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does weed kill your feelings? For heavy users

My friend what you said is acurate and you said it very well. But I want to include this into the conversation; a possibility that deep in one there is a represive nature, inhibited...so weed shows this to you. High on a bus and one gets paranoid? Let it GO! very simple and its an amazing lesson the psychedelic world imparts. Disinhibit, be your frew true self. Yeah, I smoke weed, if you have a problem you can suck my cock--this is the cure to these petty problems which are very UNCOMFY...I would know. Was quite represssed through most of my smoking years...now I can be on 3gs of shrooms smoking joints in the pool and playing guitar...its a wider perspective. Yeah I can play guitar in the pool, u know..
ive had to work with that cause I had that shame and also there is a stigma about drugs which honestly is bulshit cause im a very happer camper so I should feel no shame of psychedelic nature--aliens in the brain, im riding a cosmic train-- u can see me with your 3 year old i wouldnt feel shame. The path is true friend!
Maybe this is projecting...i would like to know if this resonates.

I agree with you on several points, nevertheless I would like to add other perspectives to this discussion

I have been cultivating the types of thoughts that you have addressed, I mean I am not giving a fuck whether people know that I smoke weed. This is not the trigger of the paranoia, even my parents and most of my family smoke so that I grew up thinking this was normal (I do not know whether this was good or not, though). Anyway, even though I firmly have this way of thinking inlaid in my mind, this is not enough to get rid of my paranoia. I do believe that this occurs due to the fact that the brain is unable to locate itself as being “in a normal situation”, when under the effect of weed (as I mentioned in my last comment), especially in high doses.

Consequently, although I do not care what people are imagining about me, my brain thinks that “it is in danger” and it needs to react to protect me from something bad that can happen at any time (the intensity of this effect is correlated with the current surrounding environment). Under this point of view, weed acts (more or less) disturbing the ability of the brain in distinguishing which situation is a “danger situation”.

Most of the times, I can control myself, being able to act normally everywhere and the ordinary people do not even find out that I am high. However, it is important to note that even when I am “controlled” there is a residual of discomfort that insists on continuing to work in my mind. This residual is a pure function of the chemical disequilibrium in the brain and by no means a function of my insecurities (this is a major point for this discussion).

Of course, this is what drugs do (chemical imbalance in the brain), all of them, each in its own way, and weed is not different from the others. We cannot work properly with ourselves being high all the time, that is, we are constantly altering brain homeostasis. The brain will react to these changes in order to restore homeostasis, it is programmed to do so; perhaps this “way back” is the cause of the psychological adverse effects of drugs in general.

Finally, “it is weed, not heroin”, and I love weed, man, true love. I love it so much that I have been spending the last fifteen years with it, a long marriage, with ups and downs, and we are still together, as a couple, making love and struggling. Nevertheless, as in all relationships, a couple cannot spend much time together, they need a break from time to time, a time to be alone with themselves; otherwise, things will begin to fall apart.
 
You got it man, you get it =) 15 years of bud smoking and it shows. You really have a comprehensive understanding of what we are dealing with, the main things being addictive behavior, brain deterioration because of addictive behaviour (less energy, spontanaeity, etc.) and the bad states of mind-body homeostasis (lack of.)

"I am certainly blaming weed for some of my problems, whether it is its fault or not, I do not know; it helps to accentuate them, undoubtedly"

Indeed it accentuates them and I can only encourage your desire to quit weed as it truly is an addiction (money wise, habit wise, it is an endless cycle. Life should be fresh, new, not always the same.) Yet weed is the least of your concerns truly! Benzos are a destructive path, will not help you--you will just get into another rut that will need more fixing later. And the damage done will be tenfold that of weed in less than quarter the time of use.

I can only say one thing which is something that maybe you dont know and maybe is just me, but I fell in love with weed from day 1, and so if we have that much in common maybe this will serve; the first time I had smokeable ayahuasca (changa--DMT) I realized why I had since a child always been interested in drugs...what weed is is one step up the 100 step ladder which is hyperspace consciousness. So weed really didnt cut it.

So when I first tripped on DMT, among several other enligthened things said, was "Aha! Thats why I smoke weed! Thats why I had problems with alcohol! I intiutivley knew this realm existed and was chasing it...but was using the wrong tools! (benzos, alcohol, tobacco...and to an extent weed, but weed is still a good tool, if only I could manage to not want to do it several times a day and not go crazy when I dont have any...)

