Baron27
Greenlighter
To quickly summarize my situation: I did a fairly quick taper from 4mgs suboxone to 1mg over the course of about a month or so. Was on 1mg for about a week before jumping off. Was on suboxone for several years.
I?ve been doing reasonably well up until a few days ago. Been able to function but it?s taken a full effort. Still, I?ve been able to get by. There have been some good days and so far 1 night of a full 8 hours sleep. But mostly 1-2 hours of sleep at most (it sounds crazy but I?m not kidding) lack of sleep is starting to cause some major problems. It?s been 3 full days and no sleep. It seems to be getting worse, I don?t understand. Yesterday and today I?ve been experiencing terrifying hallucinations. While laying in bed last night a bizarre figure walked into my room. I?ve never been so afraid in my life, I yelled in horror and my girlfriend was really freaked out. Today I?ve been seeing strange things in my peripheral vision but the hallucinations are much worse in the dark. I almost got hit by a fucking car earlier.It feels like I?m at the edge of sanity.
The way I see it, I have 3 options
Use opiates. Sleep. Hope all this ?blows over? or somehow magically resolves with time.
Or
Go back on suboxone and try tapering more slowly..or accept that I can?t live anything that resembles a normal life without it.
Or
Continue without opiates and pray I don?t go fucking psychotic (it?s happened once before. I was institutionalized for a week when I quit methadone cold turkey, 8 years ago)
I?ve tried like 10 different sleep meds and nothing works. Not even benzos or Kratom are helping anymore. Fuuuuck.
I?ve been doing reasonably well up until a few days ago. Been able to function but it?s taken a full effort. Still, I?ve been able to get by. There have been some good days and so far 1 night of a full 8 hours sleep. But mostly 1-2 hours of sleep at most (it sounds crazy but I?m not kidding) lack of sleep is starting to cause some major problems. It?s been 3 full days and no sleep. It seems to be getting worse, I don?t understand. Yesterday and today I?ve been experiencing terrifying hallucinations. While laying in bed last night a bizarre figure walked into my room. I?ve never been so afraid in my life, I yelled in horror and my girlfriend was really freaked out. Today I?ve been seeing strange things in my peripheral vision but the hallucinations are much worse in the dark. I almost got hit by a fucking car earlier.It feels like I?m at the edge of sanity.
The way I see it, I have 3 options
Use opiates. Sleep. Hope all this ?blows over? or somehow magically resolves with time.
Or
Go back on suboxone and try tapering more slowly..or accept that I can?t live anything that resembles a normal life without it.
Or
Continue without opiates and pray I don?t go fucking psychotic (it?s happened once before. I was institutionalized for a week when I quit methadone cold turkey, 8 years ago)
I?ve tried like 10 different sleep meds and nothing works. Not even benzos or Kratom are helping anymore. Fuuuuck.
