Shalamar76
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Apr 5, 2018
- Messages
- 4
Hello,
It' will be nice to meet everyone.first I'm an recovering pill snorter.8 months clean.However I do still do a um well I'm on meth ,I have been since my wife of 20 years passed away in April of 2017. I m trying my best to be good but honestly it's too damn hard .it helps with the pain .I'm a mess to be honest and I've met a wonderful man in the process who is just wow.we share the habit.He was a dealer to make ends meet but he got out a month after we met.To Dangerous.He is going through a divorce so that's a major headache for me and a trigger for me.all my kids are grown and only my 21 year old son lives with me now..I wake up everyday with a lot of pain in my heart and mind.my man can usually quieten the tears i have from a dream I call the loop.it's a replay of my wife having a massive heart attack in front of me and I keep trying to save her,but o f course I never do.But I woke up today.I didn't short a pill yesterday ,and I'm trying not to today..I love this site .Hoping to meet a few good folks to talk to...
It' will be nice to meet everyone.first I'm an recovering pill snorter.8 months clean.However I do still do a um well I'm on meth ,I have been since my wife of 20 years passed away in April of 2017. I m trying my best to be good but honestly it's too damn hard .it helps with the pain .I'm a mess to be honest and I've met a wonderful man in the process who is just wow.we share the habit.He was a dealer to make ends meet but he got out a month after we met.To Dangerous.He is going through a divorce so that's a major headache for me and a trigger for me.all my kids are grown and only my 21 year old son lives with me now..I wake up everyday with a lot of pain in my heart and mind.my man can usually quieten the tears i have from a dream I call the loop.it's a replay of my wife having a massive heart attack in front of me and I keep trying to save her,but o f course I never do.But I woke up today.I didn't short a pill yesterday ,and I'm trying not to today..I love this site .Hoping to meet a few good folks to talk to...