So if your at the end of your rope, perhaps this is good advise, because the excitment of discovering dmt/ayahuasca and then the excitment of having the experience, then the experiences and the learning, can or may help you spiritually and medicinally and on a practical level will keep you busy (even if its just reading dmt trip reports, or preparing an extraction...there is a lot of pre-work that should and generally does get done)

For me, I wish to quit weed too :/ But the real source of unhappiness in my life is tobacco...I thought that once I'd become a hacker (ya know, always coughing) I would stop...but I am hackiny and still smoking :/ I really am gonna give an honest shot at quitting smoking today...I cant even afford another pack honestly...same for weed. Dont have anymore. Hopefully I dont lose my mind today. Oomm.
 
I’ve been smoking weed since ~1974, give or take. Not heavily; but as the years went by and money became more and so did my weed use.

My prescription is 5g/day but I smoke maybe 1.8g/ day tops. I rarely smoke more and frequently smoke less. I also have a couple of wax pens and numerous vapour pens.

I feel agitated w/o weed and agitated with weed. IMO, no difference for me. But I never started heavily until ~24 yrs old.

And just to be clear, the co existence of heavy weed use and chronic lethargy/dysthymia is not proof that the brain’s reward system is being interfered with.

Tom
 
I definitely think so. Numbs them, and dulls them at least. Makes things easy to forget and overlook- which is part of why it makes smoking to forget your trouble nice, but also kind of prevents you from ever reaching a point of frustration where you take action to change, before you explode.

I know every time I quit, the first two days are dull and sleepy yet restless, and then when the dreams come back, it's like and explosion of feelings. I'll find myself crying about things that have passed, that I had thought I had dealt with- but suddenly seem to develop a new epiphany of it. But that is also probably due to the return of "full" emotion, because I'll also find myself raging mad about things I thought I had dealt with as well. After a about a week, things really settle out, and I feel more in touch with my feelings tbh. Like how I hate how much time I spend actually just getting stoned, and then all the things I didn't do because I was stoned. After about 2 week, things seem to settle out and I can eat and sleep relatively normal, athough both are not as easy. After a month, pretty much back to nromal
 
You got it man, you get it =) 15 years of bud smoking and it shows. You really have a comprehensive understanding of what we are dealing with, the main things being addictive behavior, brain deterioration because of addictive behaviour (less energy, spontanaeity, etc.) and the bad states of mind-body homeostasis (lack of.)

"I am certainly blaming weed for some of my problems, whether it is its fault or not, I do not know; it helps to accentuate them, undoubtedly"

Indeed it accentuates them and I can only encourage your desire to quit weed as it truly is an addiction (money wise, habit wise, it is an endless cycle. Life should be fresh, new, not always the same.) Yet weed is the least of your concerns truly! Benzos are a destructive path, will not help you--you will just get into another rut that will need more fixing later. And the damage done will be tenfold that of weed in less than quarter the time of use.

I can only say one thing which is something that maybe you dont know and maybe is just me, but I fell in love with weed from day 1, and so if we have that much in common maybe this will serve; the first time I had smokeable ayahuasca (changa--DMT) I realized why I had since a child always been interested in drugs...what weed is is one step up the 100 step ladder which is hyperspace consciousness. So weed really didnt cut it.

So when I first tripped on DMT, among several other enligthened things said, was "Aha! Thats why I smoke weed! Thats why I had problems with alcohol! I intiutivley knew this realm existed and was chasing it...but was using the wrong tools! (benzos, alcohol, tobacco...and to an extent weed, but weed is still a good tool, if only I could manage to not want to do it several times a day and not go crazy when I dont have any...)

So if your at the end of your rope, perhaps this is good advise, because the excitment of discovering dmt/ayahuasca and then the excitment of having the experience, then the experiences and the learning, can or may help you spiritually and medicinally and on a practical level will keep you busy (even if its just reading dmt trip reports, or preparing an extraction...there is a lot of pre-work that should and generally does get done)

For me, I wish to quit weed too :/ But the real source of unhappiness in my life is tobacco...I thought that once I'd become a hacker (ya know, always coughing) I would stop...but I am hackiny and still smoking :/ I really am gonna give an honest shot at quitting smoking today...I cant even afford another pack honestly...same for weed. Dont have anymore. Hopefully I dont lose my mind today. Oomm.

Man, I do not know whether I should agree with you on the use of psychedelic drugs.

