Wittgenstein
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Before I start with the actual trip report, I should add some context: This was the first time managed to get high, throughout the entire trip I was constantly writing notes; so much so, I managed to fill an entire notebook. The notes initially started out as descriptions of the symptoms, however during the course of the trip they became more about what I was thinking, these notes where the 'profound' thoughts of a high man.
Some information about me:
Something else which I think I should note here, is, about 1 hour prior to taking Amt, I was trying to smoke Salvia Divinorum (20x) I took 3 hits and couldn't get high, so I left it. During the trip I was constantly sipping on water, to ensure I was properly hydrated and to ensure my body could deal with the substance.
For the purposes of this trip report I will be employing the use of metaphors – quite liberally - the reason behind this, is that words can only go so far in describing this experience, if you have experienced anything like this, you will undoubtedly understand; if you haven't it may be harder for you as you are trying to imagine something which the standard human perception doesn't allow.
Before I tripped, I made sure I wasn't worried about the trip.
I will try to include as many of the notes from my notebook to help describe the experience; I will leave some of them out, as I feel some of them may be too abstract to understand, unless you too have had the same thoughts.
The notes in italics will be in retrospect.
My apologies for such a long trip report, but I felt it was important to include as many of the notes as possible: to ensure an honest trip report, so that anyone who reads it and plans on doing it has a pretty good idea of what to expect. (Which is something which, I think is important in ensuring a good trip.)
Start: 16:36 — T+0
I took the pellet, which a fun sized Mars bar; I took a bite out of the Mars Bar, then took the Pellet and put in the Mars bar. I did this because I thought, it would somehow prevent Nausea or, being sick. I wasn't sick, but I did get some Nausea.
16:56 — T+20
No effects yet.
17:48 — T+72
Suddenly, I started feeling Nausea, and like I was spinning weightlessly. The Nausea was like travel sickness, or after you have spun around on an office chair whilst looking up.
17:51 — T+75
I was beginning to feel more weightless now, I had a strange tingly, fuzzy, almost numbness in my lower legs.
17:54 — T+78
Almost an all over weightlessness had succumb me at this point. The spinning feeling was becoming more apparent.
17:56 — T+80
I was feeling slightly Lethargic, I felt like I was becoming slower to react. At this point I tried to play guitar, I seemed to make more mistakes than usual, even with stuff that I can usually play with no thought. It was quite interesting at this point, I noticed my mind was going faster than my body.
18:00 — T+84
At this point, the Nausea seemed to fade, this was a great relief as it was the only thing I was worried about; although I wasn't that worried, as I made sure I had wiped away any worries about the trip that I'd had.
18:02 — T+86
Looked at my self in my computers webcam, this was amusing.
My pupils had became very dilated.
I was feeling a lot more happy.
My cheeks had become more rosy.
It was becoming harder to write.
18:04 – T+88
I felt like I was both shivering and laughing, at the same time, it was infectious.
This is when I really started to notice how amazing music was: Astronomy Domine – Pink Floyd, is incredible!
18:06 – T+90
And the Gods made Love - Jimi Hendrix: just amazing.
I was starting to see some weak visuals in the corner of my eyes. It was like the patterns you see if you look directly at the sun and blink.
18:09 – T+93
I was finding it increasingly difficult to move my body in an accurate fashion.
18:10 — T+94
More weak coloured visuals occurring now.
18:12 — T+96
I tried to walk across the room at this point, I couldn't do it without laughing.
18:21 — T+105
Everything at this point was funny, I was giggling uncontrollably. When I thought about it I laughed even more. I was having dinner at this point I couldn't quite eat. Partly because of my thirst and partly because the food almost didn't taste it was like trying to eat with a numb mouth, I couldn't taste but I could feel the food.
18:24 — T+108
My hands were becoming increasingly shaky.
I had to do the dishes at this point it was harder than it normally was.
18:32 — T+116
Dishes complete.
I was increasingly happy.
I was increasingly losing control of my body.
When I was doing the dishes I was fascinated by a baking tray.
18:34 — T+118
I noticed in the corner of my eye the trees outside, it was then that I noticed that my body was mimicking their movements as they swayed in the wind.
