I think this is a really good idea, it's sort of like a diary to yourself and a blog to the world, I particularly like how you've listed what works/doesn't work etc. for you, funnily enough many of those things are quite the same for me.
I think it's good you've started a regimen of a nootropic stack - due to past benzo abuse I use Noopept for work as without it, my memory retention skills and overall concentration and focus would be non-existant (slightly exaggeration, but you get the picture). I LOVE Coluracetam - it seems to have almost an instant built-in anti-depressant effect to it, to the point where it actually really boosts my mood. Noopept + Coluracetam are fab together, I need to add a choline source though (only just began my interest in nootropics).
There's debate as to whether Coluracetam actually does affect your vision, or indeed other senses - for me, it brought back a lovely constant visual field of how I see the world on 4-HO-MET, which is one of my favourite pyschedelics. This definitely was not placebo, and was very much an unexpected but welcome surprise! Music also sounds significantly better.
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Good morning, no anxiety to speak of, confident during presentation. I tend to overreact to bad things in my life. I error on the side of pleasing people and fear the worst should I take a certain action. I had the confidence that the world would not fall apart should I choose to work from home today. And indeed all was okay. I delivered my presentation just fine remotely and all was okay!
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It's so lovely to read things like that
You should feel proud of yourself, with me and my depression one of the most satisfying feelings really is that "and indeed all was okay". Only had a quick look through your page but it looks like you're making progress, and whilst the Nootropics are assisting you in this, remember that it's also down to YOU and how strong you're being to fight through depression and anxiety!
One thing I'd definitely reccommend is magnesium - okay, maybe not the worlds most exciting drug, but hear me out. Since taking magnesium supplements it's like a weight has been lifted off my chest - I feel like I can approach what would usually be terror-inducing situations (i.e even going to ask my manager if he wants a coffee, and if I'd made it right) naturally, to the extent where in the workplace (which is full of strong and sometimes intimidating characters) I feel in control and don't get the "FFS WHY DID I JUST SAY THAT" feeling, I'm growing in confidence and I can honestly say it's the least anxious and most comfortable with myself I've been in years.
It's also helped my depression massively - only started on magnesium 3 weeks ago and, to put it bluntly, I was not in a good place before then. I don't want to trigger any reactions for people so I'll just say I was as low as could be. Not only does magnesium help alleviate symptoms of depression MASSIVELY, it also reduces my tendancies for destructive or irrational behaviour and thoughts, and even allows me to think in detail as to why I might be having those thoughts and how I can manage them effectively.
Depression also tends to cause fatigue in me and, again, this is something magnesium helps with. The "I refuse to leave bed and I want to hibernate here away from the world" feeling has completely vanished, and that type of thinking been such a major part of my life for so many years I can't express how good it is not to feel like that anymore.
ANYWAY - sorry for hijacking your thread a bit about my magnesium rant! Just thought I'd let you know how it's helped my depression and anxiety seeing as you have so may great ideas on your site it's only really fair to share my 2c as to what could possibly help you, and others further.
I'd definitely recommend your site to others, I've saved it to my Favourites Bar
