Alone!

[The Forsaken]

I sometimes feel alone...
I sometimes feel empty...
Why does life hurt so much?
Why do we allow ourselves to hurt?
Is it because that is the only way we can feel alive.
I fall asleep into the dark warm night.
I awaken, drowning in a pool of my own swet.
My body is wet, my back, my feet, my head completely saturated with a cold wetness.
Realizing it is fear that is seaping out through my pores.
I hold onto a person that is nearest my heart.
Not realizing I am drowning her in my fears.
The fear of losing her.
The fear of being a alone on this cold world.
The fear that I may never feel this pain ever again.
Not all pain hurts.
Not all pain is bad.
Pain can help us through the most strenuous "times" in our life.
The "times" where it will make our mind, body, and soul ready for the pain that eats us from the inside out.
The pain of being and finding ourselves.
We all have bad times in life, sometimes they go on for years and sometimes they only go on for days. In the end we will realize what a great person we have become.
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[This message has been edited by smileEs (edited 16 September 2000).]