The Great Gig in the Sky - Pink Floyd, near the end of the song, it was amazing how everything seemed to fit so well. It was like a infinitely changing jigsaw.
I was becoming increasingly aware that I was high, I was amused at this.
18:40 — T+124
The effects were becoming really strong now. Still being amused at how my body is moving. (Even if the movement was completely normal, it was like I'd been put in in this body, it was new and I was exploring it)
18:43 — T+127
It was at this point, that I became aware of a duality within myself. I had remained conscious and lucid, but I had the other side that was where the 'highest' and euphoria was coming from. I was becoming more self-aware.
I was feeling some Nausea in my stomach, this was were the feelings appeared to be emanating from.
18:50 — T+134
Muscles becoming increasingly relaxed.
18:52 — T+136
I was trying to mimic the music with my movements.
18:56 — T+140
Started watching trippy visuals on youtube.
18:58 — T+142
Becoming thirsty
18:59 — T+143
At some point the music stopped, but I didn't notice, I just kept flowing.
19:00 — T+144
Overwhelming urge to listen to the safety dance, best idea ever.
19:09 — T+153
How can one pill do all this?
This was when the experience got really interesting.
19:10 —T+154
Use of a computer becoming slower and all round less accurate control of my body.
For some instinctive reason I choose to listen to Men without Hats - The Saftey Dance; I was convinced that this was the greatest idea ever conceived. This was when I started using my computers webcam to shoot photos and record video, which was amusing to say the least, especially looking back at the photos now.
19:16 — T+160
Wondered if I could stop smiling, I couldn't.
19:17 — T+161
Started listening to Float – The Healer; an ambient album, I became one with the music.
19:19 — T+163
I tried to walk in a straight line, I couldn't. But I was convinced I could, so I kept trying.
19:22 — T+166
Realised at this point, that my mind was creating the oneness with the music, no matter what I listened to, I was one with it.
This might seem obvious, as I read it back now, but I couldn't understand how it was doing it.
19:24 — T+168
Could hardly, use a computer at this point. I tried going online to find an online stopwatch, to watch time and see if there was any difference from normal.
19:27 – T+171
Time didn't appear any different. Then I had a revelation. (Which I won't write here)
I noticed what I had written was breathing.
19:37 — T+181
It's at this point during the trip report, that there will start to be a bigger gap in the timing of the notes. This is because I feel it's best to leave certain notes out, either because they are too abstract or because they are thoughts which you would have to have had to understand. They also wouldn't be much use to helping anyone looking to do this substance as it's not describing the effects as such.
19:45 — T+189
I noticed my hands where slightly clammy. I also started noticing things in the music which I hadn't noticed before, seemingly unimportant parts, but without them the songs wouldn't be as good.
20:03 — T+207
I really needed a drink at this point.
20:24 — T+228
Decided to get into bed, I had enormous difficultly getting out of my jeans.
20:45 — T+249
The visuals were becoming stronger now. It was like when you just start staring at something, only you were staring out of reality. Then I realised this was the case, and could almost turn the visuals off.
20:53 — T+257
In retrospect, this was probably the peak of the experience.
Everything was so fuzzy: by this I mean, happy, but it was happier than I'd ever been before.
20:54 — T+258
I then found the meaning of life.
21:49 — T+303
I was lying down, then I sat up and lay down again. When I lay down again, I was weightless, and I was spinning, just if the motion of turning 90 degrees, lifting my legs up and lying down didn't stop.
22:17 — T+331
Starting to coming come. The effects were starting to fade, I first noticed it in my hands.
22:21 — T+307
This is when I was definitely coming down.
22:28 — T+314
I started to regain some lucidity in my body.
22:32 — T+318
Effects fully starting to wear off.
22:36 — T+322
It's really fading, just a sliver of what once was remains.
22:50 — T+336
The effects are fading, becoming a distant memory.
22:56 — T+342
Ever slowly fading back to reality.
Just felt tiredness.
23:03 — T+350
My jaw was shaking.
I suspect this was from the constant smiling.
23:48 — T+395
This note may seem slightly abstract, so I might alter the wording of it. I have still included it though because it goes some way to show how your thought process is altered by AMT.
