Alone

[*SWeeT-e*]

It's getting late
we should be going home
I'm here with you
but I still feel alone.
Turn off the lights
we'll go to bed
you sleep while I wrestle
with the thoughts in my head.
Afraid to let go
and be all that is me
I hold myself back
though I long to be free.
A brick surrounds me
as I close tight my eyes
my heart screams at you
and silently cries.
Not good enough
you never will be
the voices they yell
and taunt laughingly
Is it foolish to trust
am I better on my own?
You hold me so tight
but I stay just out of sight
and wonder why I feel so alone.
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This is one of those written-at-5am-when-I-can't-sleep-and-don't-really-know-what-it-means-but-it's-just-how-I'm-feeling-right-now kind of poems. I try to keep my heart so guarded and safe, but then I wonder why I feel so alone. I dunno, just thoughts.

~kimmy.

 

[PiHKAL]

I've stayed with someone I didn't truly love for the security of it all, and it's horrible. Excellent piece, I enjoyed it.
Peace..
PiHKAL
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When I look at where I've been
And I think of where I'm going
I find that both roads bend in
same directions, ever flowing.....
-Caress, the artist whose paint is words...

 

[CyaLuvyaBye]

is this about staying with someone you dont love or more about not letting yourself open up being afraid to love???
cos to me thats wat it is and i feel that alot im soooo scared i push the one i love away even tho im there-make sence???
i dunno im a tripper heehee
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i thought it was you i needed nevertheless i have learnt thru the pain i needed me

 

[*SWeeT-e*]

Cyaluvyabye:
That makes soooo much sense babe. I dunno, my boy is so sweet and awesome, but he seems to have everything all figured out and his head on real straight, and I'm afraid to let him see all that is me cuz I don't want him to leave. And at the same time, I hate letting people take care of me, or having to depend on someone, it makes me feel like I've lost control, so I push him away. But maybe he's really the bestest, most sanest thing to happen to me in my own world of insanity. Who knows? Make sense???

~kimmy.

 

[supersonic]

good god. You and my girlfriend have got the same thing going on. With us though, I know she feels this way, and I constantly reaffirm to her that deep down inside were all a little fucked up and its ok to let it out. And I know I just have to wait till shes ready, cause I know the feeling is there. If he's really that great than he's not gonna run from whats really there. And if he does, then he would in time anyway and its best to know then drag it on because you need security.

 

[trypnotic]

nice poem

i was going through the same thing at one point im my life. but then i straightened up and got my shit together and im a happier person. keep writing
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