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[Debate] What is ego-death?

Very much agreed, but with this added:
I don't think many people are born a scientologist, having come up with those ideas on their own... while I had an ego-death experience the second psychedelic experience I ever had and I had not read anything about any altered states of consciousness. I am also certain I did not attribute most of the ideas and descriptions related to the concept of ego-death later on, what it felt like at the time just matches it without having to modify the memory.

I think this is a great point. I had 90% of all drug related experiences before ever reading a single substance forum and this is good for psychs/disso especially as reading other's experiences has a tendency to flavor that of your own. Although even without a knowledge base beforehand many people eventually come to draw quite a few similarities from their use.
 
Very much agreed, but with this added:
I don't think many people are born a scientologist, having come up with those ideas on their own... while I had an ego-death experience the second psychedelic experience I ever had and I had not read anything about any altered states of consciousness. I am also certain I did not attribute most of the ideas and descriptions related to the concept of ego-death later on, what it felt like at the time just matches it without having to modify the memory.

I think Ismene has some good points, and Max may for my taste be a bit overconfident about this matter which is something very extraordinary and complex, something where doubt, nuance and an emphatic acknowledgement of subjectivity feel very important...
it is just that I disagree that use of the concept / idea of ego-death is something highly dogmatic for the above reason. Yes it is a concept humans came up with, but most things are. It still is derived from direct experience, how it feels, what it does to you... and that people seem to have experienced similar things and agree about various sentiments on the subject.
So I don't really appreciate the analogies that seem like an - as I now tried to prove invalid - attempt at reductio ad absurdum.

Same here, my very first trip, on mushrooms, I went into seeking *something*, but before that experience I was decidedly non-spiritual. I had moved away from the church and decided that we certainly cease to exist after death. The experience I had was a dissolution, I was still aware of my physical life but I woke up, the experience was exactly like waking up from a dream except into a different place entirely, or a different way of being, as oneness with everything. It was a complete and total surprise, I had no amount of preconception about it at all. Since then of course I have had that first experience as a preconception, but the first experience was pure.
 
Okay sure. It's about being open to experiences I think.

I think it's a personal thing tho - obviously I'm pretty open to psychedelic experiences as I've tripped hundreds of times at all intensities on pretty much every psychedelic. I've never felt I was dying. In any shape or form. Always perfectly aware I was tripping on a drug. Even on doses that would stun a charging rhino. So when someone tells me "Oh, you havn't experienced it yet you don't know it" it's like a born again Christian telling me I havn't experienced Jesus yet. All I can answer that with is that I'm not going to experience Jesus and I'm not going to experience an ego death on psychedelics.

Just because there are born again christians in the world doesn't mean we are all potential born again christians.
 
Just because there are born again christians in the world doesn't mean we are all potential born again christians.


Again here ^ you are making the experience/belief category error. Experiences are in a separate ontological category from beliefs.

Being a born again christian is a matter of what you believe
Being an ego death initiate is a matter of what you experience

Born again christians do not literally experience Jesus (you would need a time machine to do that), rather, born again christians believe in the death and ressurection of Jesus.
 
You are making a category error here ^ which you have frequently made throughout this thread, confusing 'beliefs' with 'experiences'.

Beliefs and experiences are two entirely different kinds of thing. Muslims have religious beliefs, trippers have religious experiences.

Do you think you might be putting your own beliefs/experiences on a pedestal here max freakout? It's weird that you seem to think muslims don't have religious experiences.
 
This is completely false, certainly not "obvious"

No, it's clearly false as no-one has ever died from taking LSD and the LD-50 is so safe that you are more likely to die from choking to death on a satsuma. (9 people a year die from choking on satsumas).

You don't know what death is like until you experience it tangibly for yourself, after you have experienced it, then you know what it is like.

But death is a single event max. You only die once. What you experience on psychedelics may feel a bit funny but it is not death.

He has indicated that he only likes to externalise his trip experiences by going out in nature or socialising or whatever, and that on the few times when he has tried to internalise his trips he found it "boring".

Well I found it boring after I'd done it a thousand times max. I've been tripping for decades. I've tried every way there is of tripping countless times and nowadays I prefer being in nature or listening to music rather than closing my eyes.

And by the way, I never experienced anything remotely like an "ego-death" when I was tripping in the dark with my eyes closed. I was always perfectly aware who I was and that I was tripping.
 
I'm pretty open to psychedelic experiences as I've tripped hundreds of times at all intensities on pretty much every psychedelic.

You have never really explored the inside of yourself during a trip though (except on a small number of earlier occasions when you got "bored"), you always externalise your trips by focusing your attention on the external environment, that prevents/distracts you from the internal dimension, which is where the ego death experience is located.

Dosage is only one factor that determines the outcome of a trip, equally important are set and setting. The set and setting that you employ when you trip is not very conducive to the really deep explosive phenomena like ego death and psychotic dis-integration.