I have taken these types of drugs many times. I used to have mushrooms growing in my room. I also often attended ayahuasca rituals. To me, these substances were not considered drugs (nowadays, yes). I was totally involved in the entheogens theory, shamanism, new spiritual and mental paths through the use of substances, and so on. I firmly believe that they have these applications but I also firmly believe that they need to be used very carefully, with the correct people, in the adequate places, and in the appropriate doses.

Even considering the aforementioned “precautions”, one never knows which trip will be the journey that will change life forever and not for one’s benefit. This is (of course) related to the current circumstances of life and therefore is related to what is going on in one’s mind (I mean in the foundations (basis) of the mind) at the time the drug is being taken (I'm pointing the obvious here).

Personally, I am sure that my anxiety was accentuated by heavy psychedelic use. I have seen other similar stories as well. Man, think with me, it is too much for the brain, the chemical variations are very large when on psychedelics. That fact that it “opens the mind” (which is in part true) takes its toll, namely in terms of the inflammation processes that are generated in the brain and in terms of the “scars” that remain in the subconscious. What is the holding limit to keep an open mind without side effects? This line is much thinner than one usually imagines. If one crosses this line for whatever reason, man, one second is sufficient and one is lost, forever. Once the line is crossed, one will never be able to properly live in society again: once panic is instated, there is no way back, it will remain there forever
 
Man, I do not know whether I should agree with you on the use of psychedelic drugs.

I have taken these types of drugs many times. I used to have mushrooms growing in my room. I also often attended ayahuasca rituals. To me, these substances were not considered drugs (nowadays, yes). I was totally involved in the entheogens theory, shamanism, new spiritual and mental paths through the use of substances, and so on. I firmly believe that they have these applications but I also firmly believe that they need to be used very carefully, with the correct people, in the adequate places, and in the appropriate doses.

Even considering the aforementioned “precautions”, one never knows which trip will be the journey that will change life forever and not for one’s benefit. This is (of course) related to the current circumstances of life and therefore is related to what is going on in one’s mind (I mean in the foundations (basis) of the mind) at the time the drug is being taken (I'm pointing the obvious here).

Personally, I am sure that my anxiety was accentuated by heavy psychedelic use. I have seen other similar stories as well. Man, think with me, it is too much for the brain, the chemical variations are very large when on psychedelics. That fact that it “opens the mind” (which is in part true) takes its toll, namely in terms of the inflammation processes that are generated in the brain and in terms of the “scars” that remain in the subconscious. What is the holding limit to keep an open mind without side effects? This line is much thinner than one usually imagines. If one crosses this line for whatever reason, man, one second is sufficient and one is lost, forever. Once the line is crossed, one will never be able to properly live in society again: once panic is instated, there is no way back, it will remain there forever

They are not for everyone. Actually, they are not for most people because most people are not stable. And I am more than glad that you bring up the dark side of psychedelics...cause the despair is so inmense...no doctor can help you once you go over there. You are lost. So many ways of experiencing terror. And so yes, that is a possibility. On the other side of the spectrum you smoke dmt alone in your bed and an hour later you might as well be 20years older knowledgewise and emotion wise. And yeah, in that case also no psychologist can help you, no person will understand your alien love, most dont know what it means to have so much love inside.
They are about transformation. Stimulants are about remaining the same: becoming hardened by habits. But dmt will change you. Not always, not in the same way everytime. But thats the point of it. To realize that Aladins Lamp is real. That magic actually exist as a fact.
 
I agree, it is too much for the brain=) its just too much. And mental scars can ocurr. So yeah...basically I shouldnt go around recommending these now that I thinl of it xD But there needs to be a solid base out of which to start doing psychedelics. This will soften the damage if damage ocurrs. But are we talking of the same thing? Because I love shrooms and all, but what I am talking about is the full on 5min to 15min DMT breakthrough. When that is what we are talking about, I think it is worth the possibility of a terrible horrible trip--if you can afford it. I dont think any of us can afford to be shaken up like that, but some have to be able to handle it better than others.
 
Some make drugs sound....bad. They, of themselves are neither good nor bad; they just are. It is the misuse pf drugs (or anything) thatisgood, bad or in between. What is too much for one brain might be nothing more thana flicker of a disturbance to another (brain). Some may be genetically or environmentally predisposed to the aquisition of mental instability after the consumption pfpsychedelics, *not all*.

