Escape Fantasy
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jan 27, 2018
- Messages
- 82
Hey there, guys.
I uhhh, just wanted to vent here one last time. I've realized a pretty plausible flaw in my character. I tend to forcefully project my feelings onto others and sometimes in my daily life. I guess the reason for this being is because all my life I've always talked to a psychologist/counselor about my feelings. I haven't had an actual friend to hangout with since 9th/10th grade.
Drugs and Mental Illness are all I know.
I've become pretty misogynistic and racist at times.
And those are pretty huge flaws to have on one's self. They all stem from my past horrible experiences. But, I've realized it's time to grow up.
In the real world, I cannot be sexist or prefer one race over another.
I should welcome everyone with open arms if I want to find a good career.
I've realized I've become addicted to this way of thinking. I need to change. The reason I would to come to this website was because I guess to project my craziness on to here since I had no one or nowhere to go. But if I want to change, I'm going to have to let this craziness, drugs & mental illness, go and be a thing of the past.
I was normal. At one point. I had potential all along when I was playing basketball with my friends and knew of a girl who potentially liked me.
I don't know what went wrong after that point, I have a couple hypotheses why, but I'm done trying to explain it. It's done.
So, I'm leaving you all with this. I'm off to live in the real world now, without being labeled as crazy. Just a normal guy in a normal world. Goodbye Bluelight
I uhhh, just wanted to vent here one last time. I've realized a pretty plausible flaw in my character. I tend to forcefully project my feelings onto others and sometimes in my daily life. I guess the reason for this being is because all my life I've always talked to a psychologist/counselor about my feelings. I haven't had an actual friend to hangout with since 9th/10th grade.
Drugs and Mental Illness are all I know.
I've become pretty misogynistic and racist at times.
And those are pretty huge flaws to have on one's self. They all stem from my past horrible experiences. But, I've realized it's time to grow up.
In the real world, I cannot be sexist or prefer one race over another.
I should welcome everyone with open arms if I want to find a good career.
I've realized I've become addicted to this way of thinking. I need to change. The reason I would to come to this website was because I guess to project my craziness on to here since I had no one or nowhere to go. But if I want to change, I'm going to have to let this craziness, drugs & mental illness, go and be a thing of the past.
I was normal. At one point. I had potential all along when I was playing basketball with my friends and knew of a girl who potentially liked me.
I don't know what went wrong after that point, I have a couple hypotheses why, but I'm done trying to explain it. It's done.
So, I'm leaving you all with this. I'm off to live in the real world now, without being labeled as crazy. Just a normal guy in a normal world. Goodbye Bluelight