Your perception of time appears to have changed, when you try to test this by watching a stopwatch you soon realise you stopped paying attention to time. So your perception of time changes. In that you no longer perceive time as something to be perceived.
I.e, time no longer mattered.
In-between these notes.
Between these two notes, was when the trip started to go slightly bad, all I mean by this is I started to get anxiety about when the trip would completely end.
9:09 — T+956
Some effects still, didn't sleep, mind racing, slight headache.
Taste is over-simulated.
A buzz from the trip still lingers.
11:02 — T+1149
Still a slight buzz. However music still sounds amazing.
I am unsure when the trip completely ended as it, I believe, merged with the tiredness, from no sleep. I when to sleep around 18:00 and slept till 7:00am the next morning without a problem. The effects had completely gone at this point.
Conclusion/Final Thoughts
I choose to do this for the visuals, but I realised there was so much more.
Aside from the anxiety from not being able to sleep and not knowing when the trip would end. It was a very pleasant experience, I would defiantly do this again. As a first trip it was a nice way of easing my self into the psychedelic experience.
I'm usually a rather depressed person. I knew that AMT was an anti-depressant, but it seems to have completely changed my outlook and perception, I am feeling a lot happier now.
Something which was really nice about the trip was the self-awareness, throughout the trip, I was lucid, during the trip, like I would be not under the influence of AMT but there was a duality to my conscious, I wrote that it was almost like my unconscious mind had became conscious, but not part of my normal conscious.
Some of the thoughts I was having, were flipped by my mind, i.e I would have an idea, then I would see it in a totally different way. Almost like a isometric cube, when you turn it around, you see there's more to the shape than you first thought.
As written about above, music became amazing. Even if I was listening to a song I wouldn't normally like, it became amazing. Even though I was aware of my preconceived feelings towards the song.
I saw everything in a fresh way, it was like a child would see things, without any prejudice.
Overall the experience, I feel, really opened my mind and changed me for the better (Cliché as it sounds)
Some of the notes I wrote in my notebook (But not here) were a critique of myself.
Here's the Erowid link for AMT: http://www.erowid.org/chemicals/amt/amt.shtml
Some information about me:
- Age: 19
- Weight 10 1/2 stone
- Gender: Male
Something else which I think I should note here, is, about 1 hour prior to taking Amt, I was trying to smoke Salvia Divinorum (20x) I took 3 hits and couldn't get high, so I left it. During the trip I was constantly sipping on water, to ensure I was properly hydrated and to ensure my body could deal with the substance.
For the purposes of this trip report I will be employing the use of metaphors – quite liberally - the reason behind this, is that words can only go so far in describing this experience, if you have experienced anything like this, you will undoubtedly understand; if you haven't it may be harder for you as you are trying to imagine something which the standard human perception doesn't allow.
Before I tripped, I made sure I wasn't worried about the trip.
I will try to include as many of the notes from my notebook to help describe the experience; I will leave some of them out, as I feel some of them may be too abstract to understand, unless you too have had the same thoughts.
The notes in italics will be in retrospect.
My apologies for such a long trip report, but I felt it was important to include as many of the notes as possible: to ensure an honest trip report, so that anyone who reads it and plans on doing it has a pretty good idea of what to expect. (Which is something which, I think is important in ensuring a good trip.)
Start: 16:36 — T+0
I took the pellet, which a fun sized Mars bar; I took a bite out of the Mars Bar, then took the Pellet and put in the Mars bar. I did this because I thought, it would somehow prevent Nausea or, being sick. I wasn't sick, but I did get some Nausea.
16:56 — T+20
No effects yet.
17:48 — T+72
Suddenly, I started feeling Nausea, and like I was spinning weightlessly. The Nausea was like travel sickness, or after you have spun around on an office chair whilst looking up.
17:51 — T+75
I was beginning to feel more weightless now, I had a strange tingly, fuzzy, almost numbness in my lower legs.
17:54 — T+78
Almost an all over weightlessness had succumb me at this point. The spinning feeling was becoming more apparent.