I spend an awful lot of time just gazing off in to the distance; but I've done that my whole life. The LSD may have caused some issues, but 200+ mushroom trips. Nah, nature's anti depressant and giggle factory (for me).

Tom
 
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Some make drugs sound....bad. They, of themselves are neither good nor bad; they just are. It is the misuse pf drugs (or anything) thatisgood, bad or in between. What is too much for one brain might be nothing more thana flicker of a disturbance to another (brain). Some may be genetically or environmentally predisposed to the aquisition of mental instability after the consumption pfpsychedelics, *not all*.

I spend an awful lot of time just gazing off in to the distance; but I've done that my whole life. The LSD may have caused some issues, but 200+ mushroom trips. Nah, nature's anti depressant and giggle factory (for me).

Tom
Hi Tom...thank you for saying this. Just came back from ayahuasca+shrooms and these things are not even drugs. Complex code pyramids with eyes? Mimes and jesters that smile at you a freeze in time, freezing the smile: cosmic love. Something is going on the other side. i have so much problems...like im afraid of my moms cancer...but experiences like this make you see what death is what life is. Its more than fun and stimulation--even tho there is some of that. But these things cant be possible. they are impossible. Only that it happens...happens in the brain...giggle factory for sure, but nothing compares to being let into he joke. Getting why the giggle. I mean you never get why completley, but it has something to do with love, aliens, and miames and jesters (and these are the things I see for real 100% not bs)
 
I’ve been smoking weed since ~1974, give or take. Not heavily; but as the years went by and money became more and so did my weed use.

My prescription is 5g/day but I smoke maybe 1.8g/ day tops. I rarely smoke more and frequently smoke less. I also have a couple of wax pens and numerous vapour pens.

I feel agitated w/o weed and agitated with weed. IMO, no difference for me. But I never started heavily until ~24 yrs old.

And just to be clear, the co existence of heavy weed use and chronic lethargy/dysthymia is not proof that the brain’s reward system is being interfered with.

Tom

Man, we are all heavy stoners, as I have noticed, so I believe that we have all been experiencing and seeing more or less the same patterns surrounding weed smokers.

Let me exemplify what I mean here and we are going to conclude that we have similar behaviors independently of where we live in the world. The reason for that is exactly the influence that weed has on the brain’s reward system.

  • We do not like going to places where it is impossible to smoke weed so that most of the places we hang out are “legalized places”.
  • Our friends are also smokers, practically all of them.
  • If our smoking time is at night, we look forward to this time all day, a beautiful thought to cultivate, an expectation that can keep us happy.
  • Wake-and-bake? Why not? That’s marvelous! Weed is stupefacient and tasteful.
  • Travelling around the world? Internationally or nationally? It does not matter! Let me figure out how I can get some weed out there.
As I have said above, these circumstances are very common in our green lives. They are a part of the game, they make our routine; we are somehow conditioned to them, our lives are strongly attached to weed (pointing out the obvious here, since I have started this comment using the valid preposition that we are all heavy stoners).

Summing up, why do we act like this? Why do we exhibit these kinds of behaviors? They are not mandatory behaviors for weed smokers, but they are certainly ubiquitous. The answer is that drugs control the brain (pointing out the obvious again). Weed controls our brains and that is why we all behave in a similar fashion. This similarity is not a coincidence.

In any case, we can be controlled by means of different biochemical pathways. I have no idea about which pathway is the pathway followed by our beloved cannabinoids. Nevertheless, the name “endocannabinoid system” is suggestive. I really do not know whether it is the system responsible for the aforementioned control. Weed can also act on dopamine and serotonin pathways (?), if not in a direct manner, indirectly, because the brain function is a sum of the contributions of each individual part of the complete composition.
 
Think im gonna bang a lopermide to counter the sorbital from this dxm and smoke a nice half gram doobie
 
Man, we are all heavy stoners, as I have noticed, so I believe that we have all been experiencing and seeing more or less the same patterns surrounding weed smokers.

Let me exemplify what I mean here and we are going to conclude that we have similar behaviors independently of where we live in the world. The reason for that is exactly the influence that weed has on the brain’s reward system.

