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bc

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it's 3:44.
am.
and it's here 2 hours early.
this isn't right.
and it's really fucking up my world.
every morning, almost to the minute...
at 5:30
if i'm awake, and i often am,
this wave,
almost palpable,
sweeps over me, and through me.
a wave which makes me heavy,
pulls me down into this dark,
wet,
smelly pit.
a pit of self loathing.
hate.
an hour devoted to self-doubt.
questioning my actions.
thoughts.
an hour to tear myself apart
from the inside out.
to hate all the things i see in myself.
and to hate all the things i see missing.
and tonight it's here 2 hours early.
and it's fucking up my world.
bc
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bc-
**Proud to be an Official member of the Stuck-Up/8-Up Crew**
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We'll make great pets...
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bc -
i dont know what to tell you. but everything i'm gonna say is straight out of my heart and i probably should just send u an e-mail saying this... but i want everyone out there, too, to know what a fuckin amazing person you are. you have no clue how much you have changed me in the few months i've known you. you have made me want to better myself, accept myself, and not be hesitant about being different. you've helped me through *SO* many shitty times and without you i dont know where i would be. it sounds so damn cheesy but its true. i might be a completely different person today if that first day of philosophy class you hadnt looked at me and said 'nice, another party kid.' you are such a unique person and i wish i could take everything shitty away from you, and take it upon myself... you deserve so much better than everything you have now... as many times as i say this - i do mean it - that i am glad that i met you. you are one of the most unique and beautiful people i know - inside and out. you are amazing... dont let anyone tell you differently, especially yourself, cause we all tend to be a bit harsh on ourselves every once in a while. i dont wanna see anything bad happen to you cause i dont know what i would do without you. if i dont talk to you for a day i start to miss you. i know there are so many more things to say, but i cant put them in words. just thinking about you puts a smile on my face. if anyone knows you then they'll see why i'm totally falling head over heels for ya... i cant deny it.
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love,
melissa
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~*~*~ meat is no treat for those you eat ~*~*~
animals are for petting!
"does anyone know where we are? because i think i dont have a clue"
 
bc much love to you hun !
I love this work very emotional.
(((hugs)))
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Just takes one angel to change a life
~~~~CHERUB~~~~
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~I still belive in your eyes~-Gigi D'Agostino
~~~I can be your Wendy, and you can be my Peter Pan. And we can fly to Neverneverland~~~
 
i know how you feel. I've been there and i hope you find yourself and love youself. lotsa love-jo
 
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