Morninggloryseed
Bluelight Crew
5-MeO-DMT/10mg - Experienced - The Final Trip
Another writing exercise for me, will eventually add more detail to make it juicy.
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I had a situation that I enjoyed being as-is, in every way, become something I didn't plan on...and it was awesome it did so. But then I started having 'intentions' for that unexpected surprise to 'go how I wanted it'....forgetting to just experience it and let it be as it was....and then sure enough I was disappointed when it did not go that way. The disappointment was profound to say the least. I grabbed 10mg or so 5-MeO-DMT and went in with the 'mindset' that wherever it all means I shall learn to be at peace again.
Well, to say the VERY least the experience was almost as profound as my ibogaine experience, ibogaine was rebirth and getting to do it all over again right. This 5-MeO-DMT trip was death, and it was forever, and I had to accept the death for all it was because there was no changing the death but I could change how I practiced the death and be at peace with all that was, and all that never would have been (not counting the endless cycle of death and birth, I was there too) This was a ++++ to put it mildly. I had the ultimate trip.
And most important I learned how to have a good death...welcome it every day because the universe may have that in store...be at peace with death whenever it comes, remember that your death could be a tragic one, and 'too early.' Remember that life isn't just yours, remember Oneness and that we are all that, remember that (leaving out the concepts of 'afterlife') that we live on in all the people we know and touch, we live on by sharing out experiences and knowledge with others...when they learn that knowledge and experience....they practice it in their lives...your life touches others when they react to you and modify their thinking or behaviors in response...and through that we will live eternally even in death.
And if you do die a tragic death that was 'too soon' remember that the pain others feel in response is still a life lesson for them. Therefor, be at peace with death because that much is certain to happen...live every day to the fullest, learn every lesson possible, change your mind as much as you can so you don't get stuck in a death of regret and lost opportunity.
And that lesson of death was then taken to the next logical place....my circumstance that I loved but was happy with it as it was going...changed and instead of then experiencing the change and loving it for what it was, my 'ego' stepped in and 'decided' how that change should occur (expectations) that were not met, resulting in profound disappointment.....so the 5-MeO-DMT trip reorientated my thinking back to accepting it as it was, not for what I wanted it to be....and I began to enjoy circumstances of 'what is' even more than I did before...and sure enough days later circumstances changed again and circumstances became even MORE awesome that I could have ever envisioned. And I'm loving the evolution!
If you want to trip over a life circumstance...just practice letting the circumstance flood your mind, take in the pain the beauty and all other aspects, ask your God, or Gods or your Nothingness, or yourself, or the universe, or whatever flavor you like to give you the wisdom to gain the most from these sensations and to be able to apply them to 'real life' in a very meaningful way when you come down...when you come down practice those lessons to the fullest.
Another writing exercise for me, will eventually add more detail to make it juicy.
__________________________
I had a situation that I enjoyed being as-is, in every way, become something I didn't plan on...and it was awesome it did so. But then I started having 'intentions' for that unexpected surprise to 'go how I wanted it'....forgetting to just experience it and let it be as it was....and then sure enough I was disappointed when it did not go that way. The disappointment was profound to say the least. I grabbed 10mg or so 5-MeO-DMT and went in with the 'mindset' that wherever it all means I shall learn to be at peace again.
Well, to say the VERY least the experience was almost as profound as my ibogaine experience, ibogaine was rebirth and getting to do it all over again right. This 5-MeO-DMT trip was death, and it was forever, and I had to accept the death for all it was because there was no changing the death but I could change how I practiced the death and be at peace with all that was, and all that never would have been (not counting the endless cycle of death and birth, I was there too) This was a ++++ to put it mildly. I had the ultimate trip.
And most important I learned how to have a good death...welcome it every day because the universe may have that in store...be at peace with death whenever it comes, remember that your death could be a tragic one, and 'too early.' Remember that life isn't just yours, remember Oneness and that we are all that, remember that (leaving out the concepts of 'afterlife') that we live on in all the people we know and touch, we live on by sharing out experiences and knowledge with others...when they learn that knowledge and experience....they practice it in their lives...your life touches others when they react to you and modify their thinking or behaviors in response...and through that we will live eternally even in death.
And if you do die a tragic death that was 'too soon' remember that the pain others feel in response is still a life lesson for them. Therefor, be at peace with death because that much is certain to happen...live every day to the fullest, learn every lesson possible, change your mind as much as you can so you don't get stuck in a death of regret and lost opportunity.
And that lesson of death was then taken to the next logical place....my circumstance that I loved but was happy with it as it was going...changed and instead of then experiencing the change and loving it for what it was, my 'ego' stepped in and 'decided' how that change should occur (expectations) that were not met, resulting in profound disappointment.....so the 5-MeO-DMT trip reorientated my thinking back to accepting it as it was, not for what I wanted it to be....and I began to enjoy circumstances of 'what is' even more than I did before...and sure enough days later circumstances changed again and circumstances became even MORE awesome that I could have ever envisioned. And I'm loving the evolution!
If you want to trip over a life circumstance...just practice letting the circumstance flood your mind, take in the pain the beauty and all other aspects, ask your God, or Gods or your Nothingness, or yourself, or the universe, or whatever flavor you like to give you the wisdom to gain the most from these sensations and to be able to apply them to 'real life' in a very meaningful way when you come down...when you come down practice those lessons to the fullest.
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