Lost Please help possible brain damage from 3-mmc + MDMA?

[Benzammi]

First of all what I did was very stupid and I regret it every waking minute of my existence.

on the evening of 19 december 2020 I went completely overboard with drug usage.

First I drank a couple of beers followed by two scoops of MDMA from a baggy (orally ingested and couldn’t have been much)
It fels really good and I was having a great time. After the MDMA I also had 1 balloon of N2O.
This gave me a little panic attack as I thought that I was dying.

After relaxing a bit and watching some nice videos with some friends the night continued onward. At around 00:00 midnight I took 3-mmc for the first time ever (didn’t know about the risks which is stupid) I snorted 2 key points worth of 3-mmc and redosed this same way 2 times throughout the night.
After an amazing night I went home and slept like a baby. However the next morning was absolute hell.
I woke up with a throbbing headache which wasn’t a good sign. I thought it was just a simple hangover so I decided to just sleep it off.

Now almost 2,5 months later I still feel so weird and I have a weird list of symptoms.

-Brain fog
-Feeling brain dead(I catch myself staring with my mouth open a lot it feels like I am dumb and a zombie)
-My surroundings feel unreal (it feels like my brain is unable to process whats going on around me)
-very bad memory long/short term. (I forgot names of people I once knew and It feels like my vocabulary has diminished since that evening) it is really extreme I just feel dumb.
-my body and brain feel separate for some reason not sure if this is depersonalization as I had this before and it didn’t feel this extreme
-My emotions are messed up I am angered very quickly and when I am angry I am boiling with rage also I cry quickly and when I cry, I do it heavily.
-I keep yawning and never feel rested at all
-Depressed
-Massive headaches (especially heavy after drinking the night before. Although normally I never had heavy hangovers after drinking)

Now I am really unsure what happened to me I am afraid I damaged my brain as none of the symptoms changed after that fateful night.
Could somebody please help me or give there opinions I am scared that I ruined my life.

 

[jhjhsdi]

@Benzammi serotonin syndrome?

have you stopped using drugs?
if not then, do.
take multivitamins, eat good, exercise and sleep alot, im sure you will eventually go back to normal
unless you are still using serotonin based drugs then youll possibly get worse? im no doctor

 

[Juniper Bruhmomentius]

Drug use can put your thought in the back pedal. Not rare. Atleast youre alive.

 

[Juniper Bruhmomentius]

Drug use and antipsychotics have lowered my iq (mensa test) 148 to 118. FUCK. Thats life though.

 

[Nipper76]

First question, are you still taking anything? Prescriptions? Anything at all? You say you are drinking, so try and stop that, it's a depressant so will just make things worse until you recover.

Make a plan and commit to a path of detox, recuperation and healing, get back to basics and repair yourself physically and psychologically.

You will recover properly but you need to want to.

It might not be from that one night, it sounds like you've been using drugs for a while, so could be a culmination of poly drug use.

 

[Burnt Offerings]

No, you don't have brain damage.

You just had too much fun and temporarily fried the ol' circuitry. Just take a period of abstinence until you feel back to your old self...the idea of a "long term comedown" (i.e., feeling bad for an extended period of time after consuming drugs like MDMA) is not at all uncommon, you can find plenty of reports of it on this website, with many of the symptoms you mentioned. I think that a period of abstinence combined with a healthy lifestyle will get your strength back, though.

 

[Benzammi]

@Benzammi serotonin syndrome?

have you stopped using drugs?
if not then, do.
take multivitamins, eat good, exercise and sleep alot, im sure you will eventually go back to normal
unless you are still using serotonin based drugs then youll possibly get worse? im no doctor

I actually stopped using drugs for the last 2,5 months. It makes no difference and I still feel the same way I did the day this started.

 

[Benzammi]

First question, are you still taking anything? Prescriptions? Anything at all? You say you are drinking, so try and stop that, it's a depressant so will just make things worse until you recover.

Make a plan and commit to a path of detox, recuperation and healing, get back to basics and repair yourself physically and psychologically.

You will recover properly but you need to want to.

It might not be from that one night, it sounds like you've been using drugs for a while, so could be a culmination of poly drug use.

The only thing I am on right now is seroquel and lexapro because I am stressed so much about the damage.

 

[psy997]

The only thing I am on right now is seroquel and lexapro because I am stressed so much about the damage.

Those are definitely strong enough to mess with your brain chemistry as much as drugs.


My advice is to try not to worry - difficult, I know - and to take care of yourself as best as you can. Wake up with the sun, don't use screens after dark, get enough sleep, eat well, exercise frequently, read books, and use your brain in as many ways as you can.

 

[Benzammi]

Those are definitely strong enough to mess with your brain chemistry as much as drugs.


My advice is to try not to worry - difficult, I know - and to take care of yourself as best as you can. Wake up with the sun, don't use screens after dark, get enough sleep, eat well, exercise frequently, read books, and use your brain in as many ways as you can.

I try to relax as much as possible but indeed it is difficult to do. I just feel dumb and I lost so much of what I once knew.

The symptoms I have make life impossible. I constantly feel like I am going through withdrawal (flu like symptoms).

 

[unodelacosa]

I actually stopped using drugs for the last 2,5 months.

You sure of that?

The only thing I am on right now is seroquel and lexapro

Yep, those also count as drugs. Seroquel is super fucking heavy and triggers the exact same response of a vague zombie-ish nature in virtually everyone I've seen take it, self included. I never had a ℞ for it, but at one point I had a small cache of them. Too goddamn heavy, but will yank someone out of a bad, panicky trip quickly.

