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Acid has ruined me

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hcooper

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I honestly never thought I would be writing this down but it has become overwhelming and to be honest I want peoples experiences rather than doctors pills to help me understand what went wrong.

I'm 17 and had smoked weed from February 2007 to July 10th 2010, though for some this is not a long time I feel that I know my fair share about cannabis in general specifically hash. At the beginning of 2010 I had an anxiety breakdown and (probably stupidly) contributed it to smoking skunk and moved to hash and was fine. I knew my limits, it was just a daily thing for me, nothing big or small if that makes sense! On July 1st I took LSD for the first time and nearly turned into a hippy overnight, I loved it and Jim Morrison was instantly my hero! Two days later I went to Hop Farm festival and took two tabs, I was with 3 people, one, my best friend, another an old friend and the other my best friends new friend. For some reason I felt out of the group and though I was tripping I wasn't particularly enjoying it, suddenly it turned bad, the clouds flew out at me and everything I looked at was negative, just a bad trip my friends told me, but I felt it was different, it was a panic attack of extreme proportions and I thought I had known my limits and this was really showing my naivety. I want whoever is reading to keep reading so I won't go on about the trip, you just have to believe it was BAD. The day after, (it was a three day festival and the trip was on the first) I was smoking weed (skunk as we had gone through our hash) and all was fine.

But it stayed in the back of my mind to around July 10th where I smoked a lot of hash and though I smoked everyday, I never really exceeded 6 joints, we smoked about 12 joints, at first I thought it was a whitey but I then had flashbacks. From then till now, I cannot smoke a joint without extreme paranoia/panic. I really want to be able to smoke again, it gave me something to look forward to, and so, after all this, I am now on Citalopram, Clonazepam and another SSRI I cannot remember the name of, but I just want to know, by stopping for awhile or anything else, can I smoke again?

I am sorry about the length of this but it does feel good to get it onto a page!

Henry
 
i usually just use this site for education but since i was waiting on a reply from blers i figured id try to help you out. however while looking up a word i deleted everything i wrote. quick summary, get your head right. take a break from smoking and go do something you really enjoy. you are young you have plenty of time to figure out what drugs are about. although i have never had a bad trip in my life, i have suffered severe depression from letting my recreational drug use spiral out of control. if you want pm me and i can elaborate more but sickness is cutting this sort. good luck
 
do you have a email address, i wanted to send you a private msg but since i havent posted enough times i cant.
 
Just take a long break from drugs and then after a while see how it feels when you smoke again. If you still feel that paranoia then don't start up smokeing again just yet.
 
I don't know if i'd blame the "bad trip". My experience with weed is similar; after smoking for years, I took a short break and when I tried it after the break I couldn't smoke anymore without paranoia or panic. I mean hiding under the covers type of panic. It sucks because I used to really enjoy some good bud, but I just cant do it anymore.
 
oradell218 said:
do you have a email address, i wanted to send you a private msg but since i havent posted enough times i cant.
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[It's not a good idea to post your personal email address in the public forum. Assuming oradell has seen this now, I will remove it :) - n3o]
thanks again I appreciate it.

Henry
 
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Breathe.

Remember your heart rate races with ganja after a few tokes of something very sativa.

Just breathe and remember that it's only drugs - was it a sativa dominant strain??

Flashbacks eyy?? Fuck, STILL not had one, but if it was so significant, I feel bad for you dude.

Take care, and stopping smoking for a while, til the anxiety goes away...find where it's grounded though, and if it's got none, repeat that in your mind.

Did you see Bob Dylan at the festival incidentally, I didn't get a chance to go.
 
I think to some point it is good that you have come out of this not wanting to smoke everyday. Smoking weed everyday becomes very habitual, to the point where functioning normally without smoking becomes tough.

You are 17, your brain has not completely developed yet, so doing weed everyday was never a good idea in the first place. I didn't post this to lecture you, only to provide a little insight. And a drug like LSD should wait until your brain has fully developed and you accept what might happen
in the LSD state.

There are no 'bad' trips, only trips with difficult and sometimes frightening overtones, but this doesn't make them bad. Sometimes the worse a trip is, the more knowledge of yourself you can come out with. Mind you that rule is not set in stone.

