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Heroin Am I screwed?

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Sphinx88

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So I stopped using on Sunday..took a 4mg sub on mon morning when the withdrawals started to get rough then took a 2mg on tues and nothing after that. I was doing pretty good considering but then today I lost my willpower and did a small amount of h. It was the mental aspects of withdrawal that were killing me and I just wanted to feel normal for a bit. So now I'm panicking a bit that I may have thrown myself back to day one of withdrawal. Thoughts? It was 48 hours after last sub and the physical withdrawals were pretty tame just some achiness and slight GI issues. I am sooo hoping I didn't really screw up here.
 
Hmm that's kind of what I thought but was hoping against. There was a full two days that I did not take any opiates at all but I guess it makes sense that because the withdrawal wasnt fully over that I've knocked myself right back.
 
its not that ur screwed in that sense, its that youll start blazing hard or w/e and your addiction will lead you to spirial outta control..oh yeah reminds me i gotta script of vicodins to pick
 
are you planing on using more suboxone or just hitting it head on at this point?

do you feel mentally ready to make a transition no matter straight withdrawal or using bupe??
 
Yeh ya never really did get off anythin i mean suboxone is an opiate. Its a maintenance opiate though so in order to get completely clean yer gonna have to go through some withdraw unless ya plan on goin on subs everyday.
 
No I'm not planning on going on maintenance. If I go back in withdrawal ill deal I guess. I'm kinda curious how bad it will be though.
 
I just thought that maybe because I hadn't taken any subs in the last two days I'd be ok.
 
well... how much heroin were you typically using daily and for how long?? how much have you done today?

it might not be all that bad for you!!

the intensity of your withdrawal and the length from physical - mental really does depend on the amount/time of your dependency....
 
If you were stabilized on suboxone and only used once, you shouldn't have much trouble getting back on the bupe. If you keep using, then your transition will become difficult again.

Best thing to do is wait until you are in moderate withdrawal again and then get back on the bupe.

Don't beat yourself up about relapsing. It happens. Just shake it off and keep moving forward. Start learning to recognize your triggers and develop habits to prevent relapse. Hobbies really help/just overall positivity in life.
 
I was using about a g a day for the last two months. I was clean for a month before that and have been at this for awhile. I'm actually not planning on getting back on bupe I just used it at the worst of my withdrawal for two days and then stopped. So basically I had two days on subs and then two days with nothing and then did only around a pt today which is wayyy less than normal so maybe ill be lucky and just feel a bit crappy for the next couple days. Here's hoping.
 
You didn't really make much progress in the first place so its not like you really "lost" anything. You were gonna have discomfort today/tomorrow either way
 
well... cool.

sounds like you have a good attitude/outlook and know what is heading your way.. hit that shit head on! i think it is a great idea to not use any more buprenorphine and just get on with as where you stand could be a whole lot worse.. right.

i know it is tough but try to keep working and staying positive and strong on leaving heroin behind!! good luck!!
 
Thanks guys! I appreciate the support. I've done bupe tapers a couple of times but honestly I prefer to try and get my w/d over with as fast as possible. My goal now is to just deal with whatever symptoms I get and try to avoid taking the easy way out and doing h to get rid of the discomfort. Man, this cycle is just vicious.
 
I went thru thesame exact thing my wdstarted monday took subs an wednesday i ended up crackin which is unusual for me bcuz in the past when i wanted off i got off buy like you said the cycle is vicious! And im back to blowing 100$ a day agaim. Gonna "attempt" to taper down to .3 a day then switch to subs bcuz man when using a g or more a day the subs did not help all that much..i wonder since subs producemore opiate like effects under 2'mg maybe i should try that for induction
 
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