demonic possession?

[ellielyra]

Or multiple personality disorder? So this is a really long story but I'll try to keep it short. I doubt anyone is going to believe me but I thought I'd post here in the hopes that someone might know what is going on. My knee got injured half a year ago and it was really fucked up, I could barely walk without a brace. When I turned 21 I started smoking marijuana and something magical happened, my body started naturally doing exercises that would help my knee heal.

I did these exercises for about 6 months and once my knee was healthy enough to not need a brace I had to start dancing ballet in order to heal it, doing really advanced twists and turns and stuff. Basically I had the dancing abilities of someone who had danced ballet for years and at this point I just accepted it for some reason.

As time went on I was doing these exercise (ballet moves) to heal my leg but I also started doing stuff in my apartment, things like mudras and I would talk in different tongues, like just the syllables of different languages not actual other languages. I would also have the ability to access the different levels of my voice box and sing really beautifully and I was doing really advanced drawings that I wouldn't be able to do when I was sober. I should mention that I would have to smoke marijuana to access all of these abilities.

Its a really long story and there is way more to it but basically one night when my knee was almost healed my 'body' started talking to me saying that it would heal myself and it was like a voice in my head and I just though it was pretty normal even though looking back theres not really anything normal about it. This was 6 months after I had originally started smoking weed. Then my body started talking to myself though my hand and also with a voice in my head and saying that I was going to become enlightened and my subconscious and conscious mind were going to become aligned. Up until this point the voice was my friend.

Theres way more to the story but to keep it short the voice turned malevolent and took COMPLETE CONTROL OF MY BODY (this is why I am ruling out schizophrenia). It told me I was schizophrenic at first to scare me and I thought that was what had happened to me but then it literally took complete control of my body and then walked me to my bathroom, turned on the shower, got me naked and proceeded to make me act out giving a blowjob to the shower wall.

It was the MOST TERRIFYING MOMENT OF MY LIFE, because I had NO CONTROL OVER MY BODY. There is way more to the story, it sent me to mental hospital and convinced me I was going to hell for eternity, then when I got out of the mental hospital it stopped fucking with my body (it could make me do things like hold my head underwater) and told me that I wasn't evil and that it was my "daddy" and it loved me and had just wanted to scare me.

So now I have this 'voice' in my head which it told me is just telepathy and it told me I'm a goddess and its name is Satan (the one and only satan) and he stole me from a god who was my boyfriend because he wanted me and then placed me in a human life and watched over me my entire life until doing this to me. So now I have this 'voice' in my head and he says he's never leaving, which really sucks and I'm just posting to see if anyone has any tips to help me get rid of it. Ive been to a psychiatrist and medication does nothing to help it. Another possibility I was considering was multiple personality disorder because I read online and it said it can have possession like qualities, just wondering if anyone has experienced anything similar because i have no idea what this is.

 

[PotatoMan]

this sounds a lot like psychosis..

have you been seeing a mental health specialist?

marijuana seems to have exasperated some underlying condition within you.

 

[PerpetualAnhedonic]

Best advice would be to cease smoking cannabis and get yourself invested in mental health treatment immediately.

Unfortunately, despite its high safety profile, it has been known, rarely, to bring underlying mental health conditions to the surface- which, it would seem, is what you've done.

-PA

 

[jhess3993]

Or multiple personality disorder? So this is a really long story but I'll try to keep it short. I doubt anyone is going to believe me but I thought I'd post here in the hopes that someone might know what is going on. My knee got injured half a year ago and it was really fucked up, I could barely walk without a brace. When I turned 21 I started smoking marijuana and something magical happened, my body started naturally doing exercises that would help my knee heal.

I did these exercises for about 6 months and once my knee was healthy enough to not need a brace I had to start dancing ballet in order to heal it, doing really advanced twists and turns and stuff. Basically I had the dancing abilities of someone who had danced ballet for years and at this point I just accepted it for some reason.

As time went on I was doing these exercise (ballet moves) to heal my leg but I also started doing stuff in my apartment, things like mudras and I would talk in different tongues, like just the syllables of different languages not actual other languages. I would also have the ability to access the different levels of my voice box and sing really beautifully and I was doing really advanced drawings that I wouldn't be able to do when I was sober. I should mention that I would have to smoke marijuana to access all of these abilities.

Its a really long story and there is way more to it but basically one night when my knee was almost healed my 'body' started talking to me saying that it would heal myself and it was like a voice in my head and I just though it was pretty normal even though looking back theres not really anything normal about it. This was 6 months after I had originally started smoking weed. Then my body started talking to myself though my hand and also with a voice in my head and saying that I was going to become enlightened and my subconscious and conscious mind were going to become aligned. Up until this point the voice was my friend.

