I am 28 yrs old, I have abused food, booze, opiates, weed, etc....
this pattern started when I was 18. before that I was just a wild kid, bad grades, no focus, quick mood swings, and so on.
so..I went the last 10 years fucking up my life. Now I am done.
I am desperate. I have been for a while. I got clean from opies months ago..and those traits and feelings came back.
I always suspected I have add or adhd.
I met a doctor this weekend at a small party. Some how it came up. He was very generous man.
He took me to the Internets and together we did two separate tests for it. Both time my answers were off the charts for ADHD, in other words...my life is the one of a person with a strong case of ADD.
I never thought of or accepted this.
This man is 50 and is certain of it that I need help or I will end up a drug addict again and it won't get better and it is not my fault.
Look guys I am not trying to sound like a big pussy but I am terrified to go to a MD and get officially checked out.
this might sound nuts..but on the outside I will come off as perfect , out going, funny, charming when I go see the MD. but on the inside my mind is racing and I am a mess.
This man I met told me to go and tell the MD everything, the past, the history, the current, the drug abuse. Tell him you are desperate for help and change.
I am scared today I will make an appt with someone.
advice?
this pattern started when I was 18. before that I was just a wild kid, bad grades, no focus, quick mood swings, and so on.
so..I went the last 10 years fucking up my life. Now I am done.
I am desperate. I have been for a while. I got clean from opies months ago..and those traits and feelings came back.
I always suspected I have add or adhd.
I met a doctor this weekend at a small party. Some how it came up. He was very generous man.
He took me to the Internets and together we did two separate tests for it. Both time my answers were off the charts for ADHD, in other words...my life is the one of a person with a strong case of ADD.
I never thought of or accepted this.
This man is 50 and is certain of it that I need help or I will end up a drug addict again and it won't get better and it is not my fault.
Look guys I am not trying to sound like a big pussy but I am terrified to go to a MD and get officially checked out.
this might sound nuts..but on the outside I will come off as perfect , out going, funny, charming when I go see the MD. but on the inside my mind is racing and I am a mess.
This man I met told me to go and tell the MD everything, the past, the history, the current, the drug abuse. Tell him you are desperate for help and change.
I am scared today I will make an appt with someone.
advice?