To get the really deep experiences, turn your attention inwards, not outwards.
 
Yea it certainly does suggest something of a predisposition, or you could say 'it is a personal thing' which is rather vague. But you are presuming far too much in the kind of predisposition it may be... and are still hung up on it being associated with beliefs. And that makes the comparisons and claims you draw from that misguided, from my point of view. Read my previous post if you haven't.

Also, maybe it is just me, but it seems like you feel like you have to resent it a little since you haven't experienced it in all those years. Perhaps it clouds your judgement.
 
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No, it's clearly false as no-one has ever died from taking LSD and the LD-50 is so safe that you are more likely to die from choking to death on a satsuma. (9 people a year die from choking on satsumas).

You are mistaking ego death for actual death - these are two different things.

Nobody has ever literally, physically died on LSD (except by suicide), but people commonly experience ego death on LSD.



But death is a single event max. You only die once.

Again you are mistaking literal physical (bodily) death with ego death, you can only physically die once, but you can experience psychedelic ego death multiple times.

What you experience on psychedelics may feel a bit funny but it is not death.

Ego death is a very different experience from "feeling a bit funny", there's nothing particularly "funny" about experiencing ego death in a trip.

Ego death is not the same thing as physical bodily death.
 
Do you think you might be putting your own beliefs/experiences on a pedestal here max freakout?

im speaking from the point of view of my own beliefs, experiences and learnings, just like every other poster.


It's weird that you seem to think muslims don't have religious experiences.

If a muslim person takes psychedelics, they would be very likely to have a religious experience. Without them taking psychedelics, it would be very unlikely that they would.
 
*disrespectful post removed*

*You can disagree with someone, but less personal attack and more substantial argument if you wanna participate in the discussion.*
 
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Very much agreed, but with this added:
I don't think many people are born a scientologist, having come up with those ideas on their own... while I had an ego-death experience the second psychedelic experience I ever had and I had not read anything about any altered states of consciousness. I am also certain I did not attribute most of the ideas and descriptions related to the concept of ego-death later on, what it felt like at the time just matches it without having to modify the memory.

But you can read countless accounts of people who've never been christians who suddenly have an experience of God. Then read back and find things that reinforce what they experienced. That tends to happen with most things in life doesn't it. Especially with language as vague as the ego-death. Even the people who claim to have had one can't agree on what it was - so where does that leave any sensible discussion on the subject?

It still is derived from direct experience, how it feels, what it does to you...

Mmm..sort of..but it's like people who claim to have seen Elvis after he died. They are convinced it was a direct experience of seeing Elvis. People have different levels of what constitutes a "direct experience" don't they. I've had the feeling I was talking to a "higher being" when I was tripping but I don't think I actually was - I'm sure many people would.

Though as is said before, it is weird to do that if you never had the experience yourself

What about if I experienced the exact same feelings that made you believe it was an ego death but I didn't believe it was an ego-death? That's pretty likely isn't it? Seeing as we're both taking the same drug?

Like max said - when he thinks he's dying and is laying there panic-stricken and disintegreating into psychotic madness I'd experience exactly the same feeling and just think "Hmm, I'll just lay down for 20 minutes and calm down".
 
But you can read countless accounts of people who've never been christians who suddenly have an experience of God. Then read back and find things that reinforce what they experienced. That tends to happen with most things in life doesn't it. Especially with language as vague as the ego-death. Even the people who claim to have had one can't agree on what it was - so where does that leave any sensible discussion on the subject?

I don't think it is that bad. That it is a complex matter (and how many of those are there in say the field of philosophy? Does that render all sensible discussion on philosophy impossible?) cannot and does not prove that there no base or core to it... you put yourself on the sidelines but as someone who has experienced it and has read plenty of accounts, definitions and descriptions of others I am quite comfortable with the common denominator I find reading those and discussing it.
You have the disadvantage of either not having experienced ego-death and/or you seem to want to resist to try and make sense of it. But that should not make it overwhelmingly difficult to accept the premise of the term.
I think that your bias has a cognitive effect on you that causes you to focus on the apparent inconsistencies (and sure enough on parts of it people are in disagreement, but not all by a long shot) and be rather insensitive on the consistencies. I actually feel confident in saying that because there are some very sound arguments made and important clues given, but somehow - excuse me for saying so - you constantly need to be reminded of them, it feels quite clear that you are not invested in making it work. Granted, it is a complex matter so I kind of understand, but it has not gone unnoticed.

It still is derived from direct experience, how it feels, what it does to you...

Mmm..sort of..but it's like people who claim to have seen Elvis after he died. They are convinced it was a direct experience of seeing Elvis. People have different levels of what constitutes a "direct experience" don't they. I've had the feeling I was talking to a "higher being" when I was tripping but I don't think I actually was - I'm sure many people would.

