N&PD Moderators: Skorpio | thegreenhand
Maybe I do really have some weird genetics, cause this is what I thought it had to be too, but reality was different. For me, all the dreamy euphoria, warm silky fluff, the hit, everything lies together with the love and insight in the dextro enantiomers. Levo opioids are aversive for me, like temptations of giving in, of suffocating demonically ... somehow I always wanted to experience these ultimate feelings, to know why opioids have such a damned state just to figure out that I already knew these feelings in a way better version that now appears to be forbidden territory to me since I used these.. sorry.. damn.. opioids. If that makes any sense. Also codeine/morphine is only good when done w/o tolerance in tiny amounts or when one already is withdrawing / in pain. Maybe I should open a dedicated thread somewhere, just that my English isn't good enough probably to put this kind of topic into the right words.
Either DPM, or the ester 6-monoacetyldihydromorphine, administered in the same rig with high dose memantine, reliably blows my ass off so damn hard, I'm surprised people aren't asking why my ears have a perineum.
When I was IMing the morphine and plugging or insufflating the oxy IR, and the memantine was being taken orally, I found the opioids still killed pain, as they ought to, somewhat better in fact, the tolerance I HAD at the time, was being severely beaten and slapped around, brutally sodomized if it dropped the soap in the shower with tolerances to any other medication; to the extent that I'd not have dared keep on doing 1g or more shots of morphine, even as several shots at once, divided among several muscle groups, for fear I might OD. And if that opioid tolerance walked into the shower and found the tiny, tiny weedy tolerance if any, from benzos, used at most 2-3 times, in high doses, a week, it'd find a nitrazepam tolerance built like an anorexic, which cried and begged for general anaesthesia to get it's prison tattoes done, could have shoved that opiate tolerance to the ground whilst it looked for that soap, and shoved a clenched, stick-thin, anaemic-looking fist on a match-stick arm out of a chloride ion channel in the center of a nearby GABAa receptor and rammed said fist right up the MOR agonist tolerance's own ass so far it could have it's teeth picked after a meal, by the fist up it's ass. Without having to reach with the toothpick
Is 6-MADHM (and so 6-MAM I guess) really so different from plain old morphine? Always thought that's an urban legend and that most of the heroin myths come from a mixture of alkaloids also containing things like noscapine (with NMDA antagonistic properties, maybe also thebaine etc. with some remotely stimulant-like ones or even abundant synthesis impurities) and that pharm grade 6-MAM like the people in the Switzerland heroin programme get, must be very like morphine with a slightly faster hit .... am I wrong?
LIke Limpet Chicken mentioned, it can be both, like in the case of Mirtazapine.
Saying it's S.A.D. would be understating the severity of the situation, since spring/summer is even worse than fall/winter, just in the opposite direction: then I feel hypernervous, almost impossible to sleep (not sleeping for several days in a row isn't an exception), my digestive system is hyperactive, etc....
hypomania, apathy, lethargy, anhedonia, depression .... you say tomatoe I say tomato ;-) All these terms are pretty subjective and are hardly strict defined scientific definitions.
Ever noticed when you're sick like from an infection you want too sleep all day long ? Because your immune system is activated by the cellwall of bacteria or viruses and mobilizes white blood cells and produces inlammatory subs. in response. Normal sleep could be considered as an accute infection where your immunity releases certain subs. that put you in a state of deep sleep.
Yep. Already wondered about this, what makes it to either lying comfortably doing nothing or to turn in bed dysphorically waiting for sleep to no avail... but it's more difficult that just that. I am looking for kind of an "inner energy source" which can also be full, medium, empty but appears to be partially/mostly independent of what your usual psychostim is able to achieve.
Oh I'd love to get my hands onto some real bromantane, just read that much of the bulk has been fake, mostly just Ladasten which was discontinued (why??) was the good one. I've wrote that off much too early, w/o having it lab tested.
It's definitely stimulating, yet completely different from amphetamine/methylphenidate - it's a clean, calm, focused stimulation and you need to remember I (partially, I think I do know what you're experiencing though) and maybe many people are more fighting against sleepiness or being non motivated etc.. maybe it affects you completely differently. Unfortunately it doesn't really fill up that inner energy source I've mentioned and you're looking for, yet it's much much better at this than other stuff. Just don't know whether it just doesn't drain it as fast or whatever. Its half live is of several days so one has to sleep on it which you have to try it how and if it works for you.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Granted, I could require some friends whereas I'd learn from their mistakes but then again most bullshit comes from people you thought you'd trust...I sometimes take ZMA for sleep and Mg is a NMDA antagonist I believe.