something like $2500+ worth of drugs, of course I pay a bit for the insurance but it sure as hell works out, and at the end of the day that's good money for the pharmacies I guess because they've always gone out of their way. One hand wash the others. I can't say enough for my local pharmacists who are good folks who know me by name and know what I'm prescribed and sometimes even have it out for me on refill day. It's a wonderful thing. Stay away from chains and support your local pharmacy FTW.

I agree for the most part on the chains, especially now since the biggest ones have been fined by the DEA, but it really depends on the pharmacist, the attitude of their corporate managers, and geography. I worked for 10 years at one of the biggest chains and never refused a controlled script unless it was a clear forgery, there was a pattern of abuse, or it was too soon. My supervisor told us he would reprimand us, up to dismissal if we lied and said we didnt have something in stock when we did. We had a list of every C-II we were expected to carry based on history and I had every single one. At one point, we were in the top 5% in the whole company in dispensed narcotics and this was at the height of the FL narcotic craze, where we were not located. My weekly narc order, just to get an idea of how much we are talking about, included anywhere from 40-60 bottles of oxycodone 30mg with my max being 86. Our friends at the DEA visited us a few times, but I followed the rules and kept on filling scripts.

I now work for a much smaller regional chain but continue many of the same practices. I can get narcs next day providing it isnt Fri or Sat and continue to manage the needs of my chronic pain patients as fully as I can. It bugs the shit out of me that as a group, pharmacists judge pain sufferers before they even have a discussion with them. Why many of us neglect our duty to ensure patients receive, understand and comply with their meds, regardless of what they may be has always puzzled me. Yeah we have licenses to uphold, but our first requirement should always be taking care of the patient. BL has given me a much broader perspective on just how difficult it can be being a PM patient and I am grateful for that.

Depending on what you take, SKL, that 2500 bucks may not be as good as you think. Sure its a big sale but the profits probably suck. The lack of adequate reimbursement (or even a loss) is one of the primary reasons mom and pop stores refuse rxs. The chains can absorb losses and because of economies of scale, may actually fill a script and independent will not. Sucks they are so strict on narcs now as the chains are best positioned to fill every script that walks through the door.

And it wasnt only Dexexrine, but Adderall too. The limits were, and still are, on the active ingredient, not the individual drug. It has been a bit more finessed now, and the DEA squeezes the wholesalers to limit each pharmacy monthly which is better than a national limit. Every month, I am unable to get oxycodone products at the end of the month because my limit is too low. I hate making my customers wait or scramble to fill their scripts but it is out of my hands. There could still be a global limit set by the DEA but they arent clear about it and neither are the wholesalers. The d-amphetamine issue seems to be resolved now though and is fully available and havent seen major shortages of any other narcs either.
 
Never really experienced pharm anticipation. The only psychoactive drugs I've ever been prescribed have been benzodiazepines and zolpidem, neither of which I particularly salivate over & neither of which have the addictive pull that opiates do.

If someone said that they had some fire tar & was going to help me procure it, though...I can & have experienced some anticipation regarding that ;) Since this question is about opiates & waiting for them

well, mate, if you had been scripted over half a gram of pharecutical hydromorphone a month like some us lucky bastards, trust me, you'd know the itch to. a junkie's dream come true is a steady and heavy script. i miss those days. im back to street scoring and while it is fr more lively and exciting it is far more dangerous as well.
 
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