  • We do not like going to places where it is impossible to smoke weed so that most of the places we hang out are “legalized places”.
  • Our friends are also smokers, practically all of them.
  • If our smoking time is at night, we look forward to this time all day, a beautiful thought to cultivate, an expectation that can keep us happy.
  • Wake-and-bake? Why not? That’s marvelous! Weed is stupefacient and tasteful.
  • Travelling around the world? Internationally or nationally? It does not matter! Let me figure out how I can get some weed out there.
As I have said above, these circumstances are very common in our green lives. They are a part of the game, they make our routine; we are somehow conditioned to them, our lives are strongly attached to weed (pointing out the obvious here, since I have started this comment using the valid preposition that we are all heavy stoners).

Summing up, why do we act like this? Why do we exhibit these kinds of behaviors? They are not mandatory behaviors for weed smokers, but they are certainly ubiquitous. The answer is that drugs control the brain (pointing out the obvious again). Weed controls our brains and that is why we all behave in a similar fashion. This similarity is not a coincidence.

In any case, we can be controlled by means of different biochemical pathways. I have no idea about which pathway is the pathway followed by our beloved cannabinoids. Nevertheless, the name “endocannabinoid system” is suggestive. I really do not know whether it is the system responsible for the aforementioned control. Weed can also act on dopamine and serotonin pathways (?), if not in a direct manner, indirectly, because the brain function is a sum of the contributions of each individual part of the complete composition.

I agree man, and that list was spot. I identify with all those cases. But to me the issue is more profound and will translate into other areas of life unless understood.

Why is it hard to stop doing something which gives us a great deal of pleassure?

Look, you wake up and you said you werent gonna smoke today but you smoke anyway. What happened there?

The craving appeared and you couldnt stand it, because to stay with the craving is to feel emptyness.

Understand, craving is a remembrence, it is based entireley on memory, which is the known. There is only craving, there is no one who craves.

Since craving is based on remembrence it sustains the self, the ego. Because the self is built on memory.

So you see what is happening? If the craving is not satisfied, the self dies, because I am built on memory, on the past. We live in the past. So if I change everything I am dies--because I think I am the conditioning, the repetition, because my brain is limited; it operated only in the known, on the past.

But to change fundamentally is to understand pleassure and the conflict that will always arise, as pleassure is a botomless pit.

When the self dies, change ocurrs, and then we start living in the unkown, where everything is new and fresh again, and the brain becomes livley, not dull as when it repeats the same thing everyday re enforcing the self.

But to do this you have to find yourself and see that the emptyness you feel when you change is not seperate from you; you are the emptyness. So you have to live with it; from that understanding comes change and with that step into the unknown comes a great deal of energy.
 
I agree man, and that list was spot. I identify with all those cases. But to me the issue is more profound and will translate into other areas of life unless understood.

Why is it hard to stop doing something which gives us a great deal of pleassure?

Look, you wake up and you said you werent gonna smoke today but you smoke anyway. What happened there?

The craving appeared and you couldnt stand it, because to stay with the craving is to feel emptyness.

Understand, craving is a remembrence, it is based entireley on memory, which is the known. There is only craving, there is no one who craves.

Since craving is based on remembrence it sustains the self, the ego. Because the self is built on memory.

So you see what is happening? If the craving is not satisfied, the self dies, because I am built on memory, on the past. We live in the past. So if I change everything I am dies--because I think I am the conditioning, the repetition, because my brain is limited; it operated only in the known, on the past.

But to change fundamentally is to understand pleassure and the conflict that will always arise, as pleassure is a botomless pit.

When the self dies, change ocurrs, and then we start living in the unkown, where everything is new and fresh again, and the brain becomes livley, not dull as when it repeats the same thing everyday re enforcing the self.

But to do this you have to find yourself and see that the emptyness you feel when you change is not seperate from you; you are the emptyness. So you have to live with it; from that understanding comes change and with that step into the unknown comes a great deal of energy.

Yeah man, your words added relevant points to this discussion. I would like to address some aspects and I will gradually do so in the course of time (on account of my verbosity that causes long digressions)

For now, I will focus on one specific point.

Why is it hard to stop doing something which gives us a great deal of pleasure?

Well, it seems like one’s brain is addicted to all sort of pleasures. It is the essence behind the brain’s reward system. Assuming the case of primitive human beings living in the jungle, the reward system is a biological mechanism to keep the specie surviving throughout evolution. One needs to be rewarded when one consumes food, water, has sex, develops social interactions, and so on.

Human beings are no longer in the jungle, so they are now on the internet, using smartphones, computers, even at the tender age, totally disconnected from the ancestral roots, as animals that we are, especially bearing in mind our physiology.

