geoffreychaucer
Bluelighter
Hello,
I am a long-time suffer of depression and bipolar NOS. I have used drugs, and still do moderately, but my usage has been pretty limited in comparison to most. Generally, the only drugs I would be consider myself having gotten addicted to have been weed and kratom but both addictions were in themselves mild. Anyway, my question doesn't directly relate to drug abuse so I'll move on.
My dear doctor, of whom I am currently prescribed lithium, was quite receptive to my recent request for something to help with concentration and focus. Of course, I was asking for some kind of amphetamine but the symptoms I descried were, and continue to often be, quite real. Since starting on lithium I have noticed a drop in concentration and focus. However, my lithium levels show that I am probably not even feeling much effect so its really the depression which has contributed to this along with the lithium.
So I was prescribed Adderall. He discussed the options, Vyvanse, Dexedrine, etc, and I said I wanted instant release something since I only wanted to take this as needed. We only decided on Adderall over Dexedrine since I had previously been prescribed Adderall and it reacted fine. He gave me a prescription for 15mg tablets 3x a day.
The first week I had it, I took two of these tablets at once, got very speedy, took more, felt good and of course took more. The side effects were there, the crash was there, overall I felt no need to repeat that experience. So now I have been taking one tablet at a time, with an antacid of course, waiting another 3-4 hours when the effects began to diminish, before taking another. If needed I would take a third 3-4 hours after that.
After my initial experience, I knew that this drug was not something I wanted to abuse in the least. 15mg at a time gives me the concentration and focus I need to feel positive about life. One of my biggest triggers for depression is feeling unproductive so its very important to me that I am working hard and that I have the energy to do that.
So, I intend to be on Adderall, or possibly Vyvanse, for a while. At this point it seems to be a drug which directly addresses my depression with very few side effects when taking in small increments. I have no desire to abuse it as I stated earlier since I don't feel depressed when I take it and my drug seeking behavior is directly related to feeling depression. Overall I am feeling very positive about this prescription.
Thus, I need you guys to bring me back to reality. Is taking Adderall as prescried to address non-ADD depression related focus and concentration issues, in your opinion, problematic? If not, what should I be concerned about? I do plan on taking breaks when little is required of me in terms of focus and concentration, i.e. vacations and maybe weekends. I'm not looking to be affirmed here! I honestly don't know if this is a healthy idea but I am doing everything my doctor says, and I trust him (he wouldn't prescribe me benzos for panic, gave me beta-blockers instead, i.e. he seems legit and does not dole drugs out at random).
Sorry for the long post and thank you all for your constructive input.
TL;DR Got Adderall prescription, its going well, not abusing, but am concerned about possible long-term effects.
I am a long-time suffer of depression and bipolar NOS. I have used drugs, and still do moderately, but my usage has been pretty limited in comparison to most. Generally, the only drugs I would be consider myself having gotten addicted to have been weed and kratom but both addictions were in themselves mild. Anyway, my question doesn't directly relate to drug abuse so I'll move on.
My dear doctor, of whom I am currently prescribed lithium, was quite receptive to my recent request for something to help with concentration and focus. Of course, I was asking for some kind of amphetamine but the symptoms I descried were, and continue to often be, quite real. Since starting on lithium I have noticed a drop in concentration and focus. However, my lithium levels show that I am probably not even feeling much effect so its really the depression which has contributed to this along with the lithium.
So I was prescribed Adderall. He discussed the options, Vyvanse, Dexedrine, etc, and I said I wanted instant release something since I only wanted to take this as needed. We only decided on Adderall over Dexedrine since I had previously been prescribed Adderall and it reacted fine. He gave me a prescription for 15mg tablets 3x a day.
The first week I had it, I took two of these tablets at once, got very speedy, took more, felt good and of course took more. The side effects were there, the crash was there, overall I felt no need to repeat that experience. So now I have been taking one tablet at a time, with an antacid of course, waiting another 3-4 hours when the effects began to diminish, before taking another. If needed I would take a third 3-4 hours after that.
After my initial experience, I knew that this drug was not something I wanted to abuse in the least. 15mg at a time gives me the concentration and focus I need to feel positive about life. One of my biggest triggers for depression is feeling unproductive so its very important to me that I am working hard and that I have the energy to do that.
So, I intend to be on Adderall, or possibly Vyvanse, for a while. At this point it seems to be a drug which directly addresses my depression with very few side effects when taking in small increments. I have no desire to abuse it as I stated earlier since I don't feel depressed when I take it and my drug seeking behavior is directly related to feeling depression. Overall I am feeling very positive about this prescription.
Thus, I need you guys to bring me back to reality. Is taking Adderall as prescried to address non-ADD depression related focus and concentration issues, in your opinion, problematic? If not, what should I be concerned about? I do plan on taking breaks when little is required of me in terms of focus and concentration, i.e. vacations and maybe weekends. I'm not looking to be affirmed here! I honestly don't know if this is a healthy idea but I am doing everything my doctor says, and I trust him (he wouldn't prescribe me benzos for panic, gave me beta-blockers instead, i.e. he seems legit and does not dole drugs out at random).
Sorry for the long post and thank you all for your constructive input.
TL;DR Got Adderall prescription, its going well, not abusing, but am concerned about possible long-term effects.