ErikTheRed
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jan 21, 2010
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- 193
Hello All. I'm posting this for myself as much as for anyone else.
I'm no stranger to GBL. I would often use 4-5ml per week for university discussion classes. I'm a relatively introverted person, so a small dose (1ml) did wonders for my group communication courses. At this point it was something I looked forward, but had not yet sunk its seductive hooks into me yet.
Fast forward 3 weeks ago. I split a split a 500ml bottle with a friend. We had both been looking forward to it, as a pseudo-medication for our mutual generalized/social anxieties. But, I would have no way to predict what happened next...
Things started on a positive note. We received the package, dosed and went out for delicious lunch and walked around town, a truly glorious day. The prior 2 weeks had been filled with all kinds of anxiety, it was a much welcomed relief. My anxiety was/is severe enough that I decided to keep taking it for a couple days on a 24/7 basis. My anxiety disorder pulled a 180, I was walking around campus with new-found confidence and swagger, talking to girls I would normally never approach, even got a couple dates for the near future. I was the person I always wanted to be. Around day 4 the problems began, the effects became more and more sedating and less euphoric. But, the hellish dopamine rebound kept me using, I had a large supply after all. About 2 days ago my supply was beginning to run low, but I just decided to keep using and deal with any dopamine rebound issues as they came.
The first night was hell, I took my last dose around 1am, by 2:30am my heart was jacked, worse even than a bad methamphetamine comedown. Palms and were feet were drenched with sweat, each limb constantly trembled. I couldn't even watch TV, because I over-analzyed every scene and applied it to my own life in some deeply dark manner. I decided that drinking alcohol might help, since they are both GABAneergic. This caused a bizarre reaction. After drinking around 750ml of red wine I felt slightly less tense, but I noticed that I began to have double vision. For example, if I looked at a poster on my wall, it would slowly turn into duplicates. I didn't get this double vision for close-up objects however. I then took another 1ml of GBL hours later and the double vision went away, within 10 minutes/
I went through a second night of this, with the same experience of double-vision after using alcohol. I believe there might be some kind of connection here.
Fortunately my clonazapam prescription came in yesterday, I took a large dose and got some, nice uninterrupted sleep. I'm not a particularly spiritual person. But, when I woke up I felt a profound desire to change my life in a more academic and productive direction. Currently, I'm feeling no WD effects, and am doing quite well.
I know there are the ood GHB/GBL users out there who may appreciate this story.
I'm no stranger to GBL. I would often use 4-5ml per week for university discussion classes. I'm a relatively introverted person, so a small dose (1ml) did wonders for my group communication courses. At this point it was something I looked forward, but had not yet sunk its seductive hooks into me yet.
Fast forward 3 weeks ago. I split a split a 500ml bottle with a friend. We had both been looking forward to it, as a pseudo-medication for our mutual generalized/social anxieties. But, I would have no way to predict what happened next...
Things started on a positive note. We received the package, dosed and went out for delicious lunch and walked around town, a truly glorious day. The prior 2 weeks had been filled with all kinds of anxiety, it was a much welcomed relief. My anxiety was/is severe enough that I decided to keep taking it for a couple days on a 24/7 basis. My anxiety disorder pulled a 180, I was walking around campus with new-found confidence and swagger, talking to girls I would normally never approach, even got a couple dates for the near future. I was the person I always wanted to be. Around day 4 the problems began, the effects became more and more sedating and less euphoric. But, the hellish dopamine rebound kept me using, I had a large supply after all. About 2 days ago my supply was beginning to run low, but I just decided to keep using and deal with any dopamine rebound issues as they came.
The first night was hell, I took my last dose around 1am, by 2:30am my heart was jacked, worse even than a bad methamphetamine comedown. Palms and were feet were drenched with sweat, each limb constantly trembled. I couldn't even watch TV, because I over-analzyed every scene and applied it to my own life in some deeply dark manner. I decided that drinking alcohol might help, since they are both GABAneergic. This caused a bizarre reaction. After drinking around 750ml of red wine I felt slightly less tense, but I noticed that I began to have double vision. For example, if I looked at a poster on my wall, it would slowly turn into duplicates. I didn't get this double vision for close-up objects however. I then took another 1ml of GBL hours later and the double vision went away, within 10 minutes/
I went through a second night of this, with the same experience of double-vision after using alcohol. I believe there might be some kind of connection here.
Fortunately my clonazapam prescription came in yesterday, I took a large dose and got some, nice uninterrupted sleep. I'm not a particularly spiritual person. But, when I woke up I felt a profound desire to change my life in a more academic and productive direction. Currently, I'm feeling no WD effects, and am doing quite well.
I know there are the ood GHB/GBL users out there who may appreciate this story.
