fungus44
Bluelighter
Set & setting: Quite relaxed. Been in a quiet woodsy area not far from a major North American city. Got a lot out of 2ct2 the first time -- deep introspection and some pretty crazy perceptual things happening. A little scared of taking it for some reason. Been in a state of responding to what the world does, rather than doing anything about the world. Well rested. Wanting to make some life decisions. No electronic distractions around.
T 0:00 = 1.30 pm
0:00 Take 20mg of 2ct2. Drawing at kitchen table of cabin. Eat a vanilla pudding. Why?
1:00 Some edginess. Nervous stomach, flickery light.
2:00 Not really anywhere. 10mg more.
3:00 Things are starting to get a bit of a swirl. Definite plus one. Feel very dirty, brush teeth, decide to go to common area where showers are.
3:15 A litttle nervous interacting with people. Bump in to a nice new acquaintance. Make some awkward jokes. Concerned I'm coming off as a nut. In retrospect don't think so.
3:20 Have shower. It feels very good.
3:30 Am cleaned up and start to walk in to an amazing wooded area we refer to as the cathedral. Trees would be 70 ft tall. No underbrush. Think, "Why did I take that drug? I'm already too introspective" Realize it's too late to alter. Thoughts are starting to get really zingy. Flickers of binary thinking. Yes, no, maybe so.
3:35 Move deeper into woods. Smoke a joint of very good weed. Not very focussed on it. Drop it. Pick it up. Looking at dead tree. Spot an Amanita growing on it. Senses feel like a kaleidoscope, fragmented but patterned. There is order to the universe. Continue walking.
At this point times linearity gets really messy. Nearly walk onto the fancy neighbouring golf course. Walking on a path near the river. Decide God is impossible. Who could possibly think off all the simultaneous chemical processes which are going on in all the plants and insects in just this tiny part of the world. The dude would blow his mind! The plants are very busy. Who needs Disney when there are living plants? Walking is very very slow. So much going on. While God is impossible and irrelevant, a sense of the dis/order of the universe feels clear. Twisting spinning changing.
4:45 Return to cabin. Food is being made. Try to be helpful but quite useless. Focussing on one task at at time makes each "mission" (eg. getting spoons out of drawer) possible. Cabinet doors mushy.
5:00 Can't eat much. Thinking about where evil comes from.
5:30 Go for walk with partner. Avoiding people. Could comment on things in a scientific way or philsophically, but don't want to and innapropriate. Come across an area where thousands of dragonflies are mating. Naive. See an example of what we later called the Twelve Feet High Club (as in the Mile High Club). The insects are beautiful and amazing.
5:40 Come across a bunch of ants dividing up into different colonies. Never saw a bunch of queen ants before. Thought about all the chemical and spatial relations happening.
Again time goes blurry til 8:30 or 10pm. The three hours are spent exploring paths and trails near the river in the more secluded spots. Vision very good, but a little over confident. Sober partner only advises against one action. Very wise. Geese are preparing their trip to Florida, keep flying overhead. See weird people in park, lots of affairs go on there.
8:30 Feel OK to visit with friends. Have a good talk. Mutual friends are dying or sick with cancer.
10:00 Pretty much back to baseline (initially wrote "bassline") Some tremor and mild agitation.
Summary: It was wonderful. Got a lot of new insights, and made some decisions about learning more about the environment and some of the regional ecological issues -- soil erosion, urban sprawl, the role of a particular plant. Normally wouldn't put too much of a mention about cannabis in something like this, but it seemed to set off the more powerful but soft or organic side of things. Is there a possible comparison between this combination and the warmth of harmine and harmaline on DMT in yage? This and other experiences with this substance seem to indicate a strong moral component to the experience- What should you be doing? Would put it in same category as LSD and yage in this regard. Not for partying!
T 0:00 = 1.30 pm
0:00 Take 20mg of 2ct2. Drawing at kitchen table of cabin. Eat a vanilla pudding. Why?
1:00 Some edginess. Nervous stomach, flickery light.
2:00 Not really anywhere. 10mg more.
3:00 Things are starting to get a bit of a swirl. Definite plus one. Feel very dirty, brush teeth, decide to go to common area where showers are.
3:15 A litttle nervous interacting with people. Bump in to a nice new acquaintance. Make some awkward jokes. Concerned I'm coming off as a nut. In retrospect don't think so.
3:20 Have shower. It feels very good.
3:30 Am cleaned up and start to walk in to an amazing wooded area we refer to as the cathedral. Trees would be 70 ft tall. No underbrush. Think, "Why did I take that drug? I'm already too introspective" Realize it's too late to alter. Thoughts are starting to get really zingy. Flickers of binary thinking. Yes, no, maybe so.
3:35 Move deeper into woods. Smoke a joint of very good weed. Not very focussed on it. Drop it. Pick it up. Looking at dead tree. Spot an Amanita growing on it. Senses feel like a kaleidoscope, fragmented but patterned. There is order to the universe. Continue walking.
At this point times linearity gets really messy. Nearly walk onto the fancy neighbouring golf course. Walking on a path near the river. Decide God is impossible. Who could possibly think off all the simultaneous chemical processes which are going on in all the plants and insects in just this tiny part of the world. The dude would blow his mind! The plants are very busy. Who needs Disney when there are living plants? Walking is very very slow. So much going on. While God is impossible and irrelevant, a sense of the dis/order of the universe feels clear. Twisting spinning changing.
4:45 Return to cabin. Food is being made. Try to be helpful but quite useless. Focussing on one task at at time makes each "mission" (eg. getting spoons out of drawer) possible. Cabinet doors mushy.
5:00 Can't eat much. Thinking about where evil comes from.
5:30 Go for walk with partner. Avoiding people. Could comment on things in a scientific way or philsophically, but don't want to and innapropriate. Come across an area where thousands of dragonflies are mating. Naive. See an example of what we later called the Twelve Feet High Club (as in the Mile High Club). The insects are beautiful and amazing.
5:40 Come across a bunch of ants dividing up into different colonies. Never saw a bunch of queen ants before. Thought about all the chemical and spatial relations happening.
Again time goes blurry til 8:30 or 10pm. The three hours are spent exploring paths and trails near the river in the more secluded spots. Vision very good, but a little over confident. Sober partner only advises against one action. Very wise. Geese are preparing their trip to Florida, keep flying overhead. See weird people in park, lots of affairs go on there.
8:30 Feel OK to visit with friends. Have a good talk. Mutual friends are dying or sick with cancer.
10:00 Pretty much back to baseline (initially wrote "bassline") Some tremor and mild agitation.
Summary: It was wonderful. Got a lot of new insights, and made some decisions about learning more about the environment and some of the regional ecological issues -- soil erosion, urban sprawl, the role of a particular plant. Normally wouldn't put too much of a mention about cannabis in something like this, but it seemed to set off the more powerful but soft or organic side of things. Is there a possible comparison between this combination and the warmth of harmine and harmaline on DMT in yage? This and other experiences with this substance seem to indicate a strong moral component to the experience- What should you be doing? Would put it in same category as LSD and yage in this regard. Not for partying!