One currently lives under a savage capitalist system that does not give a damn about one’s health. One does not like one’s jobs, but one spends one’s life there. So I think that one’s brain’s reward system is already messed up, even in the absence of drugs.

What types of activities stimulate the reward system in the current cultural trends? To wear fashionable clothes? To show off on Instagram? To be better than the neighbor, better than the rival countries? To drive an expensive car? Who is the richest? Who has been fucking the most beautiful girls? I am not going to stay here supporting judgments about what is good or not for society, I just want to point out how far away from one’s natural (supposed) environment one is nowadays. One’s brain is not prepared for the “modern environment”, evolutionarily speaking.

I want to clarify my point through a drug-based example: prior to the compulsory use of drugs, there was a natural and “innate” production of biochemical substances which, when taken as a whole set, make ones happy. Moreover, the total concentration of this set of compounds is equal to X.

When one smokes a very potent weed, as a pictorial example, I am going to consider that the new weed-induced value is equal to 20X. Similarly, the values for other drugs are: 80X (cocaine), 100X (strong opiate), and 150X (mushrooms, DMT, mescaline, and similar hallucinogens).

It is known that despite the value for opiates be lower than the value for hallucinogens (100X and 150X, respectively, they are the most addictive substances. Based on this, it is possible to conclude that the value of X is a receptor-dependent value and it cannot be generalized, because it is also necessary to consider which types of brain receptors are predominantly being excited. How about cocaine? Cocaine effects are centered on dopamine receptors and it is well-known that it is a very addictive substance.

How about weed and hallucinogens? Which receptors are primarily being excited? I will focus on hallucinogens, because in the case of weed there is the endocannabinoid system that I do not want to focus now. Which is the system primordially responsible for the intense psychedelic effects of hallucinogens? Intense to the point of being able to change a person’s way of thinking. In addition, hallucinogens do not cause cravings or unhealthy physical effects (at least in normal doses). Of course, they are natural (as weed is), not undergoing chemical manipulations like cocaine, meth, and it is needed to take into account this aspect as well.

Returning to the main point of the discussion, why is it hard to stop doing something which gives us a great deal of pleasure? If one is in the “addictive receptors” field, what happens is that if one’s previous production of substances that give pleasure was equal to X, as severe drug use is instated, it will be equal to X/10, X/50, and so on. I mean the actual brain production. Why should the brain produce X if external sources are providing it with 80X or 100X? It is a waste of energy and molecular precursors utilized in the biosynthesis, vainly.

However, when the “addictive receptors” are not present, for example, in hallucinogens, what are the mechanism underlying such intense effects without generating dependence. If there are no addictions involved, apparently dopaminergic and opiate receptors also do not take place (to a large extent) in this party.

And if perhaps the sought answers are not located in the brain, conversely, being placed in the soul, and the theory of entheogens is not only true but also the highway to heaven. Who knows?
 
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When I used to smoke weed daily, I was emotionally numbed out. Eventually when I quit weed, I experienced what I called "the great thawing". It took about 6 weeks and some withdrawal symptoms (night sweats, crazy dreams, poor focus) before I felt really emotionally clear again. It was at that point that I realized I had been using weed to emotionally cope with a lot of stuff in life, through daily use. I smoked about half a joint per day, or less.

I don't believe weed is truly addictive, but most people I meet who are daily users are not all there. I would even go so far to say that one of the reasons why the west coast is such an aloof place is because of the number of pot smokers here.
 
When I used to smoke weed daily, I was emotionally numbed out. Eventually when I quit weed, I experienced what I called "the great thawing". It took about 6 weeks and some withdrawal symptoms (night sweats, crazy dreams, poor focus) before I felt really emotionally clear again. It was at that point that I realized I had been using weed to emotionally cope with a lot of stuff in life, through daily use. I smoked about half a joint per day, or less.

I don't believe weed is truly addictive, but most people I meet who are daily users are not all there. I would even go so far to say that one of the reasons why the west coast is such an aloof place is because of the number of pot smokers here.

When I quit smoking weed for two years I also became more emotional, and more interested in movies and writing. I would get high watching a good movie (I mean, like feel very good and hightened.) And I actually wrote 200,000 words in fiction during that time. And so when I was living that I remember one day clearly being in my room and saying out loud "I am glad I don't smoke weed. I am so glad I am done with that." It was such a good thing to be able to say, and feel completley, with no doubt, no desire for it. Like this was THE GOOD decisions to have made.
 
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