17:56 — T+80
I was feeling slightly Lethargic, I felt like I was becoming slower to react. At this point I tried to play guitar, I seemed to make more mistakes than usual, even with stuff that I can usually play with no thought. It was quite interesting at this point, I noticed my mind was going faster than my body.
18:00 — T+84
At this point, the Nausea seemed to fade, this was a great relief as it was the only thing I was worried about; although I wasn't that worried, as I made sure I had wiped away any worries about the trip that I'd had.
18:02 — T+86
Looked at my self in my computers webcam, this was amusing.
My pupils had became very dilated.
I was feeling a lot more happy.
My cheeks had become more rosy.
It was becoming harder to write.
18:04 – T+88
I felt like I was both shivering and laughing, at the same time, it was infectious.
This is when I really started to notice how amazing music was: Astronomy Domine – Pink Floyd, is incredible!
18:06 – T+90
And the Gods made Love - Jimi Hendrix: just amazing.
I was starting to see some weak visuals in the corner of my eyes. It was like the patterns you see if you look directly at the sun and blink.
18:09 – T+93
I was finding it increasingly difficult to move my body in an accurate fashion.
18:10 — T+94
More weak coloured visuals occurring now.
18:12 — T+96
I tried to walk across the room at this point, I couldn't do it without laughing.
18:21 — T+105
Everything at this point was funny, I was giggling uncontrollably. When I thought about it I laughed even more. I was having dinner at this point I couldn't quite eat. Partly because of my thirst and partly because the food almost didn't taste it was like trying to eat with a numb mouth, I couldn't taste but I could feel the food.
18:24 — T+108
My hands were becoming increasingly shaky.
I had to do the dishes at this point it was harder than it normally was.
18:32 — T+116
Dishes complete.
I was increasingly happy.
I was increasingly losing control of my body.
When I was doing the dishes I was fascinated by a baking tray.
18:34 — T+118
I noticed in the corner of my eye the trees outside, it was then that I noticed that my body was mimicking their movements as they swayed in the wind.
The Great Gig in the Sky - Pink Floyd, near the end of the song, it was amazing how everything seemed to fit so well. It was like a infinitely changing jigsaw.
I was becoming increasingly aware that I was high, I was amused at this.
18:40 — T+124
The effects were becoming really strong now. Still being amused at how my body is moving. (Even if the movement was completely normal, it was like I'd been put in in this body, it was new and I was exploring it)
18:43 — T+127
It was at this point, that I became aware of a duality within myself. I had remained conscious and lucid, but I had the other side that was where the 'highest' and euphoria was coming from. I was becoming more self-aware.
I was feeling some Nausea in my stomach, this was were the feelings appeared to be emanating from.
18:50 — T+134
Muscles becoming increasingly relaxed.
18:52 — T+136
I was trying to mimic the music with my movements.
18:56 — T+140
Started watching trippy visuals on youtube.
18:58 — T+142
Becoming thirsty
18:59 — T+143
At some point the music stopped, but I didn't notice, I just kept flowing.
19:00 — T+144
Overwhelming urge to listen to the safety dance, best idea ever.
19:09 — T+153
How can one pill do all this?
This was when the experience got really interesting.
19:10 —T+154
Use of a computer becoming slower and all round less accurate control of my body.
For some instinctive reason I choose to listen to Men without Hats - The Saftey Dance; I was convinced that this was the greatest idea ever conceived. This was when I started using my computers webcam to shoot photos and record video, which was amusing to say the least, especially looking back at the photos now.
19:16 — T+160
Wondered if I could stop smiling, I couldn't.
19:17 — T+161
Started listening to Float – The Healer; an ambient album, I became one with the music.
19:19 — T+163
I tried to walk in a straight line, I couldn't. But I was convinced I could, so I kept trying.
19:22 — T+166
Realised at this point, that my mind was creating the oneness with the music, no matter what I listened to, I was one with it.
This might seem obvious, as I read it back now, but I couldn't understand how it was doing it.
19:24 — T+168
Could hardly, use a computer at this point. I tried going online to find an online stopwatch, to watch time and see if there was any difference from normal.
19:27 – T+171
Time didn't appear any different. Then I had a revelation. (Which I won't write here)
I noticed what I had written was breathing.