And you're on these medications because you're stressing out too much about worry that you fucked up your brain or something equally not possible (at least… brain damage from drug overdose doesn't work the way you think it does as evinced by your posts and purported actions). Take a deep breath and stop telling your doctor you fucked yourself up by taking too many psychedelics. They probably don't know what else to do and are having the knee-jerk reaction of prescribing you a heavy antipsychotic drug along with a powerful-but-not-too selective SSRI, Lexapro. The danger here is that you shouldn't suddenly discontinue these medications. To quit them safely, you need to taper off the Lexapro by gradually taking less over the course of a few weeks, or whatever the prescribing doctor recommends. Talk to your doctor about tapering off these medications as soon as safely possible if you'd like to stop feeling brain dead every day. Trust me on this. Not medical advice, btw, what I'm saying here. Just using logic and experience to proffer some perspective, but I am adamant that you get your Dr.'s approval first, ok? Good luck; you got this, bro

 

[neversickanymore]

Just curious any other physical symptoms?

 

[4meSM]

Any of your friends from that night took the same drugs as you? And if so, did they report some odd side effects as well?

I think it's unlikely that you did any long-lasting damage.
Sounds like you went through some type of panic attack which caused you to obsess too much about what you did. A friend of mine went through something very similar after a heavy LSD trip.
Not that it makes it less serious, anxiety&panic are very strong emotions, they have a very powerful effect on our well-being and unfortunately the constant stressing usually makes things worse (this is partly what happens with PTSD).

Most of the side effects you described could be caused by your current medication. Feeling like a zombie while on antipsychotics is pretty common. May I ask how much seroquel are you taking?
And also, were you already taking lexapro prior to this event?

 

[Benzammi]

Just curious any other physical symptoms?

Aside from the headaches I also have these flu like symptoms like the inside of my skull is on fire.

 

[Benzammi]

Any of your friends from that night took the same drugs as you? And if so, did they report some odd side effects as well?

I think it's unlikely that you did any long-lasting damage.
Sounds like you went through some type of panic attack which caused you to obsess too much about what you did. A friend of mine went through something very similar after a heavy LSD trip.
Not that it makes it less serious, anxiety&panic are very strong emotions, they have a very powerful effect on our well-being and unfortunately the constant stressing usually makes things worse (this is partly what happens with PTSD).

Most of the side effects you described could be caused by your current medication. Feeling like a zombie while on antipsychotics is pretty common. May I ask how much seroquel are you taking?
And also, were you already taking lexapro prior to this event?

I actually started using the lexapro/seroquelxr(200mg)/seroquel(50mg) after the incident on them for 3 weeks now.
And the incident was on 19 december

 

[Nipper76]

Just remember you aren't alone, paws aren't uncommon from any drug, some people are worse than others with all kinds of symptoms. I wouldn't be trading one drug for another, just abstain and detox yourself. Even omega and vits/minerals can set people off. I'm now off coffee and tea, even decaff was setting me off, so it's just water. I took alcohol last week and spent Sunday manic depressed. But I feel loads better this week, hitting the gym and cleaned up my diet, back to basics, your body and mind needs a rest.

 

[Benzammi]

Just remember you aren't alone, paws aren't uncommon from any drug, some people are worse than others with all kinds of symptoms. I wouldn't be trading one drug for another, just abstain and detox yourself. Even omega and vits/minerals can set people off. I'm now off coffee and tea, even decaff was setting me off, so it's just water. I took alcohol last week and spent Sunday manic depressed. But I feel loads better this week, hitting the gym and cleaned up my diet, back to basics, your body and mind needs a rest.

Just weird that I got Paws from one time usage you know.

 

[cdin]

also - we are in a crazy stressed out pandemic time. A lot of those symptoms are just stress symptoms. almost everyone is walking around right now w some degree of PTSD/trauma/over stressedness. Are you doing any self-care/maintenance? eating well and exercising? locked up in house all the time.
I would bet money that experience freaked you out, and now you are responding to the stress of life at this moment in time.

 

[Benzammi]

Any of your friends from that night took the same drugs as you? And if so, did they report some odd side effects as well?

I think it's unlikely that you did any long-lasting damage.
Sounds like you went through some type of panic attack which caused you to obsess too much about what you did. A friend of mine went through something very similar after a heavy LSD trip.
Not that it makes it less serious, anxiety&panic are very strong emotions, they have a very powerful effect on our well-being and unfortunately the constant stressing usually makes things worse (this is partly what happens with PTSD).

Most of the side effects you described could be caused by your current medication. Feeling like a zombie while on antipsychotics is pretty common. May I ask how much seroquel are you taking?
And also, were you already taking lexapro prior to this event?

Also my friends show 0 symptoms for some reason and they took the same/even more.

 

[4meSM]

Also my friends show 0 symptoms for some reason and they took the same/even more.

So you're on 250mg of seroquel/day?
That's definitely enough to make you feel slow and "brain dead".

Maybe you have some underlying mental illness or are prone to depression (maybe it runs in your family?) but otherwise I don't think you did any damage. Specially since your friends are completely fine.

In my opinion (with the limited information I have) it's all psychosomatic and the drugs they put you on are actually making it much worse (specially the seroquel). I agree with the other BLers who have mentioned this.

Don't take this as an official diagnosis but definitely go talk to your doctor or maybe look for another one for a second opinion.