First off, your thread gets closed, secondly, your blood pressure will become so low that you, in fact die! Please don't hate me OP. I believe that even though you're perhaps having a tough time right now, in time you can be a valuable member of the community and I personally look forward to that time.
I said don't hate me. Why? Because I'm going to be blunt in saying, if you are feeling depressed and have nobody to reach out to; if you're having thoughts of suicide, this is not at all the way to go about getting assistance. I understand that it is basically a cry for help, and maybe there was a better place for the cry to be made, but I don't think your situation is hopeless.
I'm closing this thread because this is a 2+2=~4 type of deal. Massive overdoses of anything, even vitamins can lead to death. I encourage you to PM me if you need emotional support. I'm here for you and so is everyone else.