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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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MatteM92 said:
Greetings. i am an old user from forum n three and four. they gave me two xeplions of 100 and 75 2 years ago and I recovered in a year and a half.. without psychosis... now I have psychosis instead. probably due to xeplion blocking dopamine in the brain and then after the long torture; this dopamine gets really high and makes a person healthy; psychotic. Now I'll tell you what happened
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Hi Matte, welcome back. It's good to hear from you, but it's not good to hear that your experiencing psychosis again. What is your plan?
 
bowandsparrow said:
Sexyal dysfunction and not feeling emotional highs.
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How about motivation, interests, passage of time, cognitive capability like focus, music, numbness and anhedonia.

You are able to work again? How is that going if that's the case.
 
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al mio primo ricovero con xeplion non ho avuto psicosi solo un momento di rabbia. era scritto anche sul verbale. ora, dopo due anni, gli effetti di xeplion sono finiti (i vari medici dissero che avevano sbagliato e che avevo bisogno di stabilizzatori dell'umore. lo stesso psichiatra si era pentito.
 
but now I am convinced that giving xeplion on a non-psychotic makes him psychotic. I have no diagnosis to date. they only said that I was not in contact with reality and had difficulties in human relationships. I'm 30. September I finally know what diagnosis I have. after more than 20. years of following me in mental health. Now I come to the final point
 
t_xeplionhell said:
How about motivation, interests, passage of time, cognitive capability like focus, music, numbness and anhedonia.

Are you able to work again?
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I returned to work in april and was doing fine, got laid off in June and waiting until October to fine a job again.

I'm keeping myself busy with writing a book, walking dogs and going to the gym, so motivation is decent. Certain songs can get me feeling very emotional, and time passes normally.

As far as anhedonia goes, I think my receptors are still blunted, but everything just feels "pleasant enough."
 
bowandsparrow said:
Autobiography! I've lived a pretty interesting life. Naturally the later chapters deal with my psychotic episodes and invega sustenna, so I'm hoping that can spark a dialogue about informed consent for psychiatric patients.
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Would you like to share some quotes from your book? Sounds very interesting
 
lurker689 said:
Guys is it possible to heal from this or is it permanent? Im scared.
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I’m scared as well bro. But I definitely think recovery is real based on the number of people who disappear from here + the ppl coming back with positive updates. Hang in there, don’t lose hope and don’t buy into the fearmongering. The positive stories far outweigh the negative ones. Remember that the people on this forum are in distress and reading too much will only scare the hell out of you. In a year’s time you will be back to yourself. Just look at @Kaatrina
 
We are in seriously deep shit. I keep thinking why me, but I never lose hope that I will recover. My progress so far is my motivation. I no longer feel crippling anhedonia mostly just sexual and stimulants. If I recover I promise that I’ll be here for the next 10 years providing hope that is much needed. I wish you guys so much good luck, I feel your pain
 
lurker689 said:
Guys is it possible to heal from this or is it permanent? Im scared.
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Only one way to find out … stay alive and struggle through the pain until you either recover or until you’ve not improved for 2 years at which point you can assume it’s permanent… that’s the way I see it anyway. Stay strong
 
Everyday is a struggle to just wake up. I stay in bed for hours without sleeping. Not much motivation to do things since i have anhedonia. I'm always lethargic and can't experience emotional highs as the other guy said it before. It's like pleasure is blocked in my brain, i can feel pressure in the back of my head whenever i begin to feel pleasure and then it ruins it. I don't want to be stuck like this forever. Is there any drug that can heal this brain damage or whatever it is? Why are there no scientists studying this phenomenon? How can these guys prescribe drugs and not understand how they work? My body is so discoordenated i can't even cry. Whenever i try, only a single tear falls down and then it's over, i feel stuck inside myself in despair and it's scary. Everyday is the same. APs are all i think about 24/7.
 
I can fucking relate man. Planning on exiting this shit world whenever I have the balls <edited out discussion of method of suicide - SMod>.
 
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CrimsonThornX said:
I don't know what do do anymore, I feel like giving up on life already. Once I had reached the point where I regained the ability to nearly sleep normally once again, I began seeing other gradual improvements as well. Despite what I was experiencing I remained hopeful that over the course of time that I'd continue seeing many steady signs of recovery, until I could one day experience life once again the way I could prior. That's how I had felt until just 3 days ago, where for seemingly no explainable reason my sexual side effects had suddenly become very severe, I also feel more lethargic, less energetic, and weaker in comparison to just a week ago. I haven't taken any other meds of that kind since so I can't understand what would cause this to occur all of a sudden. A week prior although I still hadn't fully recovered I had made an immense improvement from where it once was shortly after the injection.

Incase you find this topic sensitive or too detailed you can skip this but I went from being almost sexually normal again to having a completely dead libido, inability to obtain or maintain an erection, feel little to no pleasure from doing it, and have very weak and delayed orgasms where I produce almost no semen now. I've also been experiencing constant testicular pain since. Technically speaking I suppose I could live a life free of masturbation or sex for the rest of my life but that would be extremely miserable and depressing, especially for a once healthy guy with a high libido/high testosterone in his early 20's. I haven't thought about committing suicide since the first 3 or so months when I had severe insomnia but I'm highly considering it again, I don't want to live the rest of my life like this. Suddenly what masamune has been claiming doesn't seem so absurd, I can't understand why I went from gradually recovering to suddenly getting worse overnight despite the discontinuation of such meds.
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I measured Heart rate variability for invega sustenna (Xeplion), a indicator of wellbeing, health and resilience, for 1 month. Neuroleptics are inversely correlated with HRV. Results: first week there is lower dose and more capacity to do things and be animated. Second and third weeks more depressed. Fourth week more capacity to feel good and get reinforcement again. I noticed this emotional pattern only after some time of the measurement. I had thought before that it was my life.

Other observarion: the bigger needle increases dosage.

Third observation: I noticed a pattern while HRV was transitioning from low to medium (3rd to 4th week): a alternation of low and medium HRV values (yes, unstable). I hipothetized that it is a tiny withdrawal effect. But someone would have to measure HRV while on withdrawal to confirm this. There are some cheap ways of measuring HRV. With pills the pattern would be clearer. Then it would be cool to measure with Invega Sustenna (Xeplion) while in withdrawal.
 
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