I've never have been in a threesome that I look back on and say that was a good thing.
Never been in a threesome but this seems awful lmao
Opioid boners are preferred even to Diamond bits in tunnel boring I'm I'm told
It's an art really ..
That is so disturbing . Curious to know what drove Ed to this.
I remember reading about that and how the first time someone overdosed at his house people were offering him condolences
Good god, I need to check that out, that's completely fucked! Glad you made it out of the other end of that.Idk if I should share mine lol it's kinda negative so like someone else mentioned I was strung out in LA and my friend literally just abandons me in West Hollywood now I'm straight and kinda naive to a community like this, well actually I was completely ignorant but I met some really nice people and also had some unwanted experiences. One of them being an older gentleman and his friend asked me to come to their place to slam (shoot up) surprisingly people needing and even paying for help shooting up was pretty regular. But this guy doesn't want me to shoot them up he wants to watch me slam. He has a huge bag of gear and fresh needles but I realized he doesn't get high on meth. So what the hell free meth but he also wants to decide how much and he went big but I was a junky. I hit immediately, cough and feel amazing but he totally got off from watching me. He was so amazed at how good I was and wanted me to do more but I was lit. I do some G and they start doing their thing and I just chill lol awkward. I couldn't leave until he let me out he was being very sneaky like. I bounce and about a week later he approached me alone same thing wanted to watch me fix but this time the first shot made me sick and disoriented and I'm a hard core junky shooting meth, crack and heroin all day everyday. He then gets a crazed look in his eyes and says I need more. I ask for some G to mellow out and I can see it but he goes "its weak shit do another shot!" and he started pushing me into the bathroom and is so intensely obsessing and demanding I shoot more. I said "I'm not ok do you want me to die in your home? I need to leave Incase something happens I don't want you to get in trouble". I'm playing it off like I am looking out for him but I'm really terrified and it was just his energy. Fast forward and the man I knew as Ed is now in prison for trafficking struggling men and drugging them to death. ED BUCK! Google him. LGBTQ activists and democratic donor who had an apartment in west Hollywood. I believe because I am a white looking Latino he didn't go further that second time because he mainly tortured and killed gay black men by shooting them up until they died. With meth that's a horrible way to go. He would just call EMS and he got away with it a couple times. Very sad. This related to my chemsex days because I started meth in West Hollywood with friends and I was a tiny straight young man talk about a recipe for trauma but I realized I'm 100% straight but I got mad love for LA and Hollywood regardless.
Ed Buck Sentenced to 30 Years in Federal Prison for Providing Methamphetamine to Two Victims Who Suffered Fatal Overdoses
Edward Buck, a businessman and long-time figure of West Hollywood politics, was sentenced today to 360 months in federal prison for providing fatal doses of methamphetamine to two men who died at his apartment after he injected them with the drug.www.justice.gov
Oh man.. if you want to elaborate as to why please do. If not that ok. Just curious.
The way me and my wife see it is if you get pleasure from a man and can get off from any conscious lucid act with another male then you aren't straight. I've never ever been able to get hard or get off at ALL if another man is involved in anyway no matter what drug I was on. At the lowest point in my life I found myself (more than once) in positions that even faking pleasure with a man could of completely changed my life and I absolutely just couldn't. I'm talking being some multimillionaires boy toy and having a life I'll never experience all at my fingertips and I couldn't even go through the motions and I did try every drug around to help and nope. I now know I'm absolutely not gay or Bi and I'm happily married to an older woman who once believed she was fully gay until she met me lol. I also can not be touched or kissed at all by any male without feeling the most horrible repulsive disgust and I even tried to convince myself i could be bi. If we are honest with ourselves it's more cut and dry then some make it out to be.
I remember people telling me to drink to be able to relax in a social situation . I didn't I just dealt with the awkwardness.No problem at all
I was totally socially isolated due to severe depression/anxiety and I ended up with nobody IRL. The same month I started taking anti-depressants and was beginning to feel better my brother (only 16 months younger than me) starting inviting me to hang out with him and his friends (this was over the summer so no school for any of us). I still had a lot of social anxiety so everyone - like, everyone, including my parents - kept telling me to have a few drinks whenever I went out with people. I did and it worked wonders, but within a month I was drinking all day every day.
I had sex for the first time during that time.
I was then severely alcohol dependant for 8 years so was drunk like 98% of the time including every time I had sex.
I used most drugs during this time, too and after being very seriously ill in hospital and being given IV morphine 6 times a day for 11 weeks and then a high-dose Oxy script when I was discharged I got dependant on opioids, too.
I've always been high on opioids, drunk, or both whenever I've done anything sexual (the few times I was sober from alcohol and not high-high on opioids I was on some other drug).
I still drink alcohol very occasionally, but haven't been an alcohol for 4 years. Still dependant on opioids, but I also have severe chronic pain so I'll always need for for legit reason, too.
I was pretty old by todays standards when I lost my virginity. And then because I was drunk then and then every other time for several years, I guess I just get too anxious or my self-esteem is too low when I'm sober.
Probably has something to do with being raped as minor, too (I don't count that time as losing my virginity, rape is not sex) kinda makes me borderline-panicky when it comes to sex if I'm not sedated in some way.
I remember people telling me to drink to be able to relax in a social situation . I didn't I just dealt with the awkwardness.
It was really fukked up at first but then I cracked a joke at a friend's birthday party to break the ice and it was easy after that. I would have had those drinks though if I wasn't such a ninny back then.
So fascinating to me how a choice in the moment can shape your whole life. If I would have drank I'm sure it would not have led to anything good for me.
I agree that rape is not sex at all. Im glad you see it that way .
Thanks for sharing !
