Day 9, almost to double digits. Last night was another rough one. Slept from 3 to 5am and 6 to 7am. The lack of rest is absolutely killing me as I have no energy and my brain feels like it is a jello mold. Other than that, I feel good overall today and plan to go back into work for the first time in a week. Legs still ache a bit and feel tired, but again, I think that may be sleep related as well.
Not feeling anxious or nervous, but still especially congested and sneezing a lot. I have considered trying some decongestants, but feel it is probably better to just let it all get out of the system. Appetite is still not back but the gastro issues seem to be over at this point as I had a near-normal bowel movement earlier (sorry--just trying to be thorough with this journal). Speaking of that, and not to seem too obscene, I actually woke up with an erection which was something of a surprise. Don't misunderstand me, I did not feel like joining an orgy or anything and don't really have any physical/psychological issues down there, but the tea's libido suppressing effects have just kept it from happening for a long, long time. Anyway, I take it a s good sign that my body is in reset mode and things are starting to return to the way they are supposed to be outside of an altered state.
Another thing that is starting to happen is that I am beginning to notice things that I did not see through the fog. I used to be very anal with my home and vehicle maintenance, and even though my brain is barely out of neutral, I can see that the yard really looks like shit, my cars are all dirty and behind on maintenance, my workshop is piled high with crap, my desk is covered with papers, the softener is out of salt, the mailbox is about to fall off, there are bird nests in the eaves, I have a couple of shingles missing from a storm last summer, a gutter on the garage is hanging loose, a burner is out on the stove, etc. etc. God, what else have I not been seeing and ignoring? That scares the hell out of me.