Theres way more to the story but to keep it short the voice turned malevolent and took COMPLETE CONTROL OF MY BODY (this is why I am ruling out schizophrenia). It told me I was schizophrenic at first to scare me and I thought that was what had happened to me but then it literally took complete control of my body and then walked me to my bathroom, turned on the shower, got me naked and proceeded to make me act out giving a blowjob to the shower wall.

It was the MOST TERRIFYING MOMENT OF MY LIFE, because I had NO CONTROL OVER MY BODY. There is way more to the story, it sent me to mental hospital and convinced me I was going to hell for eternity, then when I got out of the mental hospital it stopped fucking with my body (it could make me do things like hold my head underwater) and told me that I wasn't evil and that it was my "daddy" and it loved me and had just wanted to scare me.

So now I have this 'voice' in my head which it told me is just telepathy and it told me I'm a goddess and its name is Satan (the one and only satan) and he stole me from a god who was my boyfriend because he wanted me and then placed me in a human life and watched over me my entire life until doing this to me. So now I have this 'voice' in my head and he says he's never leaving, which really sucks and I'm just posting to see if anyone has any tips to help me get rid of it. Ive been to a psychiatrist and medication does nothing to help it. Another possibility I was considering was multiple personality disorder because I read online and it said it can have possession like qualities, just wondering if anyone has experienced anything similar because i have no idea what this is.

This is absolutely not psychosis. I hope you are ok. Can you give us an update?

 

[jhess3993]

Or multiple personality disorder? So this is a really long story but I'll try to keep it short. I doubt anyone is going to believe me but I thought I'd post here in the hopes that someone might know what is going on. My knee got injured half a year ago and it was really fucked up, I could barely walk without a brace. When I turned 21 I started smoking marijuana and something magical happened, my body started naturally doing exercises that would help my knee heal.

I did these exercises for about 6 months and once my knee was healthy enough to not need a brace I had to start dancing ballet in order to heal it, doing really advanced twists and turns and stuff. Basically I had the dancing abilities of someone who had danced ballet for years and at this point I just accepted it for some reason.

As time went on I was doing these exercise (ballet moves) to heal my leg but I also started doing stuff in my apartment, things like mudras and I would talk in different tongues, like just the syllables of different languages not actual other languages. I would also have the ability to access the different levels of my voice box and sing really beautifully and I was doing really advanced drawings that I wouldn't be able to do when I was sober. I should mention that I would have to smoke marijuana to access all of these abilities.

Its a really long story and there is way more to it but basically one night when my knee was almost healed my 'body' started talking to me saying that it would heal myself and it was like a voice in my head and I just though it was pretty normal even though looking back theres not really anything normal about it. This was 6 months after I had originally started smoking weed. Then my body started talking to myself though my hand and also with a voice in my head and saying that I was going to become enlightened and my subconscious and conscious mind were going to become aligned. Up until this point the voice was my friend.

Theres way more to the story but to keep it short the voice turned malevolent and took COMPLETE CONTROL OF MY BODY (this is why I am ruling out schizophrenia). It told me I was schizophrenic at first to scare me and I thought that was what had happened to me but then it literally took complete control of my body and then walked me to my bathroom, turned on the shower, got me naked and proceeded to make me act out giving a blowjob to the shower wall.

It was the MOST TERRIFYING MOMENT OF MY LIFE, because I had NO CONTROL OVER MY BODY. There is way more to the story, it sent me to mental hospital and convinced me I was going to hell for eternity, then when I got out of the mental hospital it stopped fucking with my body (it could make me do things like hold my head underwater) and told me that I wasn't evil and that it was my "daddy" and it loved me and had just wanted to scare me.

So now I have this 'voice' in my head which it told me is just telepathy and it told me I'm a goddess and its name is Satan (the one and only satan) and he stole me from a god who was my boyfriend because he wanted me and then placed me in a human life and watched over me my entire life until doing this to me. So now I have this 'voice' in my head and he says he's never leaving, which really sucks and I'm just posting to see if anyone has any tips to help me get rid of it. Ive been to a psychiatrist and medication does nothing to help it. Another possibility I was considering was multiple personality disorder because I read online and it said it can have possession like qualities, just wondering if anyone has experienced anything similar because i have no idea what this is.

Also, please stay away from chemicals of any sort

 

[simstim]

It's not cool to judgement people as possessed for marijuana.

