washingtonbound
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Aug 19, 2013
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Hi guys, wanted to get this off my chest because my lack of a dating life has gotten to a point that I'm questioning my desirability as a partner. Truth be told, I haven't even had a girlfriend since I was 13 which I imagine seems really strange for some people. I've slept with a few women but only one of them involved any kind of real chemistry. I tried experimenting with my sexuality and slept with a guy last year which was not a pleasant experience for me; however if I were bisexual I know I'd have many prospects because men tend to be more attracted to me than women for some reason.
Anyway, it's just sad because I have a desire to share experiences with someone and show that I have the ability to care for them. I consider myself to be a compassionate person and I specifically have a soft spot for artistic girls who I run into at music festivals and similar events. It especially bugs me when I see girls with shitty boyfriends who take them for granted and I always think to myself: "if I were lucky enough to have someone like her I'd make sure I showed my appreciation."
I didn't date at all throughout high school or my failed attempts at going to college, and am really beginning to wonder when things will shape up for me. I find myself constantly fantasizing about going to a foreign country where girls would be more interested in me. I don't like to make generalized statements but I have found that my luck with younger American women (19-24) seems to come up short because I do not get a warm and welcoming vibe from them. I feel like I have to come up with a way to pry them off their phone screens to talk to me or somehow "prove" that I am interesting enough or worthy of their time. I feel like I have to force conversations and things just seem to sterilize before going anywhere. It's sad because I would be a very compassionate boyfriend but I never feel like I can warm up to people. I also don't want to put myself in a position where I'm used.
10 + of no dating life can wear on someone after a while, just wanted to share my thoughts.
Anyway, it's just sad because I have a desire to share experiences with someone and show that I have the ability to care for them. I consider myself to be a compassionate person and I specifically have a soft spot for artistic girls who I run into at music festivals and similar events. It especially bugs me when I see girls with shitty boyfriends who take them for granted and I always think to myself: "if I were lucky enough to have someone like her I'd make sure I showed my appreciation."
I didn't date at all throughout high school or my failed attempts at going to college, and am really beginning to wonder when things will shape up for me. I find myself constantly fantasizing about going to a foreign country where girls would be more interested in me. I don't like to make generalized statements but I have found that my luck with younger American women (19-24) seems to come up short because I do not get a warm and welcoming vibe from them. I feel like I have to come up with a way to pry them off their phone screens to talk to me or somehow "prove" that I am interesting enough or worthy of their time. I feel like I have to force conversations and things just seem to sterilize before going anywhere. It's sad because I would be a very compassionate boyfriend but I never feel like I can warm up to people. I also don't want to put myself in a position where I'm used.
10 + of no dating life can wear on someone after a while, just wanted to share my thoughts.