hey mom - just read through your thread. I know this is not what you are going to want to hear, but you will probably need 1-3 months without any opiates to feel better again. The physical withdrawal symptoms (what you have been describing) usually peak on day 3-6 for people, and by end of 14 days the physical w/d's should be done (10-14 days i'd say). You will still not have the energy you are used to, still lethargic, antsy, bored, time slowing down, etc. There isn't a short cut here unfortunately. You are going to have to teach yourself how to live again without the PED (performance enhancing drug) you've been used to - Luckily you seem to be a very active person. Unluckily - you do have chronic pain issues (something I know nothing about) - so i can't really comment on that portion of your situation.
A few other tid bits that I want to mention - taking a dose of opiates when you are detoxing does set you back alot, and if you take much more then 1-2 doses, you are pretty much back to square one. it's a bitch. But what you were feeling on hour 72 is probably as bad as it's gonna get.
I have some similarities to you, except i could be your son. I didn't have any pain issues though. Always the smart but kinda trouble maker type, and i liked to party with my friends (so what? lol). Unfortunately 4 years ago I went through a very sudden personal tragedy, and ended up blowing 60-120mg of oxy every day for 3-4 years. luckily i had a very good job and somehow managed to keep everything together (well i destroyed my credit in the process lol, but got promoted twice by one of the largest financial service companies in the world twice - where i still am now - so i'll take it as a win).
I remember prob 2-2.5 years into my daily run when i was like alright time to stop feeling sorry for yourself and get off this junk - took me another 2 years to really put the effort in to get clean.
I have a few questions for you before I give you my advice:
1. Whats the deal with your script? Do you usually go to a doctor to get it re-written? are you going to that doctor again soon? how does that work? Because in my oppinion you will never be able to get clean when you have a script and all it takes is to eat just half of one to feel a million times better.
2. How bad is your pain? I am hesitant to give you my advice because I don't know about that side of it, but if you do wnat to get clean and stay clean, you will have to figure out a way to manage your pain.
My advice (or rather how i kicked a 4 year 120 mg oxy habit)
Pre-Prep:
1. Buy a shit ton of kratom. i've also thought the Red MaengDa strains are the best (but any red vein or one's advertised for pain relief)
2. The Kratom is not to get high, it is to stop your cravings, aches, etc - i foudn that it taks away alot of the uncomfort of withdrawals.
3. I also bought a bunch of weed - but thats just me. there are good opiate withdrawl guides on here that give you run down of various OTC medicines that will help ease various withdrawl symptons
Then...
1. Take 1-2 weeks off work - you won't be able to get clean while at work. It sucks, but you are gonna have to make getting clean your upmost priority - especially for the first 30 days.
2. Figure out where you are going to detox. I detoxed in my apartment, but not sure how youre kids/husband would play into this. You could tell them you have the flu or some other sickness and hide in your basement/bedroom maybe, or you could say you have a business trip and go stay at a hotel for a week.
3. Take your last dose at night before bed - and enjoy cause you ain't gonna be sleeping that well for a long time haha.
4. When you wake up, you will prob be withdrawing - or starting to. Take 4-5 gram of kratom - it should reduce alot of the withdrawal symptons - if it doesnt help take another gram. (be careful if you take too much you get weirdly nautious - very very unpleasant lol)
5. For the first few days take another dose of kratom when you start feeling the withdrawal symptoms kick back in.
6. Once you can try and stretch the kratom doses out every 4 hours then 4.5 then 5 hours - or whatever it may be. (For me i was able to really start a scheduled kratom dosage on day 3 or 4 i think, before that i dont remember)
7. I spent the first few days bing watching tv, smoking weed, and forcing myself to drink gatorade and plain pizza (i lived off of delviery plain pizza and gatorade all week lol)
8. On day 3-4 i started getting quite bored - and the kratom had kinda stablized me - started going for walks, then jogs, etc.
9. I continued just smoking weed, dosing kratom, excercsiign as much as i could, and watching tv. for another few days.
10. By day 10 i felt pretty good (still regularly dosing kratom) - but still very lethargic etc
11. Sometime around day 30,45 i really started feeling better.
12. 90 days and i felt so much better
Couple of things is its really important to stay busy, excercise, and pick up new hobbies and coping mmechanisms.
I did end up taking a shit ton of kratom every day for close to 6 months - i then took another "week's vacation" from work and prepared to do it all again but this time kick kratom - it sucked for a couple days but was a complete walk in the park compared to kicking oxy like luaghable IMO to compare the two (even though neither is pleasant).
It all comes down to will power - we all have that little voice in the back of our heads that comes up with some reason or story why just one more pill will be fine. Truth is one pill really does prolong the withdraws - you need to put 30 days clean before you can even really start thinking rationally IMO. 30 days isn't very long though - think of how long you've been on this junk. 1-3 months of hell to be free? it's worth it! and i rreally think kicking heroin is one of the bravest things anyone can do and a tremendous journey of self discovery - so you have that to look forward to
goodluck hope my ramblings helped!
