3 years ago i was a stupid kid that decided to abuse his ritalin script it gave me a nice pleasurable feeling thats feels way better than amphetamine for like 3 weeks and then it just hacked my brain and i ended up abusing it daily for like 5 months it was horrible this shit complthy rotted my brain i wasnt even abusing it
to be honest.. snorting 20-40 mg daily cant be called abuse if people take 54 mg concertas or whatever the withdrawal of this shit is he worst hell ever and it lasted super long for 2.5 years i felt it i felt noticable cognitive imparirement drug induced asexuality?? like for a year
my libido was 0 and i wasnt attracted to women anymore in the beggining of my withdrawal i couldnt even form sentences writing on my keyboard was difficult cuz my memory etc was so slow i felt retarded like thats shit you would expect from abusing grams of meth daily not from stupid adhd pills i lost all childhood memories and was living "in the moment" but in a bad way for 1.5 yr i couldnt remember whan happened yesterday to this day i cant fully recall what i was doing during the week before abusing this shit i could do it flawlesly i also remeber how mph made every stimulant fuckign useless back in the day i was offered meth to snort i snorted it like 25mg and only felt anxiety and paranoia and brainfog .now i started to take dexroamphetamine for my adhd cuz it jsut came to my country i learned from
my mistakes and now i am scared to take it tbh i take it liek once a week to make my shit done and its great when you have to do something that you dont want to but it doesent do nothign for focus i still cannot focus no matter what for example when a dude on the internet was explaining some math related shit i still was wandering into my mind unvolountarily and had to repeat the same setgment of the video also i when i am on them i sitll sometimes switch tabs on my pc to watch brainrot for example instead of studying i thought meds were suppsoed to fix that i mean i couldve fucked my brain up premanently and its just residual tolerance that stayed from ritalin abuse i am taking like 30mg of elvanse rn .like what am i supposed to so ritalin hasnt worked for my focus too i am scared thats its fucking over and i will never be able to focus
to be honest.. snorting 20-40 mg daily cant be called abuse if people take 54 mg concertas or whatever the withdrawal of this shit is he worst hell ever and it lasted super long for 2.5 years i felt it i felt noticable cognitive imparirement drug induced asexuality?? like for a year
my libido was 0 and i wasnt attracted to women anymore in the beggining of my withdrawal i couldnt even form sentences writing on my keyboard was difficult cuz my memory etc was so slow i felt retarded like thats shit you would expect from abusing grams of meth daily not from stupid adhd pills i lost all childhood memories and was living "in the moment" but in a bad way for 1.5 yr i couldnt remember whan happened yesterday to this day i cant fully recall what i was doing during the week before abusing this shit i could do it flawlesly i also remeber how mph made every stimulant fuckign useless back in the day i was offered meth to snort i snorted it like 25mg and only felt anxiety and paranoia and brainfog .now i started to take dexroamphetamine for my adhd cuz it jsut came to my country i learned from
my mistakes and now i am scared to take it tbh i take it liek once a week to make my shit done and its great when you have to do something that you dont want to but it doesent do nothign for focus i still cannot focus no matter what for example when a dude on the internet was explaining some math related shit i still was wandering into my mind unvolountarily and had to repeat the same setgment of the video also i when i am on them i sitll sometimes switch tabs on my pc to watch brainrot for example instead of studying i thought meds were suppsoed to fix that i mean i couldve fucked my brain up premanently and its just residual tolerance that stayed from ritalin abuse i am taking like 30mg of elvanse rn .like what am i supposed to so ritalin hasnt worked for my focus too i am scared thats its fucking over and i will never be able to focus