19:37 — T+181
It's at this point during the trip report, that there will start to be a bigger gap in the timing of the notes. This is because I feel it's best to leave certain notes out, either because they are too abstract or because they are thoughts which you would have to have had to understand. They also wouldn't be much use to helping anyone looking to do this substance as it's not describing the effects as such.
19:45 — T+189
I noticed my hands where slightly clammy. I also started noticing things in the music which I hadn't noticed before, seemingly unimportant parts, but without them the songs wouldn't be as good.
20:03 — T+207
I really needed a drink at this point.
20:24 — T+228
Decided to get into bed, I had enormous difficultly getting out of my jeans.
20:45 — T+249
The visuals were becoming stronger now. It was like when you just start staring at something, only you were staring out of reality. Then I realised this was the case, and could almost turn the visuals off.
20:53 — T+257
In retrospect, this was probably the peak of the experience.
Everything was so fuzzy: by this I mean, happy, but it was happier than I'd ever been before.
20:54 — T+258
I then found the meaning of life.
21:49 — T+303
I was lying down, then I sat up and lay down again. When I lay down again, I was weightless, and I was spinning, just if the motion of turning 90 degrees, lifting my legs up and lying down didn't stop.
22:17 — T+331
Starting to coming come. The effects were starting to fade, I first noticed it in my hands.
22:21 — T+307
This is when I was definitely coming down.
22:28 — T+314
I started to regain some lucidity in my body.
22:32 — T+318
Effects fully starting to wear off.
22:36 — T+322
It's really fading, just a sliver of what once was remains.
22:50 — T+336
The effects are fading, becoming a distant memory.
22:56 — T+342
Ever slowly fading back to reality.
Just felt tiredness.
23:03 — T+350
My jaw was shaking.
I suspect this was from the constant smiling.
23:48 — T+395
This note may seem slightly abstract, so I might alter the wording of it. I have still included it though because it goes some way to show how your thought process is altered by AMT.
Your perception of time appears to have changed, when you try to test this by watching a stopwatch you soon realise you stopped paying attention to time. So your perception of time changes. In that you no longer perceive time as something to be perceived.
I.e, time no longer mattered.
In-between these notes.
Between these two notes, was when the trip started to go slightly bad, all I mean by this is I started to get anxiety about when the trip would completely end.
9:09 — T+956
Some effects still, didn't sleep, mind racing, slight headache.
Taste is over-simulated.
A buzz from the trip still lingers.
11:02 — T+1149
Still a slight buzz. However music still sounds amazing.
I am unsure when the trip completely ended as it, I believe, merged with the tiredness, from no sleep. I when to sleep around 18:00 and slept till 7:00am the next morning without a problem. The effects had completely gone at this point.
Conclusion/Final Thoughts
I choose to do this for the visuals, but I realised there was so much more.
Aside from the anxiety from not being able to sleep and not knowing when the trip would end. It was a very pleasant experience, I would defiantly do this again. As a first trip it was a nice way of easing my self into the psychedelic experience.
I'm usually a rather depressed person. I knew that AMT was an anti-depressant, but it seems to have completely changed my outlook and perception, I am feeling a lot happier now.
Something which was really nice about the trip was the self-awareness, throughout the trip, I was lucid, during the trip, like I would be not under the influence of AMT but there was a duality to my conscious, I wrote that it was almost like my unconscious mind had became conscious, but not part of my normal conscious.
Some of the thoughts I was having, were flipped by my mind, i.e I would have an idea, then I would see it in a totally different way. Almost like a isometric cube, when you turn it around, you see there's more to the shape than you first thought.
As written about above, music became amazing. Even if I was listening to a song I wouldn't normally like, it became amazing. Even though I was aware of my preconceived feelings towards the song.
I saw everything in a fresh way, it was like a child would see things, without any prejudice.
Overall the experience, I feel, really opened my mind and changed me for the better (Cliché as it sounds)
Some of the notes I wrote in my notebook (But not here) were a critique of myself.
Here's the Erowid link for AMT: http://www.erowid.org/chemicals/amt/amt.shtml
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