But just take some time out for yourself. Try meditating, get stuck into some books, or just do what it is that 17yr olds do best, and have fun. Leave the drugs for a while, plenty of time in the future for that

MV
 
bad trips are very hard to get over, no matter how long youve smoked or done drugs

i think that, first of all, yes you will be able to smoke again, but i think the key is just to keep it relaxed, dont go through your day looking forward to nothing but pot...i do agree that, as a pot smoker myself, it IS a pretty good thing to look forward to, but there always needs to be a balance for everything cause otherwise you'll just be left confused and unhappy

just lay low for a while, allow yourself to get control of your emotions without having to worry about the past or your future, take advantage of the life you got cause you only have one

peace/love

PS. it also sounds like you should probably just stay away from LSD its a veryyy sketchy drug...its very cheap yet very effective, which, personally, just makes me wonder what people actually lace it with cause im sure there could be a lot of things
 
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brooklynbuRniNg5 said:
PS. it also sounds like you should probably just stay away from LSD its a veryyy sketchy drug...its very cheap yet very effective, which, personally, just makes me wonder what people actually lace it with cause im sure there could be a lot of things
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Please dont spread false information do research before making a post
 
stop doing drugs. and you probably will get over the bad trip, it just takes time. i had a fucked up experience on DMT and thought i had induced PTSD...feel ok now though. after a few days of feeling de-personalized and quite frankly i thought i had fucked myself up for good
 
LSD deserves the upmost respect imo and this sorta thing is not uncommon ive heard stories like this before on or two of em right here.... maybe things were pushed a little far, unfortunatly in my experience u just gonna have ta put tha bong down for a little while, proquire some vallium maybe, take a chill break, stay away from dat acid for a little while i vert much doubt it has "Ruined" you as you think.
Bad trips can take a lot to get over but ul always return. RESPECT for all these drugs is paramount.
U'l b able to smoke again one day without panic that im pretty sure of, an if u delve into the acid again then remember respect, how ur feeling, set and setting, and for fucks sake dont over do it coz thats where it will get u in the position ur in.
wishing you all the best man, jus dun panic ul b fine in time enough:)
 
brooklynbuRniNg5 said:
PS. it also sounds like you should probably just stay away from LSD its a veryyy sketchy drug...its very cheap yet very effective, which, personally, just makes me wonder what people actually lace it with cause im sure there could be a lot of things
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Nah man, LSD is LSD, it is rarely "laced" with anything. Occasionally you might get sold things like Bromo-dragonfly or LSA instead of LSD, which are both very different, but LSD in itself is rarely laced. It's just a very powerful drug, that's all!! Some people's brains are just not designed to cope with acid, (or psychedelics in general) which is why it should be treated with the utmost care and respect, especially for first-timers.

hcooper said:
but I just want to know, by stopping for awhile or anything else, can I smoke again?
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Unfortunately no-one can really answer that question dude. But I would highly recommend that you take a break from smoking for a while to give your brain a chance to recover and get back to some kind of normal balance. This could take many months. Then, when you're feeling up to it try smoking just a little bit and see how you go. Only time will tell if you'll be able to smoke again without having panic attacks.
To speed up the healing process you should make sure you stick to a healthy diet, drink plenty of water, and get some exercise in a few times a week. If you're really having trouble coping with your thoughts and emotions you should consider getting some counselling.
Take care <3
 
Thanks to everyone for their posts, I really do appreciate it, hopefully I will be getting over this and off these god damn pills. Elvis made them sound much cooler!!

Henry

Jblazingphoenix100 said:
Just breathe and remember that it's only drugs - was it a sativa dominant strain??

Did you see Bob Dylan at the festival incidentally, I didn't get a chance to go.
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Yes it was sativa for most of the time though I think, that once or twice a friend of mine brought hybrid strain however my strain knowledge is not brilliant.

Yes I did see Bob Dylan, he was fantastic, though I feel the majority of the crowd were expecting Dylan from 1966 and were a bit dazzled by his voice, though I loved it, it was the only reason I went, thank christ the trip was the day before!!

Henry
 
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LSD can trigger latent mental illness pretty easily. It affects serotonin receptors and can alter ratios and density ect...

However LSD isnt really known for having permanent affects like MDMA or Meth so you will likely recover with some time. Just lay off all the drugs.
 
As someone said - your mind is still developing on a major scale, weed and ANY other drug is going to start recircuiting it before it's even had a chance to fully form.

I would strongly suggesst you leave weed to occasional use and everything else - well don't use them until you're like 20+ imho...maybe mushrooms once or something, if you're in a good place in your mind and setting, but use it for perspective, not just casual tripping.

Glad ya saw Dylan, I don't know anyone who went, me & a bunch of friends were supposed to go :\
 
It's already been said but I'll reiterate anyway: this might turn out to be a good thing for you. Obviously having flashbacks is horrible - I've experienced it twice when smoking after a bad mushroom trip - but the fact that it was caused by weed/hash means you know exactly what you have to do to avoid them in future - stop smoking. I'm not saying it'll be forever, but you should definitely give it a rest for a month or so at least.

Not to sound like your parents or anything, but smoking daily is not something you should be doing at seventeen - and certainly not something you should have started three years prior to that, at fourteen. You're still young and you have plenty of time to do all this shit later in life, believe me. So just treat this an an opportunity to cut down. Your brain and lungs probably need a good rest. I think for a seventeen-year-old you write very maturely and intelligently and it would be a shame if you lost those abilities to a stupid fucking plant.

Just go easy man.
 
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