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Always want more

Epiper888

Epiper888

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When it comes to substances say xanax, Alcohol, and opiates I always want more. I can never just catch a buzz I want to be fucked up. Does anyone else feel this way?
 
Your chasing a feeling you got when you first consumed im guessing, and or maybe a bit younger? I used to never be able to get fucked up enough but now less is more for me.
I mean is it really enjoyable to not remember most of the stupid shit you did, whilst getting sick/feeling like shit the next day? haha just food for thought, i like occasional downers but when your tolerant to GABAergic drugs they all lose their shine pretty fast.

I get more enjoyment from gaba drugs and opiates as sort of garnishes on other elevated states of mind. (get nice and baked with some dabs and have a single small dose type) or get spun out on meth and then use them to find comfort till sleep comes haha
 
Of course. That's the beauty of addiction. The night before last, I purchased H that was meant to last me the weekend.

It lasted me... that night! Woohoo! Can't pick up again till Monday.

Everyone wants to reach that lovely, messed up euphoria, when they can say "I'm FUCKKKED up!" But you're just a hit or two away from having done too much/going through your whole bag.

Whenever I try to do more drugs than necessary, I like to ask myself if I'm feeling content. Of course I am; I'm high. So then I tell myself to wait until I feel slightly shitty to open the bag again. It works about 10% of the time.

I still consider myself to have amazing self-control, considering the fact that I haven't run off to get more and am perfectly okay with waiting until Monday. A few days' break is good for opiates anyway.
 
Of course, because these drugs are pleasurable. There can be no addiction without pleasure. And the more pleasurable the stimulus, the more people will go out of their way to rationalize not partaking in it, because people enjoy nothing more than denying themselves enjoyment.

A happy and content drunkard will always be regarded with more contempt and derision than a miserable and despondent teetotaler.
 
When I drank I just couldn't drink 2 or 3 to catch a buzz, I had to get drunk.

But with opiates, I'm.content with a buzz for a few hours......I'm in the minority in saying I hate to nod out......I like to be able to have intelligent conversations w/o looking high or acting stupid, but that's just me.
 
^ pretty much how it works... there aint such a thing as enough when it comes to drugs such as opiates and cocaine
 
Tweek Out.
Nod Out.
Black out.

Welcome!!! your not the only one, but you came to the right place to help you reduce harm!
 
Start making plans to get clean permanently. Or start making peace with "jails, institutions, and death."

I've known quite a few people who couldn't control their drug use, and it's never pretty if they try to "continue in moderation" in any form. They've either continued to have negative consequences (some are dead), or they've gotten clean.

I never preach AA, but if you'll readily admit that you're powerless, than there ARE some people for whom complete abstinence is the only option.

Maybe try to stick to cannabis for the time being? Do you live in a medical state?
 
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