undertow13
Greenlighter
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- Oct 2, 2012
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So I've always had trouble just being in or tripping in large groups (anything more than 3 people really). I tend to just get really awkward socially. When it's just friends it's usually much easier, but in large groups I've always had trouble especially while tripping. My last group trips didn't go so well -- had all kinds of crazy paranoia and it was very unpleasant, to say the least.
One thing that tends to happen a lot is that I think too much about what to say or I'll be trying to figure out when it's "my turn" to talk, time goes on and usually by the time I have some input on the conversation, it's already shifted to another topic. I also find it hard to articulate my thoughts in general, almost like my voice is weak or like I lost my voice (like it feels far away, don't know how else to describe it). I often worry about saying something stupid even if the people around me are tripping too (e.g. at a festival). This happens a lot when I smoked weed too, even in a group of friends I'd find myself zoning off in my own head so I've laid off weed for a while. Plus it always makes it worse when people pressure me into talking or point out how quiet I'm being, or like a while ago my friend said something about "teaching me how to talk when I'm fucked up" but whatever that means, I'm assuming she was trying to help me feel more comfortable about being so quiet but as usual it did the opposite.
Sorry, I'm kind of rambling here -- I'm really just looking for some tips as far as tripping in groups or festivals or just around people in general. It's difficult for me to get past the fear of being socially awkward while tripping. I just hate it when everyone else will be having fun laughing and talking while I'm kind of just zoned off in my own world. Especially since I really do want to engage in conversation, I just feel like I have nothing to say or it just doesn't come out quite right. I generally feel more comfortable tripping alone but I've been trying to expand my comfort zone a bit. And I definitely enjoy festivals but it's the same situation, e.g. me and my friends run into some people we don't know and while my friends talk it up with them I pretty much just space out the whole time even though I'd love to be part of the conversation. I'm wondering if group tripping just isn't for me, especially since I tend to get introverted when I'm tripping. Or maybe I just need to work out some personal stuff, I don't know. I'd certainly like to be more social while I trip though, just not really sure what to do about it.
What do you guys do when you group trip? Have any of you ever experienced anything like this and, if so, how did you get past it?
One thing that tends to happen a lot is that I think too much about what to say or I'll be trying to figure out when it's "my turn" to talk, time goes on and usually by the time I have some input on the conversation, it's already shifted to another topic. I also find it hard to articulate my thoughts in general, almost like my voice is weak or like I lost my voice (like it feels far away, don't know how else to describe it). I often worry about saying something stupid even if the people around me are tripping too (e.g. at a festival). This happens a lot when I smoked weed too, even in a group of friends I'd find myself zoning off in my own head so I've laid off weed for a while. Plus it always makes it worse when people pressure me into talking or point out how quiet I'm being, or like a while ago my friend said something about "teaching me how to talk when I'm fucked up" but whatever that means, I'm assuming she was trying to help me feel more comfortable about being so quiet but as usual it did the opposite.
Sorry, I'm kind of rambling here -- I'm really just looking for some tips as far as tripping in groups or festivals or just around people in general. It's difficult for me to get past the fear of being socially awkward while tripping. I just hate it when everyone else will be having fun laughing and talking while I'm kind of just zoned off in my own world. Especially since I really do want to engage in conversation, I just feel like I have nothing to say or it just doesn't come out quite right. I generally feel more comfortable tripping alone but I've been trying to expand my comfort zone a bit. And I definitely enjoy festivals but it's the same situation, e.g. me and my friends run into some people we don't know and while my friends talk it up with them I pretty much just space out the whole time even though I'd love to be part of the conversation. I'm wondering if group tripping just isn't for me, especially since I tend to get introverted when I'm tripping. Or maybe I just need to work out some personal stuff, I don't know. I'd certainly like to be more social while I trip though, just not really sure what to do about it.
What do you guys do when you group trip? Have any of you ever experienced anything like this and, if so, how did you get past it?
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