yompf
Bluelighter
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- May 14, 2017
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I'm 31 . I did heroine for 5 years quit and the past 5 years almost 6 I've been a poly drug user . Oh I did meth for year after the heroine.
It's been 2 months nothing but weed , and the quarter of a pill I found in my closet a month ago.
A lot has changed and is changing. I'm growing as a person. I'm starting to be conscious of healthy habits and ways of thinking.
I'm ready to deal with my problems and not escape from them.
Cravings are going to happen I know , but I am finding myself indulging in them more and more. I mean that I indulge in the feeling, the memory. I guess I start fantasize about it.
I feel so guilty . I'm betraying my loved ones . I owe it to them , and to myself. I've had so many positive things happen and I experienced some wonderful things recently. I have so much to be grateful for . How could I sit and think about doing the thing that did so much harm. It's only the worst one too. My first love Oxy.
I still talk about drugs with people and make jokes and comments.
It can only mean that I'm selfish.
What would you tell a selfish person?
It's been 2 months nothing but weed , and the quarter of a pill I found in my closet a month ago.
A lot has changed and is changing. I'm growing as a person. I'm starting to be conscious of healthy habits and ways of thinking.
I'm ready to deal with my problems and not escape from them.
Cravings are going to happen I know , but I am finding myself indulging in them more and more. I mean that I indulge in the feeling, the memory. I guess I start fantasize about it.
I feel so guilty . I'm betraying my loved ones . I owe it to them , and to myself. I've had so many positive things happen and I experienced some wonderful things recently. I have so much to be grateful for . How could I sit and think about doing the thing that did so much harm. It's only the worst one too. My first love Oxy.
I still talk about drugs with people and make jokes and comments.
It can only mean that I'm selfish.
What would you tell a selfish person?