Lobsterbutch
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So I have been using dipenhydramine at night for sleep for awhile. As is common, my tolerance to the sedative effects of the medication grew very quickly, I started at 25-50mg nightly, and over time my nightly use grew to pretty extreme doses, ranging in the 25-30 pill range, which is from 625-750mg range (which is outrageous, I know) although it took me more than a year to reach these doses.
The thing I am experiencing is this: After dosing, a feeling of sedation and well being starts to increase, until it peaks in a feeling I can only describe as sleepy wellbeing. Its a positive feeling and very much desirable. But, after 2-3 hours of this feeling, it quickly turns, and I have swings where my emotional feelings instantly change to dysphoria and then builds back up to wellbeing again. Over the course of the night this happens several times, and each time the dysphoria appears, it lingers for onger, takes more time to build back to a feeling of wellbeing, and I remain in a feeling of wellbeing for shorter lengths of time before the dysphoria returns. The first time dysphoria remains for a few seconds, but at the end of the night the dysphoria can linger for 10-20 minutes sometimes more, and before I fall asleep I experience 15minutes of dysphoria for every 2-5minutes of well being.
even though these are huge dose ranges, I have yet to experience any of the well known "delerium" effects of dipenhydramine (hallucinations both visual and auditory), but I do experience a sharp decline in short-term memory. I write a lot, and the memory loss can be so severe that I will lose my train of thought mid sentance and need to re-read the entire page to pick my thought process back up. The worst is when I re-read the entire page, and by the time I read the last sentance, I've forgotten the first one. Sometimes I loose train of thought while writing but dont notice, to the point that when I finally read what I wrote later, It makes no sense and is literal word salad, where the topics and subjects change very quickly with no real subject or cohesive subject/idea.
I only experience these things after dosing and never have them happen otherwise, but the mood swings after the peak is odd to me, does anyone know how or why this happens?
The thing I am experiencing is this: After dosing, a feeling of sedation and well being starts to increase, until it peaks in a feeling I can only describe as sleepy wellbeing. Its a positive feeling and very much desirable. But, after 2-3 hours of this feeling, it quickly turns, and I have swings where my emotional feelings instantly change to dysphoria and then builds back up to wellbeing again. Over the course of the night this happens several times, and each time the dysphoria appears, it lingers for onger, takes more time to build back to a feeling of wellbeing, and I remain in a feeling of wellbeing for shorter lengths of time before the dysphoria returns. The first time dysphoria remains for a few seconds, but at the end of the night the dysphoria can linger for 10-20 minutes sometimes more, and before I fall asleep I experience 15minutes of dysphoria for every 2-5minutes of well being.
even though these are huge dose ranges, I have yet to experience any of the well known "delerium" effects of dipenhydramine (hallucinations both visual and auditory), but I do experience a sharp decline in short-term memory. I write a lot, and the memory loss can be so severe that I will lose my train of thought mid sentance and need to re-read the entire page to pick my thought process back up. The worst is when I re-read the entire page, and by the time I read the last sentance, I've forgotten the first one. Sometimes I loose train of thought while writing but dont notice, to the point that when I finally read what I wrote later, It makes no sense and is literal word salad, where the topics and subjects change very quickly with no real subject or cohesive subject/idea.
I only experience these things after dosing and never have them happen otherwise, but the mood swings after the peak is odd to me, does anyone know how or why this happens?