We have the term entity contact for seeing or meeting beings, discussion on whether they are truly and 'objectively' there and if the answer to that should invalidate any and all use of the term entity contact is a separate discussion from discussion of just having experienced beings, which many people do on DMT and other psychedelics.
This point has come up before and again it seems like you have forgotten about the subjectivity that makes little of this about the truth, much less at least than you seem to be focused on. (Yes some people in this thread are drawing conclusions based on their beliefs and experiences but that should not distract you from the main point which is about subjective experience of a phenomenon). If you are talking about never having experienced ego-death and that you probably never will, that does not somehow make it okay for you to equate with random other things you consider as unfit for your world of experiences. You have at that point given up on it and seem to be careless in the way you make claims about it, because your remarks constantly compare and associate experiences like ego-death with things that have little credibility.

Though as is said before, it is weird to do that if you never had the experience yourself

What about if I experienced the exact same feelings that made you believe it was an ego death but I didn't believe it was an ego-death? That's pretty likely isn't it? Seeing as we're both taking the same drug?

Like max said - when he thinks he's dying and is laying there panic-stricken and disintegreating into psychotic madness I'd experience exactly the same feeling and just think "Hmm, I'll just lay down for 20 minutes and calm down".

Putting it like that makes it sound like you would be affected by ego loss, although if you actually have felt the pull of having your sense of coherent self, who and what you perceive yourself to be, being pulled gradually into oblivion... then I don't understand why it is so hard to acknowledge that and just say that maybe you have a different name for it and you understand that there may be a further experience waiting to happen if you didn't resist it every time you have felt it.

There are different factors though that make it not as easy as you make it out to be, your resistance (ability and willingness to resist) could be explained in various ways, at least I could attempt to explain it and would not at all be certain about any of them.
Sometimes it just does not seem as avoidable to go all the way, for example being caught completely off guard once was a trigger for me, and being overwhelmed and being desperate past the point of calming down was another time, that second time I have repeatedly mentioned in this thread.
Seeking it out (e.g. by meditating), or being okay with letting go at that point can of course make a difference... but still utter and complete sustained ego-death, that would be beyond the ego loss you described, can be a relatively rare thing even when you are talking about years of tripping... just like ++++ experiences (which I am not saying is just the same as ego-death, no!) are arguably very rare but that is again a difficult and controversial term.

Maybe you never really needed the term ego-death if you never went all the way like that, and you may dislike the term ego loss... but if you have had experiences that are hard to convey or share without using the word, then it becomes like a necessity. You can of course insist on using another word, but the rest would be the same: you would have a subjective experience and parts of how you would describe it may match in an uncanny way with other people's description.

they are essentially the same thing, indistinguishable

see here: - http://www.hopkinsmedicine.org/Press_releases/2006/GriffithsPsilocybin.pdf

Dude, no. :|

It is a keyword there because surely people with a religious background (and there are of course tons of christians in the US) who participated in the John's Hopkins psilocybin study will have interpreted their experiences using that background, and the psychedelic effects may fill the molds of those religious beliefs. But there are so many other sorts of 'molds' psychedelic effects can fill!! It does not have to be religious, some people have virtually no religious background at all, but they still have ideas, convictions, desires, passions, etc... and those can manifest via psychedelic effects.

Some psychedelic experiences may be religious to a certain individual, but not all of them in every individual, therefore you cannot consider them synonymous.
 
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But you can read countless accounts of people who've never been christians who suddenly have an experience of God.

Christians very rarely claim to "experience God" directly, only the Christian mystics (who are very rare) would make such a claim, or else can you post links to some examples of these "countless accounts"?


Especially with language as vague as the ego-death

There is nothing at all vague or ambiguous about the language used to describe ego death. Its meaning is absolutely clear, basic and straightforward, it just means mentally dying in the altered state, ie reporting to oneself that one has died during a trip.


Even the people who claim to have had one can't agree on what it was

This is untrue, everybody who has had the ego death experience says essentially the same thing about it, ie they report that they thought that they had died during a psychedelic trip.



What about if I experienced the exact same feelings that made you believe it was an ego death but I didn't believe it was an ego-death?

This ^ is a self-contradiction, because the central defining aspect of ego death experience is that a tripper comes to *believe* that they have died during a psychedelic trip session.


Like max said - when he thinks he's dying and is laying there panic-stricken and disintegreating into psychotic madness I'd experience exactly the same feeling and just think "Hmm, I'll just lay down for 20 minutes and calm down".


This ^ is also a self-contradiction (or a misunderstanding of what ego death experience is), because if you genuinely thought you were dead, then "laying down and calming down" is not an option.
 
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I think Max's avatar reflects his super inflated self opinion ie his ego. Max what is it like being a conehead? Last night I IM'd 20 mg 5 meo pcp and 20 mg 4 aco dmt. Is that dose a "ego death" level. I admit I did trip some pretty fucking huge balls! Tits up mate.
 
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