hikfromstik.Thank you for support.Ive been realy thinkin to get Valium 10mg pills for night.I have zero energy until i start to move and do stuff.Then its just that mind game where i say to my self walk there,chop logs,go hike..etc Motivation isnt that much of a problem cos i have to do certain jobs every day,i cant just be in bed.Pain i can take,i have been thru surgeries that realy hurt.Sweats are just annoying,to change bed sheets 2 times day.However depression,anxiety and insomnia,those are the main reason that make me relapse,its that bad.Its mind blowingly annoying how slow the progression is.One day i feel "better" and next its 3 days backwards.
Valium,if i were to get it..My addiction is highest lvl,meaning i abuse everything that is even slightly drug like.How dangerous it would be to someone like me?Ihave abused benzos but never take Valium.What would it do to my cravings.I mean i have come this far and relapsed only once witch is miracle.
And i stop Sub 0,13mg dose today,i want to get this done.Im sick so why the fuck i keep snorting that tiny crumb.I dont whant that tiny piece to control my life....and its done,made the call to flush those tiny fuckers down the drain.