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    Dear Diary 
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    Recently, I've been able to fall in love with someone for the first time in many years. Sadly, after 3 weeks of dating (which probably were the best 3 weeks of my life) she ended things, as she didn't feel the same way. I proceeded to live my life, but was unable to genuinely experience my feelings on the matter. Alcohol soon thereafter helped me cope with it, as it had with past sorrow.

    Anyway, today, some dude felt like there'd be a comedic value to bashing on the events described above. After I made it obviously clear he was crossing the line, he continued his 'humorous acts' shamelessly. As I had become aware of myself barely being able to control myself, I decided it'd be wise to distance myself from this asshole.

    Shortly after I had distanced myself, the asshole's girlfriend thinks it's wise to text me, trying to rationalize his behavior from her perspective, to calm me down. This idiotic move clearly had an opposite effect and I told her to pass on a message that was basically a death threat. She proceeded to text me shit and added a request to me to not send such awful messages anymore.

    Now, I'm aware of death threats (especially with a detailed nature, like this one) being horrible and illegal, even. But what the actual fuck is wrong with people...

    Second bad news is that I'm missing the girl madly and crave affection like never before. I feel alone and in desperate need for love & company. I feel weak for desiring this.

    The good news is, I'm finally capable of feeling just how much I miss this girl and am currently in my bed, crying.

    xoxo
     

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    what is the question?
     

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    What do you love other than her?

    Example im single but if a girl broke up with me i still love

    Taylor Swift
    Hayley Williams
    Avril Lavigne
    Birdy
    Amphetamine
    Coffee
    Nicotine
    Lana del ray
    Melanie martinez
    Hannah Witton
    Rebecca Watson
    Electronic music
    Tomonews
    Grimes
    Allie X
    Fashion Mumbler
    Going for runs
    Walks
    Porn
    Jenna marbles


    I could go on but i think the more you can expand the amount of things or people you love the more of a cushion youll have to catch you from falling too hard after a breakup
     

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    Since when are questions written in a diary? That'd be weird. Diaries don't answer.

    @d1nach I dunno, I used to love drugs. They had almost become my entire personality... I recently quit those, though. Sober me feels drawn to theater and singing, but I didn't do either of those things yet since I was a kid, tbh.

    I suppose I don't even really know who I am anymore? wtf
     

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    Cab you get back into theater and singing even if its just listening to music and watching theater. Are plays recorded maybe like on youtube or listening to play soundtracks?
     

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    Dunno, I was 12 when I did that shit, thinking about actually signing up for some theater school if my income allows it. That, I'll find out in 2 days.
     

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    What about music you dont have any that you like? I get where im just in bed. Just having music playing might help. I actually started developing intense feelings for certain artists because when i was in bed crying i was listening to them for comfort.
     

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    I always listen to music, without music life would be dull as fuck...
     

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    Please continue diary!
     

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    Music, whatever you choose, "is" the soundtrack of life!
     

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    Quote Originally Posted by LearntYoung View Post
    Since when are questions written in a diary? That'd be weird. Diaries don't answer.
    this is suited to blogs
     

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