Help...Seasoned long time med user being ruined by kratom

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I have taken kratom daily for the last half year or so. And lots of it, I have went through several kilos. But I?m at a point where I feel AWFUL all the time! I spend the vast majority of my time laying in bed, not even feeling like sitting on the couch! If I don?t take it I have the typical opiate symptoms like RLS and most importantly, debilitating fatigue. When I do take it I feel sick and nauseous, even though the other symptoms go down. But the fatigue stays. I?m tired all the time. I started taking Dexedrine to help but it?s not, just negative stimulation.

What are your suggestions to take instead that I could wean off instead? I?ve tried tapering but I?m too sick on or off it. I?ve got a few downers in mind, however I must be cautious as I?ve been habituated very badly to them for years in the past.

Thanks in advance!