First time poster here...I have no idea if I?m in the write forum, so PLEASE let me know if my questions would better posted somewhere else. Ok so here?s my story...
i got married in September and it turns out I married alcoholic and addict of various types of drugs-Main drug of choice, heroin. I knew he had a drug past, but it was presented to me as if that was quite a long time ago. Anyway-Things slowly started popping up...Missong Percocet (which were hidden in various different places), money that not be accounted for, staying out long periods of time (eventually overnight)...anyway you get the point. (Again, please remember that I was under the impression he has a small drug problem yearsss ago-otherwise I would not have had Percocets in our home). Things kept getting worse and worse. November he went to a 7 day detox (all we could afford-super expensive), and was discharged on suboxone (worst mistake ever). We had a good month and things continued to get bad. Then it turned into him using all the suboxone in a 2 week period, starting heroin back, can?t wake up for work, looses job, repeat. I believe the last 3 months he has worked 6 days. He has not 6 jobs in 20 months-for the can?t same reason every time. Last Sat morning I came home from work (ICU RN) and he was out cold. He was not response so I sternal rubbed (grind knuckles into sternum-very painful) him for about 2 minutes. I could tell
he was breathing and he has a pulse but was non response. They weren?t ?normal breaths? but they weren?t agonal/guppy breaths either. I went back and forth about calling EMS to get him some Narcan. I decided against Narcan unimportant reasons (to explain would just make this long post even longer). He slept for the next 80 hours, only getting up to pee which was rare. No food, no water, nothing. So now we are up to current time. I?m still finding needles (oh yeah when I found him sat morning he had 3 needles sitting in front of him, and bottles of lemon juice and vinegar (which I have read is related)
Yeaterday we had a short talk about the Saturday morning incident, and said I was so sleepy from Xanax, I took 2 Zanax bars so I asked about the syringes and he said he was shooting cocaine, and that he wasn?t using heroin. So:
1-would you use benzos and cocaine together? If so, would it make someone (known heroin addict) sleep for 80 hours?
2-I keep finding pens taken apart all over the house...Is that to use to snort the supposed benzos?
3-What do I do now? I don?t want to just abandon him, he literally had nothing, but this is not fair to me, and to be honest it?s killing me. Not to mention killing him?
4-do you think the suspected OD from sat morning was actually from heroin? Or from this zanax/cocaine combo I?ve been told? Or more like a Xanax/heroin combo?
5-slightly unrelated-He gets his suboxone in a zip lock baggie from CVS (seen it with my own eyes). He filled his rx yesterday, was gone most of the day with no explainaion, and then when I get home from work this morning and do my daily swoop of the house, I found an old beat up suboxone box (same kilogram as his)the couch cushion with whoever?s name it was for scrated off. Does it sound like he is buying more suboxone, or selling his (not really sure why he would have a box that doesn?t belong to him if he was just selling his-maybe someone out there might have an idea). And I would have thought twice about it except the stupid answers I got from him: why? THats a weird question. I don?t understand what you mean. Can you explain why you?re asking. Anyway now this is just turning into a venting session, and that wasn?t the point of this post-Sorry!! All in all I suppose it doesn?t matter why he has the box-is he misusing suboxone? Yes. But since all thi has been going on I?ve had to become such a detective that I?m teying to figure out every little thing hat seems suspicious, and I almost wonder if it?s so I have more ?evidence? to show if/when I decide to leave him.
If you actually read to the end, thank you so much! I?m the hottest of messes lately and I need some HElP about where to turn and what I am dealing with!! Thanks for any input anyone has!!
i got married in September and it turns out I married alcoholic and addict of various types of drugs-Main drug of choice, heroin. I knew he had a drug past, but it was presented to me as if that was quite a long time ago. Anyway-Things slowly started popping up...Missong Percocet (which were hidden in various different places), money that not be accounted for, staying out long periods of time (eventually overnight)...anyway you get the point. (Again, please remember that I was under the impression he has a small drug problem yearsss ago-otherwise I would not have had Percocets in our home). Things kept getting worse and worse. November he went to a 7 day detox (all we could afford-super expensive), and was discharged on suboxone (worst mistake ever). We had a good month and things continued to get bad. Then it turned into him using all the suboxone in a 2 week period, starting heroin back, can?t wake up for work, looses job, repeat. I believe the last 3 months he has worked 6 days. He has not 6 jobs in 20 months-for the can?t same reason every time. Last Sat morning I came home from work (ICU RN) and he was out cold. He was not response so I sternal rubbed (grind knuckles into sternum-very painful) him for about 2 minutes. I could tell
he was breathing and he has a pulse but was non response. They weren?t ?normal breaths? but they weren?t agonal/guppy breaths either. I went back and forth about calling EMS to get him some Narcan. I decided against Narcan unimportant reasons (to explain would just make this long post even longer). He slept for the next 80 hours, only getting up to pee which was rare. No food, no water, nothing. So now we are up to current time. I?m still finding needles (oh yeah when I found him sat morning he had 3 needles sitting in front of him, and bottles of lemon juice and vinegar (which I have read is related)
Yeaterday we had a short talk about the Saturday morning incident, and said I was so sleepy from Xanax, I took 2 Zanax bars so I asked about the syringes and he said he was shooting cocaine, and that he wasn?t using heroin. So:
1-would you use benzos and cocaine together? If so, would it make someone (known heroin addict) sleep for 80 hours?
2-I keep finding pens taken apart all over the house...Is that to use to snort the supposed benzos?
3-What do I do now? I don?t want to just abandon him, he literally had nothing, but this is not fair to me, and to be honest it?s killing me. Not to mention killing him?
4-do you think the suspected OD from sat morning was actually from heroin? Or from this zanax/cocaine combo I?ve been told? Or more like a Xanax/heroin combo?
5-slightly unrelated-He gets his suboxone in a zip lock baggie from CVS (seen it with my own eyes). He filled his rx yesterday, was gone most of the day with no explainaion, and then when I get home from work this morning and do my daily swoop of the house, I found an old beat up suboxone box (same kilogram as his)the couch cushion with whoever?s name it was for scrated off. Does it sound like he is buying more suboxone, or selling his (not really sure why he would have a box that doesn?t belong to him if he was just selling his-maybe someone out there might have an idea). And I would have thought twice about it except the stupid answers I got from him: why? THats a weird question. I don?t understand what you mean. Can you explain why you?re asking. Anyway now this is just turning into a venting session, and that wasn?t the point of this post-Sorry!! All in all I suppose it doesn?t matter why he has the box-is he misusing suboxone? Yes. But since all thi has been going on I?ve had to become such a detective that I?m teying to figure out every little thing hat seems suspicious, and I almost wonder if it?s so I have more ?evidence? to show if/when I decide to leave him.
If you actually read to the end, thank you so much! I?m the hottest of messes lately and I need some HElP about where to turn and what I am dealing with!! Thanks for any input anyone has!!
