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Cocaine 15 days since my last line of cocaine :)

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pbuilder

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After using weekly for months I decided to go a month without, but I think I'm gonna try for two now! Using weekly may not sound bad to you guys but the drug really had me grabbed by my balls, It's all I could think about, was my next time using. I started being hella-depressed during the week until the day I used.
 
and then come downs are not worth it :( When I'm sober I can rationalize that the high is worth it, but during the actual come down, when you are void of any emotions, having anxiety attacks, can't sleep but don't feel like doing ANYTHING, it sucks bad. The anxiety is the absolute worst, makes you feel like crawling into a hole and dieing.
 
I know exactly what you mean. I used to shoot cocaine, and I would be up for hours, just mutilating my arms for that fucking glamorous 30 second rush, and then curl up on my couch, contemplating suicide, as I'd smell the cocaine seeping out of my pores. I'd try to calm myself down by saying "this is the last time, this is the last time...", knowing full well that it was the last time until the next time.
 
Whereas opiates have the horrible physical withdrawal, I find the mental withdrawals from euphoric stimulants almost as bad. The depression and desire to use and the belief that you can't function without it (for me this was with amphetamine) are all terrible. Like debbideb said, think of all the money you are saving! Stay strong, you are always better off not using IME.
 
Ohayou said:
Whereas opiates have the horrible physical withdrawal, I find the mental withdrawals from euphoric stimulants almost as bad. The depression and desire to use and the belief that you can't function without it (for me this was with amphetamine) are all terrible. Like debbideb said, think of all the money you are saving! Stay strong, you are always better off not using IME.
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Yeah I agree, stim withdrawal can be really debilitating. I wish there was a speed maintenance drug.
 
Znegative said:
Yeah I agree, stim withdrawal can be really debilitating. I wish there was a speed maintenance drug.
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Buprenorphine has the amazing ability to treat physical dependance AND dramatically reduce (if not eliminate) cravings and the desire to get high (this was the case for me for several years but i eventually wanted to get off of it and start getting high again, I never planned to stay clean i just got on it to stop my WD's).

As if that weren't enough, if you do cave in, it can BLOCK what you take from working, making relapse difficult and jacks up your tolerance really bad so even if you quit, a full blown high will take many months to acquire after quitting. Buprenorphine is amazingly effective and it seems as though it is really the perfect medication for treating opiate addiction.

If there were something that could do the same for stims, that would be amazing. If it could keep you from relapsing, keep you from feeling cravings, take care of your depression and make you feel energetic and good enough without making the user "high", I think it would be even more successful than Suboxone has been with opiate addicts. I suppose doctors could replace methamphetamine use with something milder like maybe dextro-amp but this would just leave the patient wanting more, not less.
 
im at 2 weeks :) really all ya gotta do is think, hmm is a 30 min tops rush worth the few hours of shit feeling and the lethargy the next day? Def not! keep it up man
 
Just at the end of 18 days sober today, 19 tommorow.

And man the mental cravings were really bad today, actually almost picked up a half G but stopped myself. I'm planning not this weekend but the next weekend after a month sober to pick up a G and then not use again for at least a month I figure that'd be a good way to limit myself, but sometimes man I fiend so hard.
 
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