Werewolvesatnight
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Aug 1, 2018
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Hello!
I am a new user but have been lurking around for a few months, so I apologize in advance if I miss any important rules or past threads. I know there are numerous threads pertaining to bad trips but since everyone has their own experience, I thought I would share mine. This past January I had a very very bad lsd trip that lasted around 14 hours. The content was terrifying and the next two weeks were filled with paranoia, derealization, and anxiety which led to a nervous breakdown which happened after work. The result was me having to quit one of two jobs, sleeping at my parent?a house and having almost daily nightmares/panic attacks and numerous head problems. I was able to go into a store without having a panic attack. Over the past five months it has slowly been improving but I still have night terrors where I wake up screaming and during the day I feel this almost physical pain, or a negative energy, that I just can?t put and feel the need to almost scream violently. I have a difficult time with my negative thoughts, feel disconnected with reality much of the time as if reality is no longer satisfying, am not enjoying dating, and have difficulty controlling my emotions. I recently quit my one and only job ( it made me miserable but is my only source of income) at the advice of my parents whom are very supportive but also I feel awful for doing this as I am an adult. I have a bit of money saved and another job (albeit part - time) but fear myself continuing down this path, having to sell my house, and become of those eccentrics that lives with his parents ( I am 32 btw). Like i said, i feel incredibly embarrassed for trying lsd so late in life for the first time, but alas, it happened and I am asking for help/solace/universality in my experience. I am seeing a therapist and trying my best to get through every day. Anyways, here is my introduction. Thank you.
I am a new user but have been lurking around for a few months, so I apologize in advance if I miss any important rules or past threads. I know there are numerous threads pertaining to bad trips but since everyone has their own experience, I thought I would share mine. This past January I had a very very bad lsd trip that lasted around 14 hours. The content was terrifying and the next two weeks were filled with paranoia, derealization, and anxiety which led to a nervous breakdown which happened after work. The result was me having to quit one of two jobs, sleeping at my parent?a house and having almost daily nightmares/panic attacks and numerous head problems. I was able to go into a store without having a panic attack. Over the past five months it has slowly been improving but I still have night terrors where I wake up screaming and during the day I feel this almost physical pain, or a negative energy, that I just can?t put and feel the need to almost scream violently. I have a difficult time with my negative thoughts, feel disconnected with reality much of the time as if reality is no longer satisfying, am not enjoying dating, and have difficulty controlling my emotions. I recently quit my one and only job ( it made me miserable but is my only source of income) at the advice of my parents whom are very supportive but also I feel awful for doing this as I am an adult. I have a bit of money saved and another job (albeit part - time) but fear myself continuing down this path, having to sell my house, and become of those eccentrics that lives with his parents ( I am 32 btw). Like i said, i feel incredibly embarrassed for trying lsd so late in life for the first time, but alas, it happened and I am asking for help/solace/universality in my experience. I am seeing a therapist and trying my best to get through every day. Anyways, here is my introduction. Thank you.