72hrs Heroine Withdrawal-NEED FEEDBACK

[tommy_407]

Okay. Basically I am a spoiled bitch regarding my willpower & heroine withdrawal considering the "mildness" of my symptoms, my life situation, & how I can cope - that is, compared to the posts I see on this board. In the past year I haven't been able to achieve more than 7 days clean

Habit:
2-3 dimebags every other, or every 3rd day.
Sniffing, not injected

Withdrawal symptoms:
Chills, hot flashes, runny nose, aches & pains, mild diarrhea, stomach discomfort

-NO vommitting, NO heavy coldsweats, I can always keep food down.

I made it about 80 hours today (total withdrawal for me only lasts 4 days) and I caved and did a dimebag. It took away all my symptoms & put me in a good mood.

-NOW WHAT?? I am planning to stick it out again. My "dope friends" tell me they would have just stuck it out, but this could be a blessing in disguise, because they said my withdrawal over the next 4 days should be much lighter now that I had this little "rinse"

What do you think? Did I just restart the clock pointlessly? Or will I have a slightly easier time? The last time I used before today I was cleaning up from a 1 day and a half binge.

I take 40mg Adderall rX daily (this helps immensely) and I work out plus am taking a cycle of testosterone enanthate (steroids)

I have it so much easier than most of you
And yet I can't STOP!! This is so frustrating. I just want my brain to go back to the way it was pre-opiates.

I hate kicking when I'm broke also! It makes me feel like I'm being FORCED, not doing it out of my own FREE WILL. Then after day 3 or day 4 I will stumble upon $30 and be like OH YES! LET'S GO SCORE!

I know for a fact I am not addicted enough for suboxone or methadone, and I've considered it believe me...it's just that I am a "get it over with now" type of person I never believed in prolonging anything.

So what do you guys think? I usually get insomnia on the 3rd nite, only really for one nite, then night #4 I can sleep

I'm going to sit in the steam room this morning and definitely lift & do cardio & try to throw some THOMAS RECEIPE tactics in.
Idk wtf is wrong with me. I have barely been able to make any forward moves this past year all because of dope. And I've got $30 in my pocket I'm planning on filling my other Adderall script with it but part of me wants to go score in the AM when the dope spot opens. I seem to have very little willpower these days.

 

[Rio Fantastic]

Okay. Basically I am a spoiled bitch regarding my willpower & heroine withdrawal considering the "mildness" of my symptoms, my life situation, & how I can cope - that is, compared to the posts I see on this board. In the past year I haven't been able to achieve more than 7 days clean

Habit:
2-3 dimebags every other, or every 3rd day.
Sniffing, not injected

Withdrawal symptoms:
Chills, hot flashes, runny nose, aches & pains, mild diarrhea, stomach discomfort

-NO vommitting, NO heavy coldsweats, I can always keep food down.

I made it about 80 hours today (total withdrawal for me only lasts 4 days) and I caved and did a dimebag. It took away all my symptoms & put me in a good mood.

-NOW WHAT?? I am planning to stick it out again. My "dope friends" tell me they would have just stuck it out, but this could be a blessing in disguise, because they said my withdrawal over the next 4 days should be much lighter now that I had this little "rinse"

What do you think? Did I just restart the clock pointlessly? Or will I have a slightly easier time? The last time I used before today I was cleaning up from a 1 day and a half binge.

I take 40mg Adderall rX daily (this helps immensely) and I work out plus am taking a cycle of testosterone enanthate (steroids)

I have it so much easier than most of you
And yet I can't STOP!! This is so frustrating. I just want my brain to go back to the way it was pre-opiates.

I hate kicking when I'm broke also! It makes me feel like I'm being FORCED, not doing it out of my own FREE WILL. Then after day 3 or day 4 I will stumble upon $30 and be like OH YES! LET'S GO SCORE!

I know for a fact I am not addicted enough for suboxone or methadone, and I've considered it believe me...it's just that I am a "get it over with now" type of person I never believed in prolonging anything.

So what do you guys think? I usually get insomnia on the 3rd nite, only really for one nite, then night #4 I can sleep

I'm going to sit in the steam room this morning and definitely lift & do cardio & try to throw some THOMAS RECEIPE tactics in.
Idk wtf is wrong with me. I have barely been able to make any forward moves this past year all because of dope. And I've got $30 in my pocket I'm planning on filling my other Adderall script with it but part of me wants to go score in the AM when the dope spot opens. I seem to have very little willpower these days.

I literally am on day 5 of quitting today, and have been in a very similar situation to you. My habit was by no means heavy this time and the symptoms were comparatively mild. I see you have some meds but I would DEFINITELY add gabapentin to the mix, this helped me immensely. It's a good idea to ensure you don't have access to money for the 5 days, I'd consider turning over cards/cash to someone you trust and ensuring you can't get any, I find that if I know the money is there its SO much harder to shut out the cravings. And don't kid yourself into thinking this is going to be much easier - your brain hadn't reached homeostasis yet (thus still the withdrawals) so you most likely have just reset the clock. Prepare for the same withdrawals as before and you can't be surprised by their severity except for pleasantly. And if you ever want to quit you have to get rid of your "dope friends" and make some serious lifestyle changes, I'm afraid. Quitting heroin isn't easy, but we should have known that before we got into this shit, right?