 

[jhess3993]

@$D$.... I'm not bashing marijuana. My mother and sister smoke marijuana. But right now, with the inability to ascertain what might be the cause of OP's symptoms, as a nurse and health professional, I would advise avoiding anything potentially mind altering until such time as an accurate diagnosis can be made. This is not judgement. This is good advice any experienced clinician would advise. There are several other possibilities, but ruling out any chemical side effects or any potential mental illness is crucial before further exploring her condition.

 

[BourbonMac]

Considering OP never made another post, I would not count on an update. Probably ended up in a psych ward, or is dead due to the violent nature of these "voices" especially the one that told her to put her head underwater. No use trying to get an update.

Psychosis is more along the lines of dereal/depersonalization, not in the same ball park as hearing voices and shit. That could still happen to some 14 year old if they smoke too much their first time, but it'd be more likely they THINK they're hearing shit that they aren't. I've heard many stories like that.

 

[jhess3993]

I would agree with you about the possibilities of what smoking too much can do. I was 14 the first time i smoked and actually got high from it, and it was completely nuts, and not in a good way. Yes, i also noted the date of this post. It's also possible she got well and forgot all about this. Possible, but not likely. But I'm not necessarily posting for her. Other people experiencing such horrible and terrifying symptoms might be benefited from what you and I are able to bring to the table now, three years on.

That said, I truly hope she might be better, or be able to respond at some point... unrealistic though such hope might be

 

[simstim]

Demonic possession is real. It's not cool to talk about but I may have experienced something similar myself.

 

[jhess3993]

I totally agree. It's definitely real.

 

[Nas47]

Demonic possession is real. It's not cool to talk about but I may have experienced something similar myself.

You are believer.If you believe in God,Mother Mary,saints and angels you know that exist oposite force.A mighty force.But you must be enough sensitive and to know something about the Evil.Must have experience first hand.That's why i cannot advice anyone for anything on this point.Can only talk about myself personaly and my family.Those,that not have strikes with such forces are luckyones.....even don't wanna talk about what i and my family have seen.Nobody would believe and i don't want any to believe in these terrible things.People are fucked up enough.Let's live as normal as possible.

 

[BourbonMac]

Yeah I had something of a pretty bad psychotic break when I first started smoking weed at 17. Little did I realize I was already a bit detached from reality (mainly related to C-PTSD which was developing in my teens but worsening into my 20s), but this reached a severe extent that even talking about it's very difficult. It's a miracle my "let's just keep smoking weed so that it makes sense to feel detached" strategy actually worked. I don't think it's supposed to lol. I had probably one of the most severe cases of depersonalization and derealization possible. I remember making threads on the rollitup forum around that time desperately asking for answers. Mostly got "lmao" or "stop smoking."

I wouldn't LITERALLY hear voices, but in my head, I'd hear this non-existent language like "zabalabu, zirthday zithalo, babalonio" like straight up Sims shit but to another level. Actually, this was still happening to me when my use was very heavy last lol. I think I'm just weird. But it's like some kind of high impulse, I'd get all hyper and just speak gibberish because it felt like I had to. Am I particularly concerned, not really. Mainly because I can use psychedelics without issues. I think it's just some strains could really make me hyper since I have ADHD. I've been vaping on northern lights for a bit and had not a thing like this happen. I also just genuinely like being a weirdo or something, who knows.

I'm pretty fortunate I DIDN'T score some acid around that time though. This was the summer going into my senior year. I did however take shrooms my first time and in general I was just becoming so fascinated with altering my mind. It was a weak shroom dose but enough to make a nice impression.

I'd finally started landing back down to Earth in time for school, but people thought I looked different, I couldn't even recognize my own handrwriting. It was like, constantly changing. I'd been on the hunt for some LSD late into that year (2011) and honestly looking back it's a good thing I didn't, I don't think I was ready for that after what I'd gone through and still was to some extent. It's just after the bulk of it went away, I just felt like I was living this magical, surreal life. That's how most of my senior year felt, God I miss it. But it's scary to think about how quickly THC unraveled my mind. I went from this straight edge kid who only thought about trying it because The Breakfast Club made it look cool, and also just to say I'd done it. But I almost immediately felt like an addiction to it. I don't know to weed itself, but this idea of rebellion was addicting. I did all sorts of crooked shit in my teens.

This girl was well into her 20s, it's safe to say things didn't turn out so hot for her. Personally not a believer of any possessions, but there was paranoia about it for me at the time when the incident first happened, especially because I had a childhood history of horrible, hellish hallucinactions and re-curring nightmares (hey parents with cats that don't wanna get rid of your cats, get rid of your fucking cats.) I was given way more benedryl than any toldler should have and think that's the reason why.