Hello everyone,
I am 18 years old and I go to college in my state (SC). To give some background info, I started smoking weed junior year of high school. Quickly transpired to addiction and was doing it 3 or 4x a day. Senior year, I decided weed wasn?t enough. Tried mushrooms, had a good trip and moved on. Then I tried LSD. First few times I had taken it, I was by myself in my room hella late at night. Each time was fine. Eventually I was doing it too often...I did it once a week for like 3 weeks or so and a few times I did it 2x a week. Had a really bad trip, thought about suicide and it scared me shitless. Stopped using LSD after that. Months later, my first semester of college begins. I am reintroduced to LSD and start using very often. Atleast once a week, many weeks 2x for 10 weeks straight. At the end of my stint I had a really bad trip. Worse than any other. All I wanted to do was die. In complete honesty that was almost my entire trip. Suicidal thoughts. Now, I have them everyday. All day long. Months after my last trip. I get this feeling that my entire life is meaningless. Overcomes me. I also can?t stop thinking about acid. All day long I?m wondering if I?m tripping right now or not. Yes, I still smoke weed daily. Once or twice. I stay away from it for the majority of the day, only do it normally at night so I can fucking sleep. Withdrawals from weed are serious and fucking rough (to me). I would love for someone on here to give me some advice, what to do, where to go from here. I want to go back to normal, the person I was before.
I am 18 years old and I go to college in my state (SC). To give some background info, I started smoking weed junior year of high school. Quickly transpired to addiction and was doing it 3 or 4x a day. Senior year, I decided weed wasn?t enough. Tried mushrooms, had a good trip and moved on. Then I tried LSD. First few times I had taken it, I was by myself in my room hella late at night. Each time was fine. Eventually I was doing it too often...I did it once a week for like 3 weeks or so and a few times I did it 2x a week. Had a really bad trip, thought about suicide and it scared me shitless. Stopped using LSD after that. Months later, my first semester of college begins. I am reintroduced to LSD and start using very often. Atleast once a week, many weeks 2x for 10 weeks straight. At the end of my stint I had a really bad trip. Worse than any other. All I wanted to do was die. In complete honesty that was almost my entire trip. Suicidal thoughts. Now, I have them everyday. All day long. Months after my last trip. I get this feeling that my entire life is meaningless. Overcomes me. I also can?t stop thinking about acid. All day long I?m wondering if I?m tripping right now or not. Yes, I still smoke weed daily. Once or twice. I stay away from it for the majority of the day, only do it normally at night so I can fucking sleep. Withdrawals from weed are serious and fucking rough (to me). I would love for someone on here to give me some advice, what to do, where to go from here. I want to go back to normal, the person I was before.