Drug Induced depression
I need help and I don't know what to do. Let me give you a little back story. I was just discharged from the Marine Corps a little over 10 months ago. Everything was great, partying hanging with my girl, and with my family. Here's where it goes wrong: I have a history of taking pyschedilcs like: orange sunshine(fucked me up when I was 17 - and was hospitalized) Lsd, mdma, ketamine, etc etc basically all of those and is mass quantities. I like to trip and go to shows. So anyways, Back to most recently, over Christmas break I bought about 5 grams of Molly to share with my family and go to concerts and what not. Anyways everything was great until one night. I took just two finger dips and was expecting to roll just a little for the night as my brother was home from college. Casually feel good while we're all drinking.
That was December 21st and since then I have been a zombie, lethargic, stopped working out, suicidal, unmotivated, and feel abnormal all the time. I feel like I have this cloud pressing over my head and brain and nothing is real or has no meaning to it. I can sleep 12 hours easily and I've been gaining weight. Anyways, I saw an old psychiatrist and he got me back on Gabapentin 1200 mgs 3x a day.
I am seriously messed up all day, I can barely write this but I can?t stand it anymore. If anyone knows how to help me, I'm ready. I'm really sad and it's affecting all my relationships. I?m getting in stupid arguments with my girlfriend, I?m crying all the time, i'm trying to exercise and eat write. It?s been 2 months strong, the gabapentin makes it bearable but I?m not the happy motivated person I used to be.
Thank you and have a nice day.
I need help and I don't know what to do. Let me give you a little back story. I was just discharged from the Marine Corps a little over 10 months ago. Everything was great, partying hanging with my girl, and with my family. Here's where it goes wrong: I have a history of taking pyschedilcs like: orange sunshine(fucked me up when I was 17 - and was hospitalized) Lsd, mdma, ketamine, etc etc basically all of those and is mass quantities. I like to trip and go to shows. So anyways, Back to most recently, over Christmas break I bought about 5 grams of Molly to share with my family and go to concerts and what not. Anyways everything was great until one night. I took just two finger dips and was expecting to roll just a little for the night as my brother was home from college. Casually feel good while we're all drinking.
That was December 21st and since then I have been a zombie, lethargic, stopped working out, suicidal, unmotivated, and feel abnormal all the time. I feel like I have this cloud pressing over my head and brain and nothing is real or has no meaning to it. I can sleep 12 hours easily and I've been gaining weight. Anyways, I saw an old psychiatrist and he got me back on Gabapentin 1200 mgs 3x a day.
I am seriously messed up all day, I can barely write this but I can?t stand it anymore. If anyone knows how to help me, I'm ready. I'm really sad and it's affecting all my relationships. I?m getting in stupid arguments with my girlfriend, I?m crying all the time, i'm trying to exercise and eat write. It?s been 2 months strong, the gabapentin makes it bearable but I?m not the happy motivated person I used to be.
Thank you